Monday, December 10, 2001
saw a funny liscense plate today. it was on this camry or something, and it said 500 - MPH. it wasn't a vanity plate, thats just what it was. well, i thought it was funny...
i am really annoyed with my job right now. they keep changing the schedule without telling me, or with like one day notice. the stuff i am doing is stuff i really shouldn't be doing. all this stuff where i am leading kids in activities, not what i am supposed to be doing. i just got switched onto a project this wed. i will be leading a group teaching kids about restoration at a park i have been too once. great, sounds like a blast. the thing is, it looks like all the education team, the team who is supposed to be taking care of this are available to do it, they just don't want to because it is raining and cold outside. so i get stuck with the job. my group isn't going to learn anything. the teachers are going to hate me. it is going to be the longest two hours of my life. BAH.
i don't like the fact that people are being lazier than me at work, because i am making a true effort to be the laziest one here. i am definitely the most successful lazy person at my office, because i don't get caught, but still. i guess i can always bask in the glow of this summers lazyness. me and ryan will never be topped, in any job, anywhere.
gah, on of my bosses just came down and talked to me. she wants me to talk to her about my future plans here. i told her we should meet about it sometime. she wanted to talk to me about it now, but i don't feel like telling her i am jumping on the first boat i see that is heading out of here. i really hope this job comes through. i haven't checked my email yet, but my dad said he talked to the guy at church on sunday. he told my dad that he had talked to the head of production, and that there were a few seats opening up in the next 2 weeks. sounds good, sounds very good. hopefully i hear soon, and hopefully i can get one of those seats. i can't want to have a job inside again. i am getting tired of showing up home drenched, muddy, freezing and physically exhausted. the disgusting state the gloves i wear leaves my hands in is annoying. my cuticles are all destroyed, and i constantly have blisters and such. i just want to get the smell of old moldy gloves out of my car. i don't care what else the job is. i am ready to move on. you guys wonder why i am so lazy? because i really do not care if i lose my job. i do not care about what happens at these parks. i started off well, but as time has gone past, i have gotten away with more and more. there is no one to put any checks on me whatsoever. my coworkers don't care, as long as i don't screw them up. they all enjoy my presence, so they turn a blind eye. i have reached a point of comfort. i am not getting anymore lazy. i kind of go in fluxes. for the last little bit, i have been really good. but friday i left really early, and today i took a long lunch break. i feel another downswing coming up. fuck it, who cares. i want my new job.
in other news, i have a splinter, or a little piece of rock, or a shard of glass or something in one of my finger tips. it makes typing really painful, at least for o, l and period. bah
in other other news, i think i may have found a new addiction. dan will think this is funny. i started playing this MUD a few days ago. mud stands for multi user something or other, it is basically this text based game thing. i have been running around killing smurfs. it sounds pretty stupid, but it is a lot of fun. anyways, the guy who is running it is running it off his personal computer, so it goes down a lot. like, when he goes to sleep he turns off his computers. kind of annoying, because we can only play it when he is around and online. also, his isp called him and bitched because technically he is running a server, which is against the rules. so he has to take it down, by tomorrow. bah! i want to go home and play it right now, because i know it is up. fucke
i am losing my mind.
me and my friend Jing (from the link bar) were talking on IRC about being a girl instead of a guy. we agreed that it would definitely be interesting. not easier, just interesting. i thought it was cool that he kind of saw what i was getting at, and didn't think i was just wierd or something :) anyways, sometimes i almost thing i would be better at being a girl. no, that doesn't mean it would be easier for me to be a girl, just that i would be more successful. its like, i am better at anything but what my job is right now, but i am sticking with it because it is easy. but i would be more successful at any other job, even if it is harder. i just think i could do a better job at being a girl sometimes...
there is a certain amount of satisfaction to be derived from success. and if people are paying me to succeed, i think i could do it. college, i couldn't, because there was no tangible reward for doing well. why bother? with work, you have a visible reason to keep working. if you don't work, you don't get paid. if you don't work, you get fired. none of this if you don't work, in 4 quarters you are kicked out. that is like a year of slack i got away with. with work, the reason to work is to get paid. that is why you do it. if you can derive some other satisfaction from work, you will keep going back, and you won't hate it. also, the bigger the paycheck, the less stress you ultimately have, and the less you will dread work. money does lead to happyness. actually, it is more of a lack of money leads to unhappyness. anyways, money plays an important role. if i was making 20 some an hour at the job i have now, i wouldn't be complaining nearly as much.
i want to go home and play my mud ;) actually, i haven't had my turntables hooked up for a while now. i had to cannibalize my other power strip to go hook something else on the other side of the room up. i forget exactly what it was.. that is the downside to having one outlet in your room, you kind of have to run cords and stuff all over. anyways, i saw this extra power strip downstairs. i'm going to straight up jack it (read, borrow it until someone needs it back) and hook up my turntables again.
another funny thing, my parents bought us a christmas tree. they also gave us some lights and ornaments for it. we weren't going to get a tree, because none of us wanted to sweep up the needles that fell off. so they got one for us. it was pretty funny. we all felt really bad, because our house was a disaster when they came over. gah.
wankformers....
i am really annoyed with my job right now. they keep changing the schedule without telling me, or with like one day notice. the stuff i am doing is stuff i really shouldn't be doing. all this stuff where i am leading kids in activities, not what i am supposed to be doing. i just got switched onto a project this wed. i will be leading a group teaching kids about restoration at a park i have been too once. great, sounds like a blast. the thing is, it looks like all the education team, the team who is supposed to be taking care of this are available to do it, they just don't want to because it is raining and cold outside. so i get stuck with the job. my group isn't going to learn anything. the teachers are going to hate me. it is going to be the longest two hours of my life. BAH.
i don't like the fact that people are being lazier than me at work, because i am making a true effort to be the laziest one here. i am definitely the most successful lazy person at my office, because i don't get caught, but still. i guess i can always bask in the glow of this summers lazyness. me and ryan will never be topped, in any job, anywhere.
gah, on of my bosses just came down and talked to me. she wants me to talk to her about my future plans here. i told her we should meet about it sometime. she wanted to talk to me about it now, but i don't feel like telling her i am jumping on the first boat i see that is heading out of here. i really hope this job comes through. i haven't checked my email yet, but my dad said he talked to the guy at church on sunday. he told my dad that he had talked to the head of production, and that there were a few seats opening up in the next 2 weeks. sounds good, sounds very good. hopefully i hear soon, and hopefully i can get one of those seats. i can't want to have a job inside again. i am getting tired of showing up home drenched, muddy, freezing and physically exhausted. the disgusting state the gloves i wear leaves my hands in is annoying. my cuticles are all destroyed, and i constantly have blisters and such. i just want to get the smell of old moldy gloves out of my car. i don't care what else the job is. i am ready to move on. you guys wonder why i am so lazy? because i really do not care if i lose my job. i do not care about what happens at these parks. i started off well, but as time has gone past, i have gotten away with more and more. there is no one to put any checks on me whatsoever. my coworkers don't care, as long as i don't screw them up. they all enjoy my presence, so they turn a blind eye. i have reached a point of comfort. i am not getting anymore lazy. i kind of go in fluxes. for the last little bit, i have been really good. but friday i left really early, and today i took a long lunch break. i feel another downswing coming up. fuck it, who cares. i want my new job.
in other news, i have a splinter, or a little piece of rock, or a shard of glass or something in one of my finger tips. it makes typing really painful, at least for o, l and period. bah
in other other news, i think i may have found a new addiction. dan will think this is funny. i started playing this MUD a few days ago. mud stands for multi user something or other, it is basically this text based game thing. i have been running around killing smurfs. it sounds pretty stupid, but it is a lot of fun. anyways, the guy who is running it is running it off his personal computer, so it goes down a lot. like, when he goes to sleep he turns off his computers. kind of annoying, because we can only play it when he is around and online. also, his isp called him and bitched because technically he is running a server, which is against the rules. so he has to take it down, by tomorrow. bah! i want to go home and play it right now, because i know it is up. fucke
i am losing my mind.
me and my friend Jing (from the link bar) were talking on IRC about being a girl instead of a guy. we agreed that it would definitely be interesting. not easier, just interesting. i thought it was cool that he kind of saw what i was getting at, and didn't think i was just wierd or something :) anyways, sometimes i almost thing i would be better at being a girl. no, that doesn't mean it would be easier for me to be a girl, just that i would be more successful. its like, i am better at anything but what my job is right now, but i am sticking with it because it is easy. but i would be more successful at any other job, even if it is harder. i just think i could do a better job at being a girl sometimes...
there is a certain amount of satisfaction to be derived from success. and if people are paying me to succeed, i think i could do it. college, i couldn't, because there was no tangible reward for doing well. why bother? with work, you have a visible reason to keep working. if you don't work, you don't get paid. if you don't work, you get fired. none of this if you don't work, in 4 quarters you are kicked out. that is like a year of slack i got away with. with work, the reason to work is to get paid. that is why you do it. if you can derive some other satisfaction from work, you will keep going back, and you won't hate it. also, the bigger the paycheck, the less stress you ultimately have, and the less you will dread work. money does lead to happyness. actually, it is more of a lack of money leads to unhappyness. anyways, money plays an important role. if i was making 20 some an hour at the job i have now, i wouldn't be complaining nearly as much.
i want to go home and play my mud ;) actually, i haven't had my turntables hooked up for a while now. i had to cannibalize my other power strip to go hook something else on the other side of the room up. i forget exactly what it was.. that is the downside to having one outlet in your room, you kind of have to run cords and stuff all over. anyways, i saw this extra power strip downstairs. i'm going to straight up jack it (read, borrow it until someone needs it back) and hook up my turntables again.
another funny thing, my parents bought us a christmas tree. they also gave us some lights and ornaments for it. we weren't going to get a tree, because none of us wanted to sweep up the needles that fell off. so they got one for us. it was pretty funny. we all felt really bad, because our house was a disaster when they came over. gah.
wankformers....
