Wednesday, February 20, 2002
i don't know why i was thinking of air and trav, i just was. the thing i associate most with air and trav is the old house, and so i got to thinking about the old house, which got me to thinking about moving out. that was my general thought process, it didn't really have anything to do with air or trav, they were just the beginning of a chain of thoughts that got me thinking about whether or not altruism really existed :)
so yeah, sitting here at work. its really nice right now, because i am the only one here. i don't mind the office when i am the only one around. i don't feel like i am avoiding anyone. i actually get the most work done when i am alone shut in downstairs with no one else, or have the entire office to myself. i think thats the way i have always worked though. of course, i don't really have any work to do today, so here i am :D
i have been thinking a lot about my job lately. my boss is trying to spring this project on me again. i dunno, it could be alright. she is supposed to pass along the email address for some high up muckety muck. at first, i thought it was just some phd botonist guy, but now know he's like important and stuff. this really scares me, because coming from where i am, and especially as the project lead for this particular project, i will be expected to know a lot about stuff. but really, i have no real right to be heading this project. i am in charge, because everyone else refused so it got dumped on me. so yeah, if i ever do meet this guy, it is going to be very awkward, because he'll be like, oh, what does this look like to you? and i'll spit out one of the few wetland plants i know, and he'll get that teacher-talking-to-a-young-student voice and go, nooooooo, but good guess... when really he is thinking "what a moron, how can this guy get a job in the restoration field at all!!!" meanwhile, i will just be trying to get through the session so i can go home and get rid of the lazyness.
this project right now has the potential for 2 things. one, i could try to ignore it, and have my bosses get mad at me for not actually doing it, or two, have me ignore it, and half them forget about it and have the project fizzle out for another 3 months. i'm thinking it will be somewhere in between. i'm guessing my contact with this dude will never go past the email stage, and that i will pull some silly presentation together that is all bullshit like last time, and will end with me ignoring it more, and coming up with excuses for the next 3 months again. we shall see.
whenever i get mad at work, i just think "god damn this is better than school...."
so yeah, sitting here at work. its really nice right now, because i am the only one here. i don't mind the office when i am the only one around. i don't feel like i am avoiding anyone. i actually get the most work done when i am alone shut in downstairs with no one else, or have the entire office to myself. i think thats the way i have always worked though. of course, i don't really have any work to do today, so here i am :D
i have been thinking a lot about my job lately. my boss is trying to spring this project on me again. i dunno, it could be alright. she is supposed to pass along the email address for some high up muckety muck. at first, i thought it was just some phd botonist guy, but now know he's like important and stuff. this really scares me, because coming from where i am, and especially as the project lead for this particular project, i will be expected to know a lot about stuff. but really, i have no real right to be heading this project. i am in charge, because everyone else refused so it got dumped on me. so yeah, if i ever do meet this guy, it is going to be very awkward, because he'll be like, oh, what does this look like to you? and i'll spit out one of the few wetland plants i know, and he'll get that teacher-talking-to-a-young-student voice and go, nooooooo, but good guess... when really he is thinking "what a moron, how can this guy get a job in the restoration field at all!!!" meanwhile, i will just be trying to get through the session so i can go home and get rid of the lazyness.
this project right now has the potential for 2 things. one, i could try to ignore it, and have my bosses get mad at me for not actually doing it, or two, have me ignore it, and half them forget about it and have the project fizzle out for another 3 months. i'm thinking it will be somewhere in between. i'm guessing my contact with this dude will never go past the email stage, and that i will pull some silly presentation together that is all bullshit like last time, and will end with me ignoring it more, and coming up with excuses for the next 3 months again. we shall see.
whenever i get mad at work, i just think "god damn this is better than school...."
