Wednesday, April 18, 2001
WOOT FUCKING WOOT. they gave me my old job back early. we are setting up when i start now. it should be pretty damn sweet, especially now that i dropped my CS class like the moron i am. it will give me more time to focus on my job, and stuff, hahahaha. I think it is great that they want me back. it is relatively easy job, it pays really well ($11 an hour beyotches), and it is for an environmentally friendly non-profit organization. i don't really care enough about anything, but i guess if i do work somewhere it is nice if they help out or something. so yeah, i should be starting that pretty soon. it is really good timing, because i am in debt now after buying school books. i should have enough money by the time my credit card bill is due to be out of debt. score team me, it isn't really debt unless you get caught.
what else is up here....... oh yeah, i am going to reinstall my computer here pretty soon, so if i don't blog for a day or too, either i am lazy or reinstalling my comp here. so yeah, good deals there, this thing is running like a pile of crap.
other than that, school-wise.... i didn't go to school again today, and i didn't do my homework. I just don't care anymore. hopefully now that i am working, i will get some semblance of a work ethic back, at least enough to start going again. i am sure it will help, it always does. i really am blown out on this whole school thing, i find it to be really annoying that i have to do it. and i have no idea what i want to do. it just feels like i am taking a bunch of random classes to try and get some semblence of an education. eventually someone will make me a choose a major and i will throw a dart at a board and graduate with some random degree. then wham, i am out on the fucking street again. how much you guys want to bet i go crawling back to the place i am going to start working now with some random business degree or something and resume work there. it will probably be better than any job i will get with whatever crack ass degree i end up with. so why the hell am i wasting my time? why don't i just start working full time again???? well, that is basically what i am going to end up doing. i joked about getting kicked out of college, and it happened. i joked about starting up here again, it is happening. well, i am not going to drop out of college. it may take me a few years to get into anything, but i will keep shlumping along with night classes here. apparently someone decided that a degree is vital to ones networth as a person in this world, so here i am, not really caring about a degree, but feeling this need to get one just because society expects me too. whatever, i am good at conforming and all that.
I have also realized that i am a very cynical person, and how much joy i derive from being this cynical. could you guys honestly see me as a happy, motivated successful person? no, i am not built that way. i have a lot of fun being the lazy jackass with the extremely dry humor. i don't want to be motivated or successful. i don't want to have to make great attempts to appear happy. it is great being me. sure i complain a lot, but if i didn't i wouldn't be me. complaining is in my blood. i think up new things to complain about when i am done complaining about things. i am a whiney bitch, and i love it :)
check you all later, i am stoked about this party saturday
what else is up here....... oh yeah, i am going to reinstall my computer here pretty soon, so if i don't blog for a day or too, either i am lazy or reinstalling my comp here. so yeah, good deals there, this thing is running like a pile of crap.
other than that, school-wise.... i didn't go to school again today, and i didn't do my homework. I just don't care anymore. hopefully now that i am working, i will get some semblance of a work ethic back, at least enough to start going again. i am sure it will help, it always does. i really am blown out on this whole school thing, i find it to be really annoying that i have to do it. and i have no idea what i want to do. it just feels like i am taking a bunch of random classes to try and get some semblence of an education. eventually someone will make me a choose a major and i will throw a dart at a board and graduate with some random degree. then wham, i am out on the fucking street again. how much you guys want to bet i go crawling back to the place i am going to start working now with some random business degree or something and resume work there. it will probably be better than any job i will get with whatever crack ass degree i end up with. so why the hell am i wasting my time? why don't i just start working full time again???? well, that is basically what i am going to end up doing. i joked about getting kicked out of college, and it happened. i joked about starting up here again, it is happening. well, i am not going to drop out of college. it may take me a few years to get into anything, but i will keep shlumping along with night classes here. apparently someone decided that a degree is vital to ones networth as a person in this world, so here i am, not really caring about a degree, but feeling this need to get one just because society expects me too. whatever, i am good at conforming and all that.
I have also realized that i am a very cynical person, and how much joy i derive from being this cynical. could you guys honestly see me as a happy, motivated successful person? no, i am not built that way. i have a lot of fun being the lazy jackass with the extremely dry humor. i don't want to be motivated or successful. i don't want to have to make great attempts to appear happy. it is great being me. sure i complain a lot, but if i didn't i wouldn't be me. complaining is in my blood. i think up new things to complain about when i am done complaining about things. i am a whiney bitch, and i love it :)
check you all later, i am stoked about this party saturday
