Wednesday, November 28, 2001
ok, shibby on the work, yo....
here i am, at work. the problem with work? i have to be here. i am not at home sleeping.
being at work always makes me think about why i am at work, and such... its a scary thing to do. to think about what would happen if i wasn't working. i am more or less living paycheck to paycheck right now. what would happen to me if i quit my job, and was making less? how would i do it? on the other hand, my job is going crazy right now. someone else is about to leave. people are making me do work, so i am actually staying busy, more or less. i am not ready for what they are expecting me to do, and i am getting to the point where i can't lay back and not be noticed quite as easily. when this person leaves, we will have 8 employees, besides my two bosses and the accountant. 8, god damn... when i came on in april, i think we had 15. 2 of these people are not involved at all with the restoration part of the job, so they don't have anything to do right now. basically, we are 6. the work that needs to be done hasn't changed, which is the crux of the problem. so, i am getting more and more things to do, things i am not qualified to do, things i wasn't expecting to do for a while. a few months ago, i was excited to maybe get more involved. the more i think, the more i realize i really don't care about this job. for me, it isn't worth the added stress. i have been seriously thinking about quitting. if i stay here, i am going to get more busy, and have more tasks thrown on me that i don't know how to do. On top of that, there is no raise in site. people aren't even getting their annual pay increases, so there is no way they will start paying me more. i have no idea how much my coworkers make. i think it is in the general area of $25-$30 an hour, but probably it is more like $20-$25 an hour. still, i imagine these people are making over twice as much as i am making. yet, i am expected to take on the responsibilites they are taking on. this sucks. the really terrible thing is, it is just going to get worse. everyone on the staff has resumes out, and is looking for a new job, except myself. the reason being, it is not hard for me to find a job. i lose it, i go deliver pizzas :P not too tough. but yeah, there are no plans to hire anyone else until spring. only 1 person really sees himself still being here in spring. realistically, i can see maybe 2 others besides myself staying that long. 3 people doing the work of 6 highly overworked people. it would be death. in the next 2 months, i plan on watching at least 2 more of my coworkers leave. that brings us to the end of january. which means we still have at least another month before they start the hiring process.
other thoughts going through my head... what makes this job so fun? the people i work with. the job itself pretty much sucks, but i love my coworkers. what will happen when new people come on, and there are only 3 of us left? the 3 of us will have an even harder time. we will have to train these people, because they won't know what the fuck is going on. no one does when the first get hired here. it would be madness. of the 3 people i see being here at that point, one of us has been here more than a year (i don't count myself as being here over a year, i took 6 months off). the other guy is still coming into his own, and i don't know how well he would do actually guiding people through the processes he is still learning. and then there is me, who doesn't know shit. i pretend to know what i am doing when my bosses are around, so they will leave me alone. i would be the guy who shows the new people how to slack, etc. this is an important job. i was fortunate to have someone show me early on, which has made this job much more bearable. anyways, i always feel that i am more of an in between guy between my coworkers and anyone else. when we are working with our labor crews, i serve as a go between guy from my foundation, who are there bosses, and them. so like, when my coworkers tell them what to do, i try to go out and do it with them when i have the time. i will show them tricks i have learned to make it faster, joke around about how much the job sucks, you know things like that. try to make a connection with them, so they will feel they are not alone in what they are doing. it works pretty well. it adds a human element to my foundation, at least in their perspective. when new people come, there will be that obvious division, of us, and then the new guy. i imagine i'll be the one that kind of shows them the way things REALLY work, such as lunch, leaving early, ignoring our bosses, you know, the little slack things it usually takes forever to learn. these things are vital to this job, otherwise you get burnt out.
here i am, at work. the problem with work? i have to be here. i am not at home sleeping.
being at work always makes me think about why i am at work, and such... its a scary thing to do. to think about what would happen if i wasn't working. i am more or less living paycheck to paycheck right now. what would happen to me if i quit my job, and was making less? how would i do it? on the other hand, my job is going crazy right now. someone else is about to leave. people are making me do work, so i am actually staying busy, more or less. i am not ready for what they are expecting me to do, and i am getting to the point where i can't lay back and not be noticed quite as easily. when this person leaves, we will have 8 employees, besides my two bosses and the accountant. 8, god damn... when i came on in april, i think we had 15. 2 of these people are not involved at all with the restoration part of the job, so they don't have anything to do right now. basically, we are 6. the work that needs to be done hasn't changed, which is the crux of the problem. so, i am getting more and more things to do, things i am not qualified to do, things i wasn't expecting to do for a while. a few months ago, i was excited to maybe get more involved. the more i think, the more i realize i really don't care about this job. for me, it isn't worth the added stress. i have been seriously thinking about quitting. if i stay here, i am going to get more busy, and have more tasks thrown on me that i don't know how to do. On top of that, there is no raise in site. people aren't even getting their annual pay increases, so there is no way they will start paying me more. i have no idea how much my coworkers make. i think it is in the general area of $25-$30 an hour, but probably it is more like $20-$25 an hour. still, i imagine these people are making over twice as much as i am making. yet, i am expected to take on the responsibilites they are taking on. this sucks. the really terrible thing is, it is just going to get worse. everyone on the staff has resumes out, and is looking for a new job, except myself. the reason being, it is not hard for me to find a job. i lose it, i go deliver pizzas :P not too tough. but yeah, there are no plans to hire anyone else until spring. only 1 person really sees himself still being here in spring. realistically, i can see maybe 2 others besides myself staying that long. 3 people doing the work of 6 highly overworked people. it would be death. in the next 2 months, i plan on watching at least 2 more of my coworkers leave. that brings us to the end of january. which means we still have at least another month before they start the hiring process.
other thoughts going through my head... what makes this job so fun? the people i work with. the job itself pretty much sucks, but i love my coworkers. what will happen when new people come on, and there are only 3 of us left? the 3 of us will have an even harder time. we will have to train these people, because they won't know what the fuck is going on. no one does when the first get hired here. it would be madness. of the 3 people i see being here at that point, one of us has been here more than a year (i don't count myself as being here over a year, i took 6 months off). the other guy is still coming into his own, and i don't know how well he would do actually guiding people through the processes he is still learning. and then there is me, who doesn't know shit. i pretend to know what i am doing when my bosses are around, so they will leave me alone. i would be the guy who shows the new people how to slack, etc. this is an important job. i was fortunate to have someone show me early on, which has made this job much more bearable. anyways, i always feel that i am more of an in between guy between my coworkers and anyone else. when we are working with our labor crews, i serve as a go between guy from my foundation, who are there bosses, and them. so like, when my coworkers tell them what to do, i try to go out and do it with them when i have the time. i will show them tricks i have learned to make it faster, joke around about how much the job sucks, you know things like that. try to make a connection with them, so they will feel they are not alone in what they are doing. it works pretty well. it adds a human element to my foundation, at least in their perspective. when new people come, there will be that obvious division, of us, and then the new guy. i imagine i'll be the one that kind of shows them the way things REALLY work, such as lunch, leaving early, ignoring our bosses, you know, the little slack things it usually takes forever to learn. these things are vital to this job, otherwise you get burnt out.
