Sunday, September 16, 2001
kato, that was pretty much the point of that paragraph. if it had been said in real life, it would be dripping with sarcasm. having trav reserved is not a good thing. having me being bitter and holding it in is not a good thing. having us all putting up a happy facade, but being mad underneath is not a good thing.
the thing is, without this blog, i would never get any of those feelings out. and, i'm out...
well, i'm not going to blog about it anymore. it is a stupid thing. we were all unhappy about the way i left. once you guys get a new person moved in, it will be all good, i think a lot of the tension will be relieved. you know my reasoning behind it, you can be mad at that if you want, but that is your call, i won't knock you for it. but i didn't just ditch you. in a few weeks we will all have forgotten about it anyways. we are guys, with important things, we get really mad all at once, then forget about it. forgetation commenced ;)
so anyways, ryan and I had a pretty funny night last night. we spent it hanging out with a few of our friends from high school and some of their friends. we went to this huge birthday dinner thing at beppos, there was like 20 some of us including parents, roomates, friends, etc. ryan and i sat in the back corner with blake, and only one person came to sit at our table, some other guy who was scared of us. blake ryan and i proceeded to take all the stuff on the table and make a building out of them. we had the wine list on top of salt shakers, with spoons coming off of it going to water glasses, etc. the waiter didn't really know what to do, so he ignored it. the great thing was, as the night progressed, they kept bringing us more food, and more utensils, and more plates and serving bowls to stack. it was pretty funny.
after that we we walked over to the seattle center to go to the WTC memorial at the fountain. i have been trying to put it in the back of my mind the last few days, but seeing all those people and all those flowers brought it out again. it was really moving to me, i was fighting back tears after a few minutes. then, we went back to our friends apartment to drink. it was hilarious. it was me, blake and ryan, and 4 girls drinking, and ryan wasn't having any. so, after a margarita and a shot or two, the girls were all wasted, leaving me and blake sitting around laughing at them. so after they were done, i started drinking heavily. they had this shmirnoff vanilla twist, oh guys. it went down soooo easy. dear lord, i recommend it. after i finished off the majority of the bottle, i was more in the drunken mindset, and the girls were even more amusing. eventually we went out to smoke cigars, something i am really becoming a fan of, and walked to dicks. the girls kind of followed along, complaining, but eventually forgot why they were complaining and started singing. hot damn they were loud, it was awesome. on the way home, we were singing disney themes. somehow it was hilarious. we got back, and tried to watch the little mermaid 2, but most people fell asleep. it was a bad movie, i wouldn't recommend it, but it fit the theme of the night. it was a really fun night, i'm going to have to look them up again, since they more or less refuse to come over and drink with us, we scare them.
i am really really not looking forward to school. working full time and going to school is really going to take its toll on me. but i need the money, at least until i get out of debt. and i really should keep going to school, even though i am going no where. i am seriously considering dropping out completely, for now at least. i really don't have the motivation to do anything school related. it is just pointless for me to go, a waste of time and money.
the thing is, without this blog, i would never get any of those feelings out. and, i'm out...
well, i'm not going to blog about it anymore. it is a stupid thing. we were all unhappy about the way i left. once you guys get a new person moved in, it will be all good, i think a lot of the tension will be relieved. you know my reasoning behind it, you can be mad at that if you want, but that is your call, i won't knock you for it. but i didn't just ditch you. in a few weeks we will all have forgotten about it anyways. we are guys, with important things, we get really mad all at once, then forget about it. forgetation commenced ;)
so anyways, ryan and I had a pretty funny night last night. we spent it hanging out with a few of our friends from high school and some of their friends. we went to this huge birthday dinner thing at beppos, there was like 20 some of us including parents, roomates, friends, etc. ryan and i sat in the back corner with blake, and only one person came to sit at our table, some other guy who was scared of us. blake ryan and i proceeded to take all the stuff on the table and make a building out of them. we had the wine list on top of salt shakers, with spoons coming off of it going to water glasses, etc. the waiter didn't really know what to do, so he ignored it. the great thing was, as the night progressed, they kept bringing us more food, and more utensils, and more plates and serving bowls to stack. it was pretty funny.
after that we we walked over to the seattle center to go to the WTC memorial at the fountain. i have been trying to put it in the back of my mind the last few days, but seeing all those people and all those flowers brought it out again. it was really moving to me, i was fighting back tears after a few minutes. then, we went back to our friends apartment to drink. it was hilarious. it was me, blake and ryan, and 4 girls drinking, and ryan wasn't having any. so, after a margarita and a shot or two, the girls were all wasted, leaving me and blake sitting around laughing at them. so after they were done, i started drinking heavily. they had this shmirnoff vanilla twist, oh guys. it went down soooo easy. dear lord, i recommend it. after i finished off the majority of the bottle, i was more in the drunken mindset, and the girls were even more amusing. eventually we went out to smoke cigars, something i am really becoming a fan of, and walked to dicks. the girls kind of followed along, complaining, but eventually forgot why they were complaining and started singing. hot damn they were loud, it was awesome. on the way home, we were singing disney themes. somehow it was hilarious. we got back, and tried to watch the little mermaid 2, but most people fell asleep. it was a bad movie, i wouldn't recommend it, but it fit the theme of the night. it was a really fun night, i'm going to have to look them up again, since they more or less refuse to come over and drink with us, we scare them.
i am really really not looking forward to school. working full time and going to school is really going to take its toll on me. but i need the money, at least until i get out of debt. and i really should keep going to school, even though i am going no where. i am seriously considering dropping out completely, for now at least. i really don't have the motivation to do anything school related. it is just pointless for me to go, a waste of time and money.
