Monday, September 03, 2001
from trav:
wanks moving out.... wtf?
think about it (wank). live it in your head.
is it worth it?
yes, it is worth it. it needed to be done. the opportunity presented itself, so i had to take it. it sucks, i may be an ass, but it was worth it to me. i hope you and air can see why i did what i did. if not, sucks, but especially after being with me tonight, seeing how i was acting, as compared to how i was acting in the old house, it was worth it. my tension is lifted. worries gone. this is a first day in a long time i haven't spent thinking about solitary things that gave me reason to get through the day. i know you guys can't understand how i felt, how it could be that bad, but it was. i was on the verge of something terrible. no longer am i entertaining thoughts of death or worse :P
i was in a bad spot. i went from rage right back into hardcore depression. it was bad. i hadn't felt like that since i was kicked out of college, and before that jeez, i don't remember. it was best that i remove myself from that spot, before something bad happened to me...
i'm tired, i need sleep. blog mc blog tomorrow.
btw, trav is so money, and he doesn't even know it. he had every right to be a dick, and i salute him for it. sorry it had to happen, but in my opinion, it had to happen. and yes trav, your theme song is Nookie, not Break Stuff. i hope you see why i picked that for you now ;) there's a reason you can't pick your own theme song. go and listen to the lyrics
