Friday, May 09, 2003
i seem to have won an all expenses paid trip into my subconcious. i'm living in a walking dream right now, and its pretty cool. because i like dreaming, oh man do i like dreaming.
and on a completely unrealtedy note (actually, it is completely related, i lied because i like that term), i watched the animatrix dvd today. there are some wacky moviemabobs on there. i was left kind of dizzy, pretty happy, a little stoked, and a lot in awe. this world that the matrix created is kind of spiralling out of control, and i'm just trying to cling on to one of the sentinals little tenticles so i don't get left behind. eventually i figure i'll be able to leap frog over the bad guys and join the good guys, but i'm still scrambling now. i mean, the matrix made a lot of people think about a lot of stuff that they never would have thought about before. the animatrix is now making me think about a lot of stuff i hadn't thought about before. and now, there are 2 more movies left, in the same world, made by the same people that kicked my ass the first time, and i have no idea what i'm getting myself into. i can't decide whether i sound like the quintessential geek right now, or the quintessential druggie right now. somehow, i wish i could wander around in leather and find a hip and edgy medium between the two. i'm a geek, and i'm a druggie. of course i'm going to sound like this. how the hell else am i supposed to sound? sweet, i even have a leather jacket.
this is where i'm at right now. in the span of about a minute and thirty seconds, you just witnessed me go through this awed breakthrough, question said breakthrough, tear said breakthrough apart like it was just some stupid figment of my imagination, only to realize that what i said made sense to me, so it wasn't even a breakthrough, and it was impossible to breakdown. if you read my blog, you can probably see how fantastically entertaining that was for me.
but anyways, i've been reading these articles about how geekdom is uniting behind the ludicrocity of the matrix. if ludicrocity isn't a word, it is in my mind. it is the word my thoughts said, so i put it there. if you dont' like it, insert your own word. but yeah, they were making the matrix sound, well, geeky. the problem is, the matrix is incredibly cool, which is kind of counter to the whole geeky thing. i mean, i don't think there are a lot of people who don't agree that the matrix was amazing in a cool hip sort of way. does this mean that geek culture is suddenly becoming cool? because if geeks controlled what was cool and what wasn't, what would that make me? i mean, i'm a geek and all, but i have ungeekish qualities. like, there is a real world beyond my computer that i can see. if geeks take over the world, is that going to make me ultra-powerful? i mean, i kind of see myself in some ways as an ambassador between geekdom and normalcy. i'm a pretty agreeable guy, no matter who you are. maybe it is my job to rule the world so geeks can live at their computer in peace. maybe thats why i've been relegated to this whole involuntary vow of chastity thing, so all those geeks who aren't getting laid will love me and relate to me, so they will gather behind me. imagine how great that would be. if geeks were the "in" population, but none of them went outside, that would leave me to do whatever i wanted. girls tend to flock towards the top of the food chain, and well, with all the rest of the predators safely playing quake 3, i'd have my pick of everyone.
i need to write a story about this. the great things about all the stories i write is things always end up pretty well for me. if i ruled the world, i bet other people would build me my castle, i wouldn't even have to do anything at all.
phew man, now THAT was quintessential druggie/geek thinking right there :D someday i'll come back and read this, and i'll just sit back and let this state of mind wash over me, and it will remind me that i need to go get more drugs. heee heee heeee, i'm not even doing anything illegal tonight, take that you moral grandstand wankers!!!! i can free my mind without breaking your silly laws!!!!
ok i'll shut up now :X
but yeah, call me a geek. i love the matrix because it makes me think about things i wouldn't have thought about before.
and on a completely unrealtedy note (actually, it is completely related, i lied because i like that term), i watched the animatrix dvd today. there are some wacky moviemabobs on there. i was left kind of dizzy, pretty happy, a little stoked, and a lot in awe. this world that the matrix created is kind of spiralling out of control, and i'm just trying to cling on to one of the sentinals little tenticles so i don't get left behind. eventually i figure i'll be able to leap frog over the bad guys and join the good guys, but i'm still scrambling now. i mean, the matrix made a lot of people think about a lot of stuff that they never would have thought about before. the animatrix is now making me think about a lot of stuff i hadn't thought about before. and now, there are 2 more movies left, in the same world, made by the same people that kicked my ass the first time, and i have no idea what i'm getting myself into. i can't decide whether i sound like the quintessential geek right now, or the quintessential druggie right now. somehow, i wish i could wander around in leather and find a hip and edgy medium between the two. i'm a geek, and i'm a druggie. of course i'm going to sound like this. how the hell else am i supposed to sound? sweet, i even have a leather jacket.
this is where i'm at right now. in the span of about a minute and thirty seconds, you just witnessed me go through this awed breakthrough, question said breakthrough, tear said breakthrough apart like it was just some stupid figment of my imagination, only to realize that what i said made sense to me, so it wasn't even a breakthrough, and it was impossible to breakdown. if you read my blog, you can probably see how fantastically entertaining that was for me.
but anyways, i've been reading these articles about how geekdom is uniting behind the ludicrocity of the matrix. if ludicrocity isn't a word, it is in my mind. it is the word my thoughts said, so i put it there. if you dont' like it, insert your own word. but yeah, they were making the matrix sound, well, geeky. the problem is, the matrix is incredibly cool, which is kind of counter to the whole geeky thing. i mean, i don't think there are a lot of people who don't agree that the matrix was amazing in a cool hip sort of way. does this mean that geek culture is suddenly becoming cool? because if geeks controlled what was cool and what wasn't, what would that make me? i mean, i'm a geek and all, but i have ungeekish qualities. like, there is a real world beyond my computer that i can see. if geeks take over the world, is that going to make me ultra-powerful? i mean, i kind of see myself in some ways as an ambassador between geekdom and normalcy. i'm a pretty agreeable guy, no matter who you are. maybe it is my job to rule the world so geeks can live at their computer in peace. maybe thats why i've been relegated to this whole involuntary vow of chastity thing, so all those geeks who aren't getting laid will love me and relate to me, so they will gather behind me. imagine how great that would be. if geeks were the "in" population, but none of them went outside, that would leave me to do whatever i wanted. girls tend to flock towards the top of the food chain, and well, with all the rest of the predators safely playing quake 3, i'd have my pick of everyone.
i need to write a story about this. the great things about all the stories i write is things always end up pretty well for me. if i ruled the world, i bet other people would build me my castle, i wouldn't even have to do anything at all.
phew man, now THAT was quintessential druggie/geek thinking right there :D someday i'll come back and read this, and i'll just sit back and let this state of mind wash over me, and it will remind me that i need to go get more drugs. heee heee heeee, i'm not even doing anything illegal tonight, take that you moral grandstand wankers!!!! i can free my mind without breaking your silly laws!!!!
ok i'll shut up now :X
but yeah, call me a geek. i love the matrix because it makes me think about things i wouldn't have thought about before.
