Sunday, February 03, 2002
song of the day: WAnk 9 - Story of Two Girls
i always have apprehensions talking about other people out of our little blogging group on here. at least other people who have any connections to people in our little blogging group. i mean, if i bring up something about manuel or something, he would understand because he knows i have a blog, he has one of his own, and we have been reading them for like a year or so. but if someone else managed to read it, and they didn't know, they might not understand.
that being said... the girl from friday i really have no interest in called me up and invited me to go to a concert with her and the girl i am interested in. now, i said no for a few reasons. the main reason being, i really didn't want to give her the wrong idea, by saying i wanted to go to the concert with her. if the girl i am interest in called me up, i probably would have said yes. but she didn't, so i said no, even though she was going to be there. another reason, due to various reasons, i have gotten about 6 hours of sleep total this weekend. my sleep on thursday night was very slim, due to blake's 21 run. i have had more alcohol than food and sleep combined in the past 4 some days. i am exhausted, and i really don't think i could handle a concert, especially if i really am not interested in the actual show itself. so, i politely declined, citing our superbowl party as a reason. its a good reason, because we are actually sitting around watching the superbowl. so yeah, fuck it. it was kind of amusing. its really not a big deal, but it is kind of fun to be able to have to think about this kind of stuff. haha, the silly drama that makes life just that more exciting, even if it isn't really dramatic at all.
overall, a good weekend, if i do say so myself. the 15th, my friend in puyallup invited me over again, that should kick some ass. i really enjoyed myself last time, even if i was too drunk to really be sociable. i hope i didn't alienate myself at least ;) of course i didn't, but i'll definitely take it a little easier this time.
last night was kind of interesting. i had a few beers, then bryan said he wanted to do some mushrooms. i am still trying to figure out how strong these ones are. bryan took way too much again, but i think i got it right. of course, they didn't mix well with the beers, and i didn't really want to stay up and go some place because i was exhausted. so i just kind of went to bed. it was actually very entertaining. at one point during the night, i was talking to myself in my head, and i realized how easy it is to make conversation with myself. i was surprised about how good of a conversationalist i made ;) as the night went on, i kind of slipped into half dreams, where i would start thinking about things, and i would create situations and people in my head. it was a lot like day dreaming. at one point, after a few hours of talking with my inner selves, the concept that there were other people in the world got very confusing. it is perhaps one of the funniest things that has ever happened too me. i had all the people i needed at that point in my head, so i got slightly angry at everyone else in the world for thinking they were allowed to not be in my head. i almost got up and went downstairs or onto irc to ask people what exactly made them think it was ok to not be in my head. i was curious as to why they were allowed to do that. it was great. a few minutes later i had a moment of clarity, and i started cracking up. oh yeah, and i kept thinking my blankets were broken, or that i wasn't using them right. whenever i would move my foot or something, there would be that moment or two where the blankets weren't touching my feet, and i thought i had no blankets at all, so was like, oh no, i broke my blankets!!!! it was a little destressing, until they magically fixed themselves. sometimes i wish i could get a larger group together to do mushrooms, besides just me and bryan. i think it would be a lot of fun. especially now that i have figured out how these ones i have now work.
i'm such a pansy, its not even 7 and i am getting tired. when was the last time this happened?
i always have apprehensions talking about other people out of our little blogging group on here. at least other people who have any connections to people in our little blogging group. i mean, if i bring up something about manuel or something, he would understand because he knows i have a blog, he has one of his own, and we have been reading them for like a year or so. but if someone else managed to read it, and they didn't know, they might not understand.
that being said... the girl from friday i really have no interest in called me up and invited me to go to a concert with her and the girl i am interested in. now, i said no for a few reasons. the main reason being, i really didn't want to give her the wrong idea, by saying i wanted to go to the concert with her. if the girl i am interest in called me up, i probably would have said yes. but she didn't, so i said no, even though she was going to be there. another reason, due to various reasons, i have gotten about 6 hours of sleep total this weekend. my sleep on thursday night was very slim, due to blake's 21 run. i have had more alcohol than food and sleep combined in the past 4 some days. i am exhausted, and i really don't think i could handle a concert, especially if i really am not interested in the actual show itself. so, i politely declined, citing our superbowl party as a reason. its a good reason, because we are actually sitting around watching the superbowl. so yeah, fuck it. it was kind of amusing. its really not a big deal, but it is kind of fun to be able to have to think about this kind of stuff. haha, the silly drama that makes life just that more exciting, even if it isn't really dramatic at all.
overall, a good weekend, if i do say so myself. the 15th, my friend in puyallup invited me over again, that should kick some ass. i really enjoyed myself last time, even if i was too drunk to really be sociable. i hope i didn't alienate myself at least ;) of course i didn't, but i'll definitely take it a little easier this time.
last night was kind of interesting. i had a few beers, then bryan said he wanted to do some mushrooms. i am still trying to figure out how strong these ones are. bryan took way too much again, but i think i got it right. of course, they didn't mix well with the beers, and i didn't really want to stay up and go some place because i was exhausted. so i just kind of went to bed. it was actually very entertaining. at one point during the night, i was talking to myself in my head, and i realized how easy it is to make conversation with myself. i was surprised about how good of a conversationalist i made ;) as the night went on, i kind of slipped into half dreams, where i would start thinking about things, and i would create situations and people in my head. it was a lot like day dreaming. at one point, after a few hours of talking with my inner selves, the concept that there were other people in the world got very confusing. it is perhaps one of the funniest things that has ever happened too me. i had all the people i needed at that point in my head, so i got slightly angry at everyone else in the world for thinking they were allowed to not be in my head. i almost got up and went downstairs or onto irc to ask people what exactly made them think it was ok to not be in my head. i was curious as to why they were allowed to do that. it was great. a few minutes later i had a moment of clarity, and i started cracking up. oh yeah, and i kept thinking my blankets were broken, or that i wasn't using them right. whenever i would move my foot or something, there would be that moment or two where the blankets weren't touching my feet, and i thought i had no blankets at all, so was like, oh no, i broke my blankets!!!! it was a little destressing, until they magically fixed themselves. sometimes i wish i could get a larger group together to do mushrooms, besides just me and bryan. i think it would be a lot of fun. especially now that i have figured out how these ones i have now work.
i'm such a pansy, its not even 7 and i am getting tired. when was the last time this happened?
