i've realized that my introverted personality is shining through. i was just moonlighting as a social person, to some degree. i am a very private person. i don't care too much about hanging out with other people. i thought that this was a character flaw, so i tried to change, pretend to have tons of friends and stuff. i mean, having people around is good, but i'm not going to go out of my way to hang out with people any more. if i get invited to go do something, i'll do it. you always have the most fun when other people are around. but shit, i'm not going to go out of my way to hang out with people, just for the sake of social interaction. i'm here alone every monday, and i've realized that mondays are the days i look forward to the most, because there are no expectations of me. maybe i'm just saying this because my past 2 weekends have been completely destroyed by bartending school.

speaking of bartending school, i skipped sunday because i didn't study at all last week. all i need to do now is take the test, and this stupid little state licensing course. they have this thing every sunday, and i can take the test whenever i want. he came right out and said, if you aren't ready for the test, you don't have to take it tomorrow. so i didn't. it was the only thing to do, really.

something i don't really like is hanging out with other peoples friends. i mean, this is the only way to make new friends, but i just don't really like it. i feel awkward and out of place, and frankly i don't care about this person. most of the time, i don't like the person, which is why i don't hang out with them. i dunno, it sounds bad, but i just don't care enough to get to know people any more. i mean, new friends are ok and all, but shit, its not worth the time.

frivved up by Ben at 2:54 PM