Wednesday, March 06, 2002
bleat bleat wank booooot...
so, at work. bleh. in about an hour or so i will probably leave for lunch, but what to do in that hour or so. i am tired, have a headache, and generally don't feel like doing anything whatsoever. i wish i could just stay home, and still receive a paycheck. they could reroute all of my email to my home email address. i mean, jeez, that is all i really need to come to the office for until the end of the month. this way i wouldn't get pegged with worthless little crap jobs that don't need doing, just for the sake of having something to do. i could sit around and browse the internet, which is most of what i do anyways. it isn't like it is important for me to be here.
but, if i quit my job, what would i do? like i have the motivation to actually go find something else... it would never happen. my roomates would ask for rent, my check would bounce, and i would fuck all 4 of us. that would be a bitch. as long as i keep getting paychecks, i will keep doing what they tell me to do, and pretending to care about it.
at least i'm not in school.
alright, here goes. devil's advocate. gets me thinking about heaven and hell from a christian standpoint, if by some chance they did exist. my opinion on this... the bible grossly exaggerates just about everything. it is a sneaky book. it sounds good, but it is full of contradictions and half-truths. half of the shit in there has to be thrown out, or reinterpreted because it is so rediculous. i believe that you can't believe anything you hear in there at face value. you have to realize what it is. it is the longest running propaganda campaign known to mankind. it presents only information that is pertinent to its cause, and it presents it in such a way that its cause looks like the only cause. it is a sneaky ad campaign for christianity. it is like a political tv spot. it takes all the flaws of the opposing side, and magnifies them until they are larger than life. meanwhile, it takes the good things, and blows them up in a similar way. you have to sift through all the bullshit to find anything that could closely resemble truth. it plays on all of the human emotions to try sway your opinion. in the end, what it comes down too is most of the bible is trying to persuade you with fear. if you came in knowing absolutely nothing abour christianity, or god, or anything, god would come off as the bully of the universe, and humans would come off as his pawns in his sick twisted game. if this person was intelligent, they would realize how silly most of the stuff is.
Because of this, i actually sympathize more with lucifer than i do with god. i mean, take jesus and the apostles, and all the good teachings out of the equation. that wasn't god, that was just some guy saying he acted on the behalf of god. look at the rest of the stuff. god smites, god destroys, god rules with no tolerance and an iron fist. he is petty, he is cruel, he is stubborn. he is a juvenile asshole. Lucifer has the gaul to question something god says. god is like, no fuck you, no one questions me!!!! so lucifer says, fuck you then, you are an asshole, and goes to live down on earth. this brings us to two questions about hell (leaving heaven completely out of the equation now). is hell actually a place? did lucifer actually go underground to live, or did he stay on earth, and "corrupt" humankind. my thinking is the latter. i mean look, he is on earth when he tempts eve. he is on earth when he approaches jesus i think it was in the desert. did he ever actually go underground? i think the devils advocate more or less had it right. lucifer said, fuck this shit and came down to rule earth, because it probably pisses god off more than anything.
lets think for a second. if lucifer is actually underground, why would he torture those who were cast into hell to live with him? he is more subtle than that. he doesn't work with brute force and cruelty the way god does. he is sneaky. subtlety is a sign of intelligence, something i think god lacks. he rules through fear and brute strength. thus, i'm thinking hell would be the place to be. it is probably the party to defeat all parties. i mean, when lucifer is corrupting stuff, what is really happening? he is injecting fun into the situation. seven deadly sins, pfffffttt. when most people look for a fun situation, they seek out sin. god would have us be sheep, wandering around, doing his bidding without question. what would we be without sin? we would be shells of people, never living, never enjoying the things around us. there would be no competition, no technology, no advancement in civilization. if you look back at everything humankind has accomplished, just about everything can be linked too one of the seven deadly sins, or if not, linked to be against one of the seven heavenly virtues. i can't imagine life without sin. it would be absolutely rediculous. give me hell, any day.
heaven.... if we keep along with the bible is full of shit line of thinking, and the god is petty and cruel and stupid line of thinking, heaven is nothing to strive for. utopia? in who's eyes? in gods eyes. for all we know, god could revel in torture. the roles could be reversed. you could go up to heaven, and be tortured for his amusement. this could be considered rapture, if you look through his eyes. but, above all, heaven is a place without sin. everyone's idea of bliss contains a fair amount of sin. without sin, there is no pleasure. you aren't allowed to have more than you absolutely need. you aren't allowed physical pleasure. you are allowed to take pride in yourself. you aren't allowed to be lazy. ok fuck me, but when i think absolute bliss, it involves me doing nothing, having everything, being happy and proud of myself, and being surrounded by beauty. but those can all be considered sins. heaven is completely without sin. i envision heaven as a dungeon. you live in a cell, are taken out for slave labor, are given the bare essentials to survive. you stay quiet and don't question the guards. and you are sentanced to this fate, because you chose god. lets go through this. temperance, stay quiet, mind your own business and do what you are told. prudence, don't question the guards, or you get beaten. charity, you get nothing, but you do work for someone else at great cost to yourself. fortitude, if you aren't strong, you die. hope, if you are a prisoner and lose hope, then you may as well be dead. and faith. you are here because of your faith. what it all comes down too, is that this is gods sick twisted version of justice.
it is better to rule in hell, than serve in heaven. this is true.
matt and i got to talking about this, and specifically about being the son of the devil. this is all assuming that hell is fire and brimstone and torture and stuff. what a great thing that would be. even if you live in hell, you get the cush part of hell. i mean, it isn't like the devil tortures himself...
so anyways, i've always found it kind of fun to flip the roles, and try to justify something that seems outlandish. the more i thought about it though, the more merit i have found. it makes me really happy that i don't believe in heaven or hell, because it is all so confusing :)
so, at work. bleh. in about an hour or so i will probably leave for lunch, but what to do in that hour or so. i am tired, have a headache, and generally don't feel like doing anything whatsoever. i wish i could just stay home, and still receive a paycheck. they could reroute all of my email to my home email address. i mean, jeez, that is all i really need to come to the office for until the end of the month. this way i wouldn't get pegged with worthless little crap jobs that don't need doing, just for the sake of having something to do. i could sit around and browse the internet, which is most of what i do anyways. it isn't like it is important for me to be here.
but, if i quit my job, what would i do? like i have the motivation to actually go find something else... it would never happen. my roomates would ask for rent, my check would bounce, and i would fuck all 4 of us. that would be a bitch. as long as i keep getting paychecks, i will keep doing what they tell me to do, and pretending to care about it.
at least i'm not in school.
alright, here goes. devil's advocate. gets me thinking about heaven and hell from a christian standpoint, if by some chance they did exist. my opinion on this... the bible grossly exaggerates just about everything. it is a sneaky book. it sounds good, but it is full of contradictions and half-truths. half of the shit in there has to be thrown out, or reinterpreted because it is so rediculous. i believe that you can't believe anything you hear in there at face value. you have to realize what it is. it is the longest running propaganda campaign known to mankind. it presents only information that is pertinent to its cause, and it presents it in such a way that its cause looks like the only cause. it is a sneaky ad campaign for christianity. it is like a political tv spot. it takes all the flaws of the opposing side, and magnifies them until they are larger than life. meanwhile, it takes the good things, and blows them up in a similar way. you have to sift through all the bullshit to find anything that could closely resemble truth. it plays on all of the human emotions to try sway your opinion. in the end, what it comes down too is most of the bible is trying to persuade you with fear. if you came in knowing absolutely nothing abour christianity, or god, or anything, god would come off as the bully of the universe, and humans would come off as his pawns in his sick twisted game. if this person was intelligent, they would realize how silly most of the stuff is.
Because of this, i actually sympathize more with lucifer than i do with god. i mean, take jesus and the apostles, and all the good teachings out of the equation. that wasn't god, that was just some guy saying he acted on the behalf of god. look at the rest of the stuff. god smites, god destroys, god rules with no tolerance and an iron fist. he is petty, he is cruel, he is stubborn. he is a juvenile asshole. Lucifer has the gaul to question something god says. god is like, no fuck you, no one questions me!!!! so lucifer says, fuck you then, you are an asshole, and goes to live down on earth. this brings us to two questions about hell (leaving heaven completely out of the equation now). is hell actually a place? did lucifer actually go underground to live, or did he stay on earth, and "corrupt" humankind. my thinking is the latter. i mean look, he is on earth when he tempts eve. he is on earth when he approaches jesus i think it was in the desert. did he ever actually go underground? i think the devils advocate more or less had it right. lucifer said, fuck this shit and came down to rule earth, because it probably pisses god off more than anything.
lets think for a second. if lucifer is actually underground, why would he torture those who were cast into hell to live with him? he is more subtle than that. he doesn't work with brute force and cruelty the way god does. he is sneaky. subtlety is a sign of intelligence, something i think god lacks. he rules through fear and brute strength. thus, i'm thinking hell would be the place to be. it is probably the party to defeat all parties. i mean, when lucifer is corrupting stuff, what is really happening? he is injecting fun into the situation. seven deadly sins, pfffffttt. when most people look for a fun situation, they seek out sin. god would have us be sheep, wandering around, doing his bidding without question. what would we be without sin? we would be shells of people, never living, never enjoying the things around us. there would be no competition, no technology, no advancement in civilization. if you look back at everything humankind has accomplished, just about everything can be linked too one of the seven deadly sins, or if not, linked to be against one of the seven heavenly virtues. i can't imagine life without sin. it would be absolutely rediculous. give me hell, any day.
heaven.... if we keep along with the bible is full of shit line of thinking, and the god is petty and cruel and stupid line of thinking, heaven is nothing to strive for. utopia? in who's eyes? in gods eyes. for all we know, god could revel in torture. the roles could be reversed. you could go up to heaven, and be tortured for his amusement. this could be considered rapture, if you look through his eyes. but, above all, heaven is a place without sin. everyone's idea of bliss contains a fair amount of sin. without sin, there is no pleasure. you aren't allowed to have more than you absolutely need. you aren't allowed physical pleasure. you are allowed to take pride in yourself. you aren't allowed to be lazy. ok fuck me, but when i think absolute bliss, it involves me doing nothing, having everything, being happy and proud of myself, and being surrounded by beauty. but those can all be considered sins. heaven is completely without sin. i envision heaven as a dungeon. you live in a cell, are taken out for slave labor, are given the bare essentials to survive. you stay quiet and don't question the guards. and you are sentanced to this fate, because you chose god. lets go through this. temperance, stay quiet, mind your own business and do what you are told. prudence, don't question the guards, or you get beaten. charity, you get nothing, but you do work for someone else at great cost to yourself. fortitude, if you aren't strong, you die. hope, if you are a prisoner and lose hope, then you may as well be dead. and faith. you are here because of your faith. what it all comes down too, is that this is gods sick twisted version of justice.
it is better to rule in hell, than serve in heaven. this is true.
matt and i got to talking about this, and specifically about being the son of the devil. this is all assuming that hell is fire and brimstone and torture and stuff. what a great thing that would be. even if you live in hell, you get the cush part of hell. i mean, it isn't like the devil tortures himself...
so anyways, i've always found it kind of fun to flip the roles, and try to justify something that seems outlandish. the more i thought about it though, the more merit i have found. it makes me really happy that i don't believe in heaven or hell, because it is all so confusing :)
