Friday, February 08, 2002
i've come to a realization. regular laws should not apply to me. i'm not really sure why, but i am absolutely convinced they shouldn't. i was so convinced, i just ran a red light on the way home. no one else was going, so i just went. take that, stupid light
speaking of stupid lights.... i have missed like EVERY damn light in seattle today. nothing is green for me. it was so bad, that the stupid nemesis traffic light on 24th and prospect enlisted his stupid little penis friend on 24th and newton to turn red on my twice as well. so in essence, i missed my nemesis light 4 times today. that really sucks. driving took longer than i wanted it too. i listened to an entire cd and had it start over, thats how long it took. of course, that isn't saying much because i wasn't listening to techno today. i burned all those cds yesterday, because people were complaining that all i had was techno. so i burned some. its great, because now i can listen to jimmies whenever i want. jimmies kicks ass. i figure in a few days, i'll go back to techno, but right now its jimmies all the way. then maybe some foo fighters or something. so many choices, what am i to do.
so yeah, i was listening to jimmies today. for some reason i was thinking about matt and shannon. then Do Right came on... i'm sorry matt and shannon, but i started cracking up. it just seemed so relevant at the time.
blizzzooogiiinnn. i'm really mad at the whole concept of work these days. its like this: i'm so lazy, that i don't want to do anything. waking up this morning just kind of pissed me off. sleeping more seemed like the logical thing to do, but no, work had to swoop in and defy all logic, and make me wake up. i guess i am mad at work, because it makes me wake up every morning. i miss the days in college, and right after i got kicked out of UW before i went back to work that i just slept, and got up whenever the hell i wanted. and it felt good. i mean, i was all depressed about college stuff, and it still felt good. imagine how good it would feel now that i'm not depressed. stupid depression, getting in the way of my lazyness. another thing that pisses me off. even on weekends, when i try to sleep in, i still wake up after a few hours at about 8 am all frantic, worried that i am late for work. damn you work.... oh well, i make up for it by slacking as much as possible. sometimes i wish i had another job, like a cool job. but last night, talking to stephanie, i realized that there are no cool jobs. all jobs suck. work sucks! work sucks and blows at the same time. i hate it.... i mean, with a passion. i don't get passionate about much, but i really am pissed at work. not necessarily my job, but the fact that i have to work at all, and that i will have to work for like the next 50 years. that sucks. FREEEEEEESTYLA!!!!!!!!!!
last night was pretty fun. its kind of wierd, because i feel like i was flustered a lot. i guess that should be expected though. i mean, i really don't know what i'm doing, so i just kind of fake it and play along. that leads to a lot of times where i'm not really paying attention or something, and i realize i have no idea what is going on, and just kind of stare blankly for a second. damn you short attention span. its just such a foreign concept to have a girl around paying attention to me. i guess thats what makes me so cute and endearing though. there are a lot of little things i'm just not used too. like, having part of my pillow or something smell like someone else. i'm not complaining or anything, it just give me a start. i mean, my room always smells like me. oh yeah, and i don't think stephanie likes the title of my blog :P i'm sure a lot of people don't like the title of my blog. thats just too bad, because i do. i think it sums things up fairly well, in a twisted way that makes no sense whatsoever. that is why it is perfect, because i usually make no sense whatsoever either.
i don't want to go back to work. jeez, i have stuff to do though. i actually have to go get some plant orders at these two schools i've never been too. i got suckered into another damn work party next friday. i'm teaching elementary school kids again. they are going to come up to me, and say i need a plant for this area, its shady, dry, etc etc etc. i'm supposed to know what plant to give them. great.... there are supposedly going to be like tons of kids too. this is going to go down as one of the biggest failures in education history. my boss has some strange ideas. like having me lead elementary school kids at work partys. but yeah, back to today. i was planning on leaving early. now thats not going to happen. thats kind of annoying. really annoying you might say. i want nothing more now than to go take a hot shower and climb into bed and sleep for a few days. so tempting....
how can i care so little about so many things these days. oh well, the world will keep turning, no matter what i care about.
speaking of stupid lights.... i have missed like EVERY damn light in seattle today. nothing is green for me. it was so bad, that the stupid nemesis traffic light on 24th and prospect enlisted his stupid little penis friend on 24th and newton to turn red on my twice as well. so in essence, i missed my nemesis light 4 times today. that really sucks. driving took longer than i wanted it too. i listened to an entire cd and had it start over, thats how long it took. of course, that isn't saying much because i wasn't listening to techno today. i burned all those cds yesterday, because people were complaining that all i had was techno. so i burned some. its great, because now i can listen to jimmies whenever i want. jimmies kicks ass. i figure in a few days, i'll go back to techno, but right now its jimmies all the way. then maybe some foo fighters or something. so many choices, what am i to do.
so yeah, i was listening to jimmies today. for some reason i was thinking about matt and shannon. then Do Right came on... i'm sorry matt and shannon, but i started cracking up. it just seemed so relevant at the time.
blizzzooogiiinnn. i'm really mad at the whole concept of work these days. its like this: i'm so lazy, that i don't want to do anything. waking up this morning just kind of pissed me off. sleeping more seemed like the logical thing to do, but no, work had to swoop in and defy all logic, and make me wake up. i guess i am mad at work, because it makes me wake up every morning. i miss the days in college, and right after i got kicked out of UW before i went back to work that i just slept, and got up whenever the hell i wanted. and it felt good. i mean, i was all depressed about college stuff, and it still felt good. imagine how good it would feel now that i'm not depressed. stupid depression, getting in the way of my lazyness. another thing that pisses me off. even on weekends, when i try to sleep in, i still wake up after a few hours at about 8 am all frantic, worried that i am late for work. damn you work.... oh well, i make up for it by slacking as much as possible. sometimes i wish i had another job, like a cool job. but last night, talking to stephanie, i realized that there are no cool jobs. all jobs suck. work sucks! work sucks and blows at the same time. i hate it.... i mean, with a passion. i don't get passionate about much, but i really am pissed at work. not necessarily my job, but the fact that i have to work at all, and that i will have to work for like the next 50 years. that sucks. FREEEEEEESTYLA!!!!!!!!!!
last night was pretty fun. its kind of wierd, because i feel like i was flustered a lot. i guess that should be expected though. i mean, i really don't know what i'm doing, so i just kind of fake it and play along. that leads to a lot of times where i'm not really paying attention or something, and i realize i have no idea what is going on, and just kind of stare blankly for a second. damn you short attention span. its just such a foreign concept to have a girl around paying attention to me. i guess thats what makes me so cute and endearing though. there are a lot of little things i'm just not used too. like, having part of my pillow or something smell like someone else. i'm not complaining or anything, it just give me a start. i mean, my room always smells like me. oh yeah, and i don't think stephanie likes the title of my blog :P i'm sure a lot of people don't like the title of my blog. thats just too bad, because i do. i think it sums things up fairly well, in a twisted way that makes no sense whatsoever. that is why it is perfect, because i usually make no sense whatsoever either.
i don't want to go back to work. jeez, i have stuff to do though. i actually have to go get some plant orders at these two schools i've never been too. i got suckered into another damn work party next friday. i'm teaching elementary school kids again. they are going to come up to me, and say i need a plant for this area, its shady, dry, etc etc etc. i'm supposed to know what plant to give them. great.... there are supposedly going to be like tons of kids too. this is going to go down as one of the biggest failures in education history. my boss has some strange ideas. like having me lead elementary school kids at work partys. but yeah, back to today. i was planning on leaving early. now thats not going to happen. thats kind of annoying. really annoying you might say. i want nothing more now than to go take a hot shower and climb into bed and sleep for a few days. so tempting....
how can i care so little about so many things these days. oh well, the world will keep turning, no matter what i care about.
