Friday, January 11, 2002
i am so bowing out of here early today, i can't stand it
i really want to just quit my job. i saw a sign that blockbuster video near greenwood is hiring. that would suck even worse though. still.... i wish money was no consequence. i wish i could just be a bum and sit on my ass all day. i really wish this Alerton place in redmond would call me back. i'm going to send them and email on monday i think. i have been trying to think of reasons to keep my job now. all the reasons i could think of are just jackass reasons. like how they let me slack. that is the main reason to stay at this job. i really don't care about native plant restoration. there are times where i feel like i care, and then i just realize it is the good mood i am in out of work brushing off on work. i really don't care. that has become my motto these days. "don't know don't care." i wish i could just make up a shirt that said that, and when someone asked me something, i could just point at my shirt. or maybe i could get a sign and carry it around.
today, i was working with this crew. last time i saw them was at their pseudo orientation thing, like their first day out in the field. we were in charge of breaking them in. there was this one girl who kind of followed me around and tried to strike up all sorts of conversations with me, who i really didn't feel like talking too. i think she has a crush on me. today again, she kept talking to me, and asking stupid questions in what seemed like an attempt to talk to me. there have been a few girls who have done this from these contract labor crews. the thing is, i really have no interest in hanging out with these people outside of work. they aren't the type of people i would like to hang out with, for the most part. they are working at this place because of the cause, not because it is a good job, and definitely not because of the money. they are the people who would take up a different thing to protest about in red square every week. they are all kind of annoying. i dunno, the two girls i find kind of annoying, the one because she kind of hounds me, and the other just because she is really annoying. she is a complete know it all type, pretending to be smart and self taught. well, she is self taught, its just that she hasn't taught herself anything useful yet. like today. we were placing plants. placing plants isn't an exact science, especially the type of placing we were doing today. this area has already been planted, and we were just putting out a bunch of extra plants we had no room for. so she is wandering around, asking all these questions about the plants, and everytime she would come up to me, i would just be like, i don't know, and i don't really care. so she would just stand there talking like she knew the answer, and i didn't know the answer but i knew she was probably wrong, so i just kind of ignored her. she also putting way too much thought into where to put these plants. she was like, i was thinking of putting this one over here, is that ok? because if i did that, then this one could go here, and blah blah blah blah. everytime she did that, i was like, yeah thats great, do it. she was just annoying, she reminded me kind of like that monique person manuel brought over that time, but a little more naive, and a lot less bitter. there is a certain type of people that generally works in the restoration field. this personality type generally clashes with my personality type. it is kind of funny that way. the two guys are pretty cool, at least they don't make me angry in any way. i threw a frisbee around with them for a bit, so at least that was fun.
i was thinking yesterday, about how rediculous some ads and protests and stuff are. like those adds on the busses with the smoking teeth and stuff, looking all nasty. that got me to thinking about people who protest abortion and have pictures of aborted fetuses. how is a picture of an aborted fetus supposed to be an arguement against abortion? sure it is nasty, but beyond that it really doesn't make sense. people don't go around showing pictures of some guy with his chest cut open to protest open heart surgery, do they? and like, i wouldn't show someone a picture of a bloody removed organ to protest against kidney transplants. this is how my thought process went, from seeing those nasty teeth on a bus, to protesting kidney transplants, it was funny.
yesterday, i tried to break my own rule. i was driving home, and i was like HA, i'm going to blog when i get home, i'll show myself, haha!!! thinks he's so smart..... anyways, i get home, all psyched to prove myself wrong, i get into my room, sit down, and then i feel too lazy to open blogger. i'm like, maaaaaah, i'll do it tomorrow. jeez, beaten by myself, once again. i even had stuff to talk about!! i had composed this whole brilliant victory paragraph in my head about the fact that i had blogged at home, instead of work. but then i'm just like, screw that, i'm going to sit here and stare at my blank desktop for a while. i don't even have a desktop. i was cleaning out some folders, and i was too lazy to deselect the file i had as my desktop, so i just deleted it. now i don't have a desktop. its been like this for like a month and a half. i'm too lazy to go find something new. oh well, a black box with icons on it isn't that bad i suppose. still....
gah, i can't take this anymore. i want to go home. i don't have anything to do at home, but at least i will be there. i'm gonna see if i can sneak out here. ha, yes i can, i don't even need to check, and i don't need to sneak even. by sneaking out, i mean walking out, because everyone else works upstairs now. no one ever really comes downstairs anymore, except to leave. oh yeah, another wierd thing, i haven't recieved an email at work in like 2 days. thats nuts. if i manage not to get anymore today, that will lead to the weekend, and it will be like 4 days of nothing, that would be a record.
anyways, adios, wankchachos
i really want to just quit my job. i saw a sign that blockbuster video near greenwood is hiring. that would suck even worse though. still.... i wish money was no consequence. i wish i could just be a bum and sit on my ass all day. i really wish this Alerton place in redmond would call me back. i'm going to send them and email on monday i think. i have been trying to think of reasons to keep my job now. all the reasons i could think of are just jackass reasons. like how they let me slack. that is the main reason to stay at this job. i really don't care about native plant restoration. there are times where i feel like i care, and then i just realize it is the good mood i am in out of work brushing off on work. i really don't care. that has become my motto these days. "don't know don't care." i wish i could just make up a shirt that said that, and when someone asked me something, i could just point at my shirt. or maybe i could get a sign and carry it around.
today, i was working with this crew. last time i saw them was at their pseudo orientation thing, like their first day out in the field. we were in charge of breaking them in. there was this one girl who kind of followed me around and tried to strike up all sorts of conversations with me, who i really didn't feel like talking too. i think she has a crush on me. today again, she kept talking to me, and asking stupid questions in what seemed like an attempt to talk to me. there have been a few girls who have done this from these contract labor crews. the thing is, i really have no interest in hanging out with these people outside of work. they aren't the type of people i would like to hang out with, for the most part. they are working at this place because of the cause, not because it is a good job, and definitely not because of the money. they are the people who would take up a different thing to protest about in red square every week. they are all kind of annoying. i dunno, the two girls i find kind of annoying, the one because she kind of hounds me, and the other just because she is really annoying. she is a complete know it all type, pretending to be smart and self taught. well, she is self taught, its just that she hasn't taught herself anything useful yet. like today. we were placing plants. placing plants isn't an exact science, especially the type of placing we were doing today. this area has already been planted, and we were just putting out a bunch of extra plants we had no room for. so she is wandering around, asking all these questions about the plants, and everytime she would come up to me, i would just be like, i don't know, and i don't really care. so she would just stand there talking like she knew the answer, and i didn't know the answer but i knew she was probably wrong, so i just kind of ignored her. she also putting way too much thought into where to put these plants. she was like, i was thinking of putting this one over here, is that ok? because if i did that, then this one could go here, and blah blah blah blah. everytime she did that, i was like, yeah thats great, do it. she was just annoying, she reminded me kind of like that monique person manuel brought over that time, but a little more naive, and a lot less bitter. there is a certain type of people that generally works in the restoration field. this personality type generally clashes with my personality type. it is kind of funny that way. the two guys are pretty cool, at least they don't make me angry in any way. i threw a frisbee around with them for a bit, so at least that was fun.
i was thinking yesterday, about how rediculous some ads and protests and stuff are. like those adds on the busses with the smoking teeth and stuff, looking all nasty. that got me to thinking about people who protest abortion and have pictures of aborted fetuses. how is a picture of an aborted fetus supposed to be an arguement against abortion? sure it is nasty, but beyond that it really doesn't make sense. people don't go around showing pictures of some guy with his chest cut open to protest open heart surgery, do they? and like, i wouldn't show someone a picture of a bloody removed organ to protest against kidney transplants. this is how my thought process went, from seeing those nasty teeth on a bus, to protesting kidney transplants, it was funny.
yesterday, i tried to break my own rule. i was driving home, and i was like HA, i'm going to blog when i get home, i'll show myself, haha!!! thinks he's so smart..... anyways, i get home, all psyched to prove myself wrong, i get into my room, sit down, and then i feel too lazy to open blogger. i'm like, maaaaaah, i'll do it tomorrow. jeez, beaten by myself, once again. i even had stuff to talk about!! i had composed this whole brilliant victory paragraph in my head about the fact that i had blogged at home, instead of work. but then i'm just like, screw that, i'm going to sit here and stare at my blank desktop for a while. i don't even have a desktop. i was cleaning out some folders, and i was too lazy to deselect the file i had as my desktop, so i just deleted it. now i don't have a desktop. its been like this for like a month and a half. i'm too lazy to go find something new. oh well, a black box with icons on it isn't that bad i suppose. still....
gah, i can't take this anymore. i want to go home. i don't have anything to do at home, but at least i will be there. i'm gonna see if i can sneak out here. ha, yes i can, i don't even need to check, and i don't need to sneak even. by sneaking out, i mean walking out, because everyone else works upstairs now. no one ever really comes downstairs anymore, except to leave. oh yeah, another wierd thing, i haven't recieved an email at work in like 2 days. thats nuts. if i manage not to get anymore today, that will lead to the weekend, and it will be like 4 days of nothing, that would be a record.
anyways, adios, wankchachos
