Sunday, September 30, 2001
so yeah, one of my good online friends has started up a blog. i love it, because he always writes so much, and it always seems so pertinent to me. so yeah, i am pretty sure he reads this too, so i wanted to let him know i read his blog. Thanks Jing, for the support :)
sometimes it is wierd, to get support from someone you have only met one or two times, or not at all in "real life." i have a pretty tight knit group of friends i have met online through video games. it was very strange, about two years ago, when i first started chatting and such online, on mirc or in a game. before college i was limited to instant messengers between friends and such, and that was limited to things like "hey, come over." then, dan got everyone into this game called unreal tournament. in the game, there was this great chat feature, an IRC client built right into the game. eventually, i spent more time chatting than i did actually playing, and eventually i just download mIRC and started browsing on forums and such, instead of even loading the game. now, i have irc open all the time, and i check about 4 forums regularly, even if i don't post. in the past 2 years, i have completely dredged myself into the life of an online junky :) it is cool, because there is an element of mystery to the people on the other side of the computer. it tends to loosen your inhibitions, which can be a good thing and a bad thing. some people, it gives them a huge boost to their ego, and turns them into asses. there are countless monkeys that just yammer on and on about how they "own you" and such. hell, everyone goes through a stage like that, where they start winning, and it is just so fun to be like "haha! you just got beat up by me!" i went through a stage like that, when i started getting good at UT. some people never out grow that stage. they either keep getting good, even if it is soley to be able to back up all their talk, or quit entirely, and refer back to how good they used to be, and make excuses for why they suck. that used to be me, making constant exuses. but then, a lot of people out grow that too, and realize what it is, just a game, even though for a lot of us it is more than a game. it is a hobby, a competetive outlet... when you just give up, find some people who you really enjoy playing with, and just kind of pal around with them, that is when it is fun, and that is when you build friendships and stuff. i think i kind of got off topic there... the original intent of this part was going to be about how people can be so different from their online persona in real life. anyways, that is me, in some respects. i am kind of goofy, in real life, at least around my really good friends. in situations i am less than totally comfortable in, i turn into a shy ball of silence. so, when i go to LANs and meet these people, it is kind of awkward, so i end up coming off as the chill guy in the corner. you know, it is a lot like parties and getting drunk (everything with me can refer back to getting drunk). when you are just drinking with friends, crazy things happen. it is a wacky good time. but when you are at a party, and there are people you don't know and such, you kind of try to be chill and cool, instead of wacky, because everyone will be freaked out...
hmmm.... i am having trouble collecting my thoughts coherently this morning, i'll try to blog later, lol ;)
sometimes it is wierd, to get support from someone you have only met one or two times, or not at all in "real life." i have a pretty tight knit group of friends i have met online through video games. it was very strange, about two years ago, when i first started chatting and such online, on mirc or in a game. before college i was limited to instant messengers between friends and such, and that was limited to things like "hey, come over." then, dan got everyone into this game called unreal tournament. in the game, there was this great chat feature, an IRC client built right into the game. eventually, i spent more time chatting than i did actually playing, and eventually i just download mIRC and started browsing on forums and such, instead of even loading the game. now, i have irc open all the time, and i check about 4 forums regularly, even if i don't post. in the past 2 years, i have completely dredged myself into the life of an online junky :) it is cool, because there is an element of mystery to the people on the other side of the computer. it tends to loosen your inhibitions, which can be a good thing and a bad thing. some people, it gives them a huge boost to their ego, and turns them into asses. there are countless monkeys that just yammer on and on about how they "own you" and such. hell, everyone goes through a stage like that, where they start winning, and it is just so fun to be like "haha! you just got beat up by me!" i went through a stage like that, when i started getting good at UT. some people never out grow that stage. they either keep getting good, even if it is soley to be able to back up all their talk, or quit entirely, and refer back to how good they used to be, and make excuses for why they suck. that used to be me, making constant exuses. but then, a lot of people out grow that too, and realize what it is, just a game, even though for a lot of us it is more than a game. it is a hobby, a competetive outlet... when you just give up, find some people who you really enjoy playing with, and just kind of pal around with them, that is when it is fun, and that is when you build friendships and stuff. i think i kind of got off topic there... the original intent of this part was going to be about how people can be so different from their online persona in real life. anyways, that is me, in some respects. i am kind of goofy, in real life, at least around my really good friends. in situations i am less than totally comfortable in, i turn into a shy ball of silence. so, when i go to LANs and meet these people, it is kind of awkward, so i end up coming off as the chill guy in the corner. you know, it is a lot like parties and getting drunk (everything with me can refer back to getting drunk). when you are just drinking with friends, crazy things happen. it is a wacky good time. but when you are at a party, and there are people you don't know and such, you kind of try to be chill and cool, instead of wacky, because everyone will be freaked out...
hmmm.... i am having trouble collecting my thoughts coherently this morning, i'll try to blog later, lol ;)
