Saturday, June 15, 2002
well, now that i have porn advertising for me, i figure it is time for me to post again.
i talk way too much. i have this wierd idea in my head that people actually care about what i have to say. why do i keep talking? because i'm bored? i guess so. it passes the time. its kind of funny though, because sometimes i just start talking about something, and i just keep going.
bwaaaaaaaaah. things are so stupid. i mean, stuff, stuff is all good. but things. BLOW. work is definitely a thing. i mentioned this to someone last night, if i could find a way to be unemployed, i would. like, i don't know how people work, and actually do it, let alone enjoy it. i have a lot of trouble actually working. because work just blows. work is a thing. i hate it. hate work. i just don't want to go. it is a complete waste of my time.
i know i blogged about this before, but i think it got eaten. like, for some reason to me time is really important. i feel annoyed when things that i don't want to take up this time. even things like eating and such. i shouldn't have to do those things. i have much more important things to do, like watch tv. watching tv i like, so its ok to spend my time on. but work, NO. thats 8 hours every day of stuff i don't want to do. DKLASJFLKSD.
ok... lately my thoughts have been even more scrambled than they usually are. i mean, there were times in the past where i had stuff to write, i just was too lazy. but these days, i'll sit down to write something, and it just won't work. like, i know i do have stuff to write about, i just can't bring them together into a coherent string of thoughts. ok, here's the really wierd thing. like, the past little bit of time is the soberest i've been since like, forever. i mean, usually you would think its drugs and alcohol and stuff that screws up your concentration and thought process, but i seriously am beginning to believe that sobriety is unhealthy. i really need to fix this....
how wierd is that. the less i drink, whatever, the more scatterbrained i get. i mean, when you are drunk or stoned or what not, its good to be scatterbrained, because its fun. but when you are sober and bored, being scatterbrained is just stupid and annoying. i wish i could just be unemployed, and a bum. then i could be drunk and what not like all the time without worry of not making it to work or whatever. because really, work just fucks everything up.
its not that i hate my job. i just hate the institution of work. the world should revolve around me. i mean, why wouldn't it. i'm me, everything else is just secondary. the rest of the world just needs to realize this ;)
BWAAAAAAAAH i'm thirsty. screw this i'm watching some more tv
i talk way too much. i have this wierd idea in my head that people actually care about what i have to say. why do i keep talking? because i'm bored? i guess so. it passes the time. its kind of funny though, because sometimes i just start talking about something, and i just keep going.
bwaaaaaaaaah. things are so stupid. i mean, stuff, stuff is all good. but things. BLOW. work is definitely a thing. i mentioned this to someone last night, if i could find a way to be unemployed, i would. like, i don't know how people work, and actually do it, let alone enjoy it. i have a lot of trouble actually working. because work just blows. work is a thing. i hate it. hate work. i just don't want to go. it is a complete waste of my time.
i know i blogged about this before, but i think it got eaten. like, for some reason to me time is really important. i feel annoyed when things that i don't want to take up this time. even things like eating and such. i shouldn't have to do those things. i have much more important things to do, like watch tv. watching tv i like, so its ok to spend my time on. but work, NO. thats 8 hours every day of stuff i don't want to do. DKLASJFLKSD.
ok... lately my thoughts have been even more scrambled than they usually are. i mean, there were times in the past where i had stuff to write, i just was too lazy. but these days, i'll sit down to write something, and it just won't work. like, i know i do have stuff to write about, i just can't bring them together into a coherent string of thoughts. ok, here's the really wierd thing. like, the past little bit of time is the soberest i've been since like, forever. i mean, usually you would think its drugs and alcohol and stuff that screws up your concentration and thought process, but i seriously am beginning to believe that sobriety is unhealthy. i really need to fix this....
how wierd is that. the less i drink, whatever, the more scatterbrained i get. i mean, when you are drunk or stoned or what not, its good to be scatterbrained, because its fun. but when you are sober and bored, being scatterbrained is just stupid and annoying. i wish i could just be unemployed, and a bum. then i could be drunk and what not like all the time without worry of not making it to work or whatever. because really, work just fucks everything up.
its not that i hate my job. i just hate the institution of work. the world should revolve around me. i mean, why wouldn't it. i'm me, everything else is just secondary. the rest of the world just needs to realize this ;)
BWAAAAAAAAH i'm thirsty. screw this i'm watching some more tv
