Wednesday, December 12, 2001
trav: gorillaz - 19-2000 (soulchild remix) thats the one, it sounds completely different from the version on the cd, and the other remix floating around.
manuel: yeah yeah, thats the stuff!! multi user dungeons, yee haw. although, i was trying to find one to play, to satisfy my cravings, and they all suck. they are confusing. then i realized they weren't all muds, theres moos and mushs and smaugs, and all sorts of cool stuff. anyways, the computer we had when i was little was a mac se, and we had prodigy for about a month. my early internet experience included about 3 games of carmen san diego. it was like that until we finally got an obsolete p1-100, with aol 1.0 even, i think.by then the internet was real, not limited to old school things like muds and bbs.
i think your friend in arizona is over dramatic ;) i didn't say it would be more advantageous to be female, just interesting to be female. obviously each gender has advantages and disadvantages. girls cant get their wang caught in the zipper of their jeans, that is an advantage to being a girl :P it is kind of a fun thing to think about sometimes, what it would be like to go to a complete polar opposite in life.
work sucks. the institution of work sucks. i think i am destined to spend a year and a half or so at each job i have slowly building up bitterness and hatred. eventually, i will just snap and quit every job i have. eventually, i will be like 70, i will have had 25 completely different careers, and the only job i can get is flipping burgers at mcdonalds because that is the only job physically left. but seriously, i hate work. i hate the thought of work. i hate how stupid work can be. i get caught up sometimes, thinking about my job. i feel bad, because i literally feel like i am doing nothing helpful, yet i am still getting paid. i am working towards a cause i don't necessarily believe in. i am striving to achieve my bosses vision, a vision i don't share. it is not the cause, necessarily, that i find stupid, just the way we go about things, and they way the cause gets twisted around. today, i get to go teach a bunch of 5th graders about this cause. why the hell am i doing education now!!! they hired me a year and a half ago to do the grunt labor that no one else wanted to do. these days, they treat me like i actually know what i am doing. all my coworkers have some sort of degree at least, some knowlege of the way things work. my bosses act like i should be some horticulture/restoration expert. they give me jobs i can't hope to complete in any decent manner. i wish i could go back to the days where i truely was just the mindless help. they still expect me to do all this stuff, even though i don't have time to do it. like yesterday. there were about 30 bags of weeds in the office driveway from this summer. i think me and ryan were supposed to haul them to the dump. we never got around to it. so they sat there, and sat there. then the bags started decomposing, so they were just these lumps of weeds with nasty slimy paper bag all around them. yesterday, i finally took them to the dump. dump runs at my job are tricky, because you need the van to take all the shit. they usually take up the better portion of half a day to do. it is really hard to find a time where the van is there for half a day, and you don't have some other pressing thing to work on. i almost didn't get the van back in time as it is. it was a nasty job, because i loaded them all into hefty sacks so they didn't make the inside of the van completey nasty. then i had to take a shovel and scrape the rest of the paper bags off the sidewalk. and it was raining. woe is me. pity party for one please :P
i need to get out of this job. me and one of my coworkers are supposed to meet with the head of the foundation and the landscape architect to discuss our action plans we are supposed to be doing. these are supposed to encompass the next year or so, with predictions for like the next 5 years. the thing is, i don't care, so i am going to be sitting there staring at the table, trying not to cry out in anger at the stupid things my boss has to say. i know i don't plan on staying on at this job long enough to see any of these plans carried out. i do things to relieve stress from my coworkers. if it wasn't for them, i wouldn't do anything, period. fuck it all, anyways
anyways, blogasmic...
manuel: yeah yeah, thats the stuff!! multi user dungeons, yee haw. although, i was trying to find one to play, to satisfy my cravings, and they all suck. they are confusing. then i realized they weren't all muds, theres moos and mushs and smaugs, and all sorts of cool stuff. anyways, the computer we had when i was little was a mac se, and we had prodigy for about a month. my early internet experience included about 3 games of carmen san diego. it was like that until we finally got an obsolete p1-100, with aol 1.0 even, i think.by then the internet was real, not limited to old school things like muds and bbs.
i think your friend in arizona is over dramatic ;) i didn't say it would be more advantageous to be female, just interesting to be female. obviously each gender has advantages and disadvantages. girls cant get their wang caught in the zipper of their jeans, that is an advantage to being a girl :P it is kind of a fun thing to think about sometimes, what it would be like to go to a complete polar opposite in life.
work sucks. the institution of work sucks. i think i am destined to spend a year and a half or so at each job i have slowly building up bitterness and hatred. eventually, i will just snap and quit every job i have. eventually, i will be like 70, i will have had 25 completely different careers, and the only job i can get is flipping burgers at mcdonalds because that is the only job physically left. but seriously, i hate work. i hate the thought of work. i hate how stupid work can be. i get caught up sometimes, thinking about my job. i feel bad, because i literally feel like i am doing nothing helpful, yet i am still getting paid. i am working towards a cause i don't necessarily believe in. i am striving to achieve my bosses vision, a vision i don't share. it is not the cause, necessarily, that i find stupid, just the way we go about things, and they way the cause gets twisted around. today, i get to go teach a bunch of 5th graders about this cause. why the hell am i doing education now!!! they hired me a year and a half ago to do the grunt labor that no one else wanted to do. these days, they treat me like i actually know what i am doing. all my coworkers have some sort of degree at least, some knowlege of the way things work. my bosses act like i should be some horticulture/restoration expert. they give me jobs i can't hope to complete in any decent manner. i wish i could go back to the days where i truely was just the mindless help. they still expect me to do all this stuff, even though i don't have time to do it. like yesterday. there were about 30 bags of weeds in the office driveway from this summer. i think me and ryan were supposed to haul them to the dump. we never got around to it. so they sat there, and sat there. then the bags started decomposing, so they were just these lumps of weeds with nasty slimy paper bag all around them. yesterday, i finally took them to the dump. dump runs at my job are tricky, because you need the van to take all the shit. they usually take up the better portion of half a day to do. it is really hard to find a time where the van is there for half a day, and you don't have some other pressing thing to work on. i almost didn't get the van back in time as it is. it was a nasty job, because i loaded them all into hefty sacks so they didn't make the inside of the van completey nasty. then i had to take a shovel and scrape the rest of the paper bags off the sidewalk. and it was raining. woe is me. pity party for one please :P
i need to get out of this job. me and one of my coworkers are supposed to meet with the head of the foundation and the landscape architect to discuss our action plans we are supposed to be doing. these are supposed to encompass the next year or so, with predictions for like the next 5 years. the thing is, i don't care, so i am going to be sitting there staring at the table, trying not to cry out in anger at the stupid things my boss has to say. i know i don't plan on staying on at this job long enough to see any of these plans carried out. i do things to relieve stress from my coworkers. if it wasn't for them, i wouldn't do anything, period. fuck it all, anyways
anyways, blogasmic...
