Monday, April 14, 2003
oh yeah, and sometimes i do feel superior to people. not one specific person, but people in general. to say otherwise would be a cover up, just to make sure people don't start hating me for being all cocky. most of the time the sad truth is that i am not superior to people, and it comes and bites me in the ass. but lets face it. i'm an optimist now. i haven't always been an optimist. i used to think that it was better to never get hurt or caught on my bullshit and instead i would say i was inferior. but fuck it. its just what i think. its not like i act superior to everyone all the time or anything. i am average, and i generally act pretty average. what does it really matter if in my spare time i entertain myself by thinking i am something special. in the world of wank, there can be only one wank. i am the one. neo's just keanu reeves in leather and pale makeup. i can be whatever i want to be, and usually i think about being a superhero or some religious prophet or a king, or whatever else can make me the general asskicking guy i like to think i am when no one else is around.
the wierd thing is, ryan beat me too this whole superiority subject, and i'm kind of pissed, because that would have been a damn fine blog on its own. now its just an afterthought to a response to a post on ryans blog :) ahh well, c'est la vie.
this whole explaination on superiority is just a way for me to excuse the fact that i'm trying to explain to ryan the way he thinks when i don't have a clue. i may be overstepping my bounds but HA!!! you are in my mind now, sucka. if you don't like it, you can take your wings and the bolts of lightning you can shoot at people and go hang out in someone elses mind. that goes for all of you in fact. oh well, i owe him some caring because he im'ed me a few nights ago and ended up with me drunk and yelling shit about stuff i don't even remember. sorry about that guy. why the fuck am i apologizing!!!!!! i'm not even making sense anymore!!!!!!! shit, i think i had a point about an hour ago, and i think it had something to do with ryan, but i think i lost it and now i'm just grasping at things to talk about to save some of my dignity. its not working, is it. fucked...
the wierd thing is, ryan beat me too this whole superiority subject, and i'm kind of pissed, because that would have been a damn fine blog on its own. now its just an afterthought to a response to a post on ryans blog :) ahh well, c'est la vie.
this whole explaination on superiority is just a way for me to excuse the fact that i'm trying to explain to ryan the way he thinks when i don't have a clue. i may be overstepping my bounds but HA!!! you are in my mind now, sucka. if you don't like it, you can take your wings and the bolts of lightning you can shoot at people and go hang out in someone elses mind. that goes for all of you in fact. oh well, i owe him some caring because he im'ed me a few nights ago and ended up with me drunk and yelling shit about stuff i don't even remember. sorry about that guy. why the fuck am i apologizing!!!!!! i'm not even making sense anymore!!!!!!! shit, i think i had a point about an hour ago, and i think it had something to do with ryan, but i think i lost it and now i'm just grasping at things to talk about to save some of my dignity. its not working, is it. fucked...
