Monday, January 06, 2003
and thusly, i edit
you know, i'll be honest with you. when i said i cared more, i was full of shit. i guess i was just reaching for a way to explain the fact that being at church really annoyed me. it did, blah blah, now it doesn't really matter. i'll be honest with you. my hold on anything that matters to me is a little fleeting. its gotten kind of bad. my personal hygene is pretty much non-existant. it has been at least 2 months since i've done laundry now, i'm pretty sure. i honestly couldn't tell you. i've been saying truthfully that its been at least a month for the last 2 or 3 weeks, so i'm guessing its been 2 months, just simple calender math. i shower maybe every 3rd, 4th day. i haven't shaved in months, half the time i don't wash my hair all the way because we run out of hot water before i get done with it because i'm forgetful and lazy. i brush my teeth when it suits me, i never floss, but then again, what else is new. the dishes are all in the sink. when i need to microwave something, i wipe one down. sometimes i even use soap. i live in a pit, its dirty, smelly, and i don't care. it really doesn't bother me. it doesn't really bother matt, either. every month or two, it gets to the point where we can't walk, eat or drink, because there is too much shit around, so we clean the place. we both kind of know when we need to do it, because we have been thinking the same thing for a while. then we spend a half hour, hour maybe and clean shit. if people didn't come over from time to time, people who care, who knows what shit would be like. most of the time when we straighten up, its because our dealer is coming over, which i think is kind of hilarious.
and you know, i'll say it again, just in case you don't believe me, it doesn't really bother me. i don't care what i smell like, i don't care if i'm dirty, i don't care if i'm living in unsanitary conditions. it takes a lot of time to stay clean and fresh 24/7. i don't like to eat when i don't have to, so stupid things like cleaning? lol...
its probably about time for me to get a girlfriend or something, give me a whip back in the direction of the general population. but that doesn't seem like a lot of fun. i don't want a girlfriend. she'll want me to smell good, and clean my clothes, and keep my apartment straightened up and stuff. that just sucks.
i have been reaquainting myself with my playstation 2 lately. it kind of sat there for a long time, with the whole camelot addiction and all. like all my addictions in the past, dark age of camelot has kind of fluttered down to an occasional deal. its like alcohol now, something i do once in a while for nostolgia, but not something i go out of my way to do. anyways, the playstation 2 has made a pretty big comeback. we went through this whole tekken tag and tekken 4 craze a while ago and burnt ourselves out. air acutally bought tekken 4 and left it at our place, so we've been playing again, its pretty sweet. what really made me happy was after tekken, we went through a hardcore hockey phase. i may have mentioned this before, i dunno, but hockey is pretty much the one game i have always liked. i've always thought of myself at the best, probably because hockey was always at my house, so i played it more than anyone. i look at myself as the hockey dojo master. i train my pupils in the art, but when it comes down to it, i am still the master. my pupils will see flashes of greatness in themselves, but greatness can be consistant for just one person. that person is me. i always am the one to up the intensity, to reach that next plateau. the first to hit 10 goals in a game, then 13, then 17, then 21, always 2 steps ahead of the rest of the world (the world being my friends who play hockey with me). it doesn't stop until i get to the point where i score 28 goals in a game, and it isn't physically possible to score more. then it kind of stops, because what is there to do if you can't improve. it got to the point where i would just play along with whatever music was playing, hitting buttons in time with what the song was doing. my instincts took over, and i would just own. when initial d music was playing, i can get into grooves where it is just goal, goal, goal, goal, goal, goal until the computer assistance kicks in.
anyways, we finished the season, so hopefully hockey is out for a bit. but there are 2 new games. one is multiplayer. it is called frequency. this game...... i have not been sucked into a game like this in a long time. you know, where hours fly by, you wake up and start playing, and next thing you know its 3:45 in the morning and you have to force yourself to go to sleep. everything in between is a blur. anyways, this game has been my weekend. i love this game. the only problem is, i'm at a serious wall right now. this game is insanely hard. to unlock levels, you have to beat it on easy, normal, and hard. certain levels you have to unlock on normal and hard. now, i beat it on easy, which took a whole lot of luck. now, i'm completely stuck on normal. its killing me. i'm forcing myself not to play at this very moment. when i went to sleep last night, i was up for an hour with the game playing in my head along with the music. oh oh oh, so this game, what it is. the game takes songs and breaks them up into different parts. usually there are 2 drums in the background, and depending on what kind of song it is, vocals, guitars, synth, fx, you get the picture. so there are 6 or 7 different parts of each song. each one is turned into a little track dealy. you play in these arenas, where basically you are flying through an octagonal tube. for each track, there are little gems you collect if you play the song right. if you play the track perfectly for long enough, it will keep going on its own, so you can move to a different track and play it along with the first one. this keeps going for a while until you get to a certain spot, then the way the song is meant to be will take over, and you kind of start over again, trying to capture tracks. it is pretty amazing, you kind of have to see it to understand.
also, i got gran turismo 3. 1 and 2 are probably both on my top 5 timesinks of all time, so watch out. i just hope i don't miss work or something and lose my job because of these damn games...
blah. shower, then maybe laundry. i have a new office at work, with a new officemate. tomorrow is the first time we will really meet and work with each other. i guess i should do the right thing and not smell terrible.
shoot me in the head
you know, i'll be honest with you. when i said i cared more, i was full of shit. i guess i was just reaching for a way to explain the fact that being at church really annoyed me. it did, blah blah, now it doesn't really matter. i'll be honest with you. my hold on anything that matters to me is a little fleeting. its gotten kind of bad. my personal hygene is pretty much non-existant. it has been at least 2 months since i've done laundry now, i'm pretty sure. i honestly couldn't tell you. i've been saying truthfully that its been at least a month for the last 2 or 3 weeks, so i'm guessing its been 2 months, just simple calender math. i shower maybe every 3rd, 4th day. i haven't shaved in months, half the time i don't wash my hair all the way because we run out of hot water before i get done with it because i'm forgetful and lazy. i brush my teeth when it suits me, i never floss, but then again, what else is new. the dishes are all in the sink. when i need to microwave something, i wipe one down. sometimes i even use soap. i live in a pit, its dirty, smelly, and i don't care. it really doesn't bother me. it doesn't really bother matt, either. every month or two, it gets to the point where we can't walk, eat or drink, because there is too much shit around, so we clean the place. we both kind of know when we need to do it, because we have been thinking the same thing for a while. then we spend a half hour, hour maybe and clean shit. if people didn't come over from time to time, people who care, who knows what shit would be like. most of the time when we straighten up, its because our dealer is coming over, which i think is kind of hilarious.
and you know, i'll say it again, just in case you don't believe me, it doesn't really bother me. i don't care what i smell like, i don't care if i'm dirty, i don't care if i'm living in unsanitary conditions. it takes a lot of time to stay clean and fresh 24/7. i don't like to eat when i don't have to, so stupid things like cleaning? lol...
its probably about time for me to get a girlfriend or something, give me a whip back in the direction of the general population. but that doesn't seem like a lot of fun. i don't want a girlfriend. she'll want me to smell good, and clean my clothes, and keep my apartment straightened up and stuff. that just sucks.
i have been reaquainting myself with my playstation 2 lately. it kind of sat there for a long time, with the whole camelot addiction and all. like all my addictions in the past, dark age of camelot has kind of fluttered down to an occasional deal. its like alcohol now, something i do once in a while for nostolgia, but not something i go out of my way to do. anyways, the playstation 2 has made a pretty big comeback. we went through this whole tekken tag and tekken 4 craze a while ago and burnt ourselves out. air acutally bought tekken 4 and left it at our place, so we've been playing again, its pretty sweet. what really made me happy was after tekken, we went through a hardcore hockey phase. i may have mentioned this before, i dunno, but hockey is pretty much the one game i have always liked. i've always thought of myself at the best, probably because hockey was always at my house, so i played it more than anyone. i look at myself as the hockey dojo master. i train my pupils in the art, but when it comes down to it, i am still the master. my pupils will see flashes of greatness in themselves, but greatness can be consistant for just one person. that person is me. i always am the one to up the intensity, to reach that next plateau. the first to hit 10 goals in a game, then 13, then 17, then 21, always 2 steps ahead of the rest of the world (the world being my friends who play hockey with me). it doesn't stop until i get to the point where i score 28 goals in a game, and it isn't physically possible to score more. then it kind of stops, because what is there to do if you can't improve. it got to the point where i would just play along with whatever music was playing, hitting buttons in time with what the song was doing. my instincts took over, and i would just own. when initial d music was playing, i can get into grooves where it is just goal, goal, goal, goal, goal, goal until the computer assistance kicks in.
anyways, we finished the season, so hopefully hockey is out for a bit. but there are 2 new games. one is multiplayer. it is called frequency. this game...... i have not been sucked into a game like this in a long time. you know, where hours fly by, you wake up and start playing, and next thing you know its 3:45 in the morning and you have to force yourself to go to sleep. everything in between is a blur. anyways, this game has been my weekend. i love this game. the only problem is, i'm at a serious wall right now. this game is insanely hard. to unlock levels, you have to beat it on easy, normal, and hard. certain levels you have to unlock on normal and hard. now, i beat it on easy, which took a whole lot of luck. now, i'm completely stuck on normal. its killing me. i'm forcing myself not to play at this very moment. when i went to sleep last night, i was up for an hour with the game playing in my head along with the music. oh oh oh, so this game, what it is. the game takes songs and breaks them up into different parts. usually there are 2 drums in the background, and depending on what kind of song it is, vocals, guitars, synth, fx, you get the picture. so there are 6 or 7 different parts of each song. each one is turned into a little track dealy. you play in these arenas, where basically you are flying through an octagonal tube. for each track, there are little gems you collect if you play the song right. if you play the track perfectly for long enough, it will keep going on its own, so you can move to a different track and play it along with the first one. this keeps going for a while until you get to a certain spot, then the way the song is meant to be will take over, and you kind of start over again, trying to capture tracks. it is pretty amazing, you kind of have to see it to understand.
also, i got gran turismo 3. 1 and 2 are probably both on my top 5 timesinks of all time, so watch out. i just hope i don't miss work or something and lose my job because of these damn games...
blah. shower, then maybe laundry. i have a new office at work, with a new officemate. tomorrow is the first time we will really meet and work with each other. i guess i should do the right thing and not smell terrible.
shoot me in the head
