Saturday, December 07, 2002
wierd cracked out belligerent shit. who know where it comes from? the fact that i have been sick, and haven't done shit besides work and sleep for the past week plus some. cold medicine has gotten me through the days, and the nights. every night i just up my dosage from the night before, and i go to bed feeling satisfied. pretty soon i won't be sick, and all memory of this unfortunate era will be disavowed. hell, i can't remember much of yesterday already, its pretty sweet because yesterday probably sucked.
anyways, how are you? i focus so much on myself, i probably come off as kind of a dick. i mean, i probably am a dick, but thats no reason for you to have to put up with it all the time. so whats new in your world? i want to know what is on YOUR mind for once.
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fine, i didn't mean it anyways. it was all a ploy to make you think i wasn't a dick. HAH
life is all about appearances after all. swallowing your pride every once in a while goes a loooong way. people who don't are destined to end up without friends complaining to themselves. you see these people on tv all the time. its like a camera brings out everyones base need for individuality. all you hear anymore is "i'm just me, i'm real. if you don't like me, then you can fuck off." where's the comprimise in that? if you say that, you are admitting that no one likes the real you, and that you actually do care. it won't work. any time you see someone say that on blind date or some shit like that, you know they are destined for failure. unless they are full of shit, and were just saying that because it is such a trendy thing to do. i mean, if you say that, you have an excuse to fail in which all the blame lands on the other person. thats bullshit. you are a freaking knob with no people skills, and no ability to compromise, but the other guy comes off looking like the ass? no way, i don't buy it anymore. i see through that crap, on tv anyways.
its all about appearances. make a compromise every once in a while. you getting on someone's nerves? swallow your pride and stop doing the shit that bugs them. even if its bullshit, you have to make yourself look good to other people for a long period of time if you want your friendships to last a long period of time. lots of people just make themselves look good at the beginning, so everyones like yeah yeah, this guy is cool, but then they don't make any effort to keep themselves looking good. they just slack off and then everyone hates them. guilty as charged.
other people realize they need to give a little to take a little, but when they give, they don't do it right. they'll give a lot, or just give something right out of the blue and expect something in return right away. they just do a bad job about keeping up appearances. stupid wankers, somehow they have stumbled on the right idea but they are too clueless to implement it.
its a sticky situation, but once you figure out how to do it, everything is easier. it applies to everything. relationships with family, coworkers, anyone gets easier.....
it takes some work every once in a while, this whole keeping up appearances thing. its easy to get lazy. guilty as charged again. but its worth it, because the little you do will save you a lot of shit later.
anyways, how are you? i focus so much on myself, i probably come off as kind of a dick. i mean, i probably am a dick, but thats no reason for you to have to put up with it all the time. so whats new in your world? i want to know what is on YOUR mind for once.
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fine, i didn't mean it anyways. it was all a ploy to make you think i wasn't a dick. HAH
life is all about appearances after all. swallowing your pride every once in a while goes a loooong way. people who don't are destined to end up without friends complaining to themselves. you see these people on tv all the time. its like a camera brings out everyones base need for individuality. all you hear anymore is "i'm just me, i'm real. if you don't like me, then you can fuck off." where's the comprimise in that? if you say that, you are admitting that no one likes the real you, and that you actually do care. it won't work. any time you see someone say that on blind date or some shit like that, you know they are destined for failure. unless they are full of shit, and were just saying that because it is such a trendy thing to do. i mean, if you say that, you have an excuse to fail in which all the blame lands on the other person. thats bullshit. you are a freaking knob with no people skills, and no ability to compromise, but the other guy comes off looking like the ass? no way, i don't buy it anymore. i see through that crap, on tv anyways.
its all about appearances. make a compromise every once in a while. you getting on someone's nerves? swallow your pride and stop doing the shit that bugs them. even if its bullshit, you have to make yourself look good to other people for a long period of time if you want your friendships to last a long period of time. lots of people just make themselves look good at the beginning, so everyones like yeah yeah, this guy is cool, but then they don't make any effort to keep themselves looking good. they just slack off and then everyone hates them. guilty as charged.
other people realize they need to give a little to take a little, but when they give, they don't do it right. they'll give a lot, or just give something right out of the blue and expect something in return right away. they just do a bad job about keeping up appearances. stupid wankers, somehow they have stumbled on the right idea but they are too clueless to implement it.
its a sticky situation, but once you figure out how to do it, everything is easier. it applies to everything. relationships with family, coworkers, anyone gets easier.....
it takes some work every once in a while, this whole keeping up appearances thing. its easy to get lazy. guilty as charged again. but its worth it, because the little you do will save you a lot of shit later.
