Tuesday, June 10, 2003
sorry, my mind has been on the back burner lately while i've been sorting some life shit out, you know? i don't have much time for thought, and when i'm not thinking, you end up with blogs that go OOP ACK SNIB for about 3 pages, and no one really wants to read that. also, i haven't bought weed in what i swear is a month or so. i've been mooching off of matt, and he's been letting me, so i'm not complaining. soon though, within the month i should be back in action for myself.
so yeah, i'm making some money. i deposited a nice chunk o change yesterday, so i should be set for rent for another month at least. that is always a great feeling to have in the first week of the month. as absolutely fabulous as these past 4 months have been (probably some of the best of my entire life), i really won't miss worrying about where my next meal is going to come from. i don't know how much money i'll actually be making a month and such, but if i continue like i am now, tips should throw me over the top into profitability beyond all expenses. this means money beyond food, rent, bills, insurance, gas, credit cards, entertainment budget, rebuilding savings, etc etc. like seriously to the point where i have money that i can do anything i want with. this is when i buy drugs. ohhhh sweet sweet drugs. i'm guessing it will be another 2 weeks to a month before i'm there, seeing as i've racked up a nice little credit card statement and i'd like to start taking sizeable chunks out of it in the next 2 months or so, but the future is looking up. i might even end up making more than i was at the end of starflower. how wacky is that. we'll see after i get my next paycheck. it is really too early to start thinking about how this job is going to fit into my ideal financial situation, but i can speculate. prospects are hopeful, stock of wank enterprises is on the way back up after dipping to dangerous levels.
of course now that i've said all this, i'm going to get fired or something at the job is going to take some HUGE turn for the worst, and i'll be moaning about shit again. i think i've got a pretty good hold on this one though. it is pizza delivery, i mean jeebus. there really are very few expectations of me. no one expects me to pretend to care or anything. i'm going into this job knowing that it kind of sucks, but i'm doing it for the money. and it doesn't even really suck too bad. i get a lot of time to myself, which is pretty much fucking perfect for me. i never have to work before 10 or 11 am or so, which is much easier to swallow than 7 am. no offense to my ex-starflower employees, who are cool in an entirely different way, my new employees are all relatively like minded. they are all stoners just like me. they are working there to make some money so they can live and buy a sack every once in a while. at starflower, i was always the loveable boob who everyone kept around. i mean, everyone genuinely liked me, or at least tolerated me i think, but it was a different atmosphere. of course, i've only been at this new job for a week and a half or so, but it already feels like i belong, you know? i don't do anything wrong, and no one bugs me. if i do something wrong, and if someone manages to notice, they don't really care anyways.
one thing i need to watch out for is my car. thats why i'm really glad to be getting money again. i'm going to try to live as frugally as possible, and see how fast i can save money. if i can save up a few grand over the next 6 months or a year, i am going to be extremely pleased. its not going to happen, 12 months just isn't enough time for me to save up that kind of cash with the kind of income i'm talking about. but still, i need to do this. i need to have some cash set aside for when my car bites it. if i don't have a car, i'm out of a job. my car is my livelyhood, and its already kinda screwed up. as a pizza delivery guy, i can be fairly certain that my car is just going to die sooner or later, and i'm going to have to get rid of it and get a new car fast. i'm just hoping i'm ready for it, because this could be disasterous. i'm probably going to have to go to my parents for help, which is something i've been avoiding for a while now. i already owe them some money anyways from a few years ago, i'm not looking forward to owing them more. i hate worrying about cars. stupid maintenance, i'm too lazy to maintain my body, there is no way in hell i'm going to do shit to my car. pfft, it sucks anyways.
i'm going to do everything i can to keep myself from getting bitter about this job. there is no reason for me to get bitter about it, but i'm gotten bitter about every other job i've had. it just happens. i can't let it though. new wank, please rescue meeeeeeee
so yeah, i'm making some money. i deposited a nice chunk o change yesterday, so i should be set for rent for another month at least. that is always a great feeling to have in the first week of the month. as absolutely fabulous as these past 4 months have been (probably some of the best of my entire life), i really won't miss worrying about where my next meal is going to come from. i don't know how much money i'll actually be making a month and such, but if i continue like i am now, tips should throw me over the top into profitability beyond all expenses. this means money beyond food, rent, bills, insurance, gas, credit cards, entertainment budget, rebuilding savings, etc etc. like seriously to the point where i have money that i can do anything i want with. this is when i buy drugs. ohhhh sweet sweet drugs. i'm guessing it will be another 2 weeks to a month before i'm there, seeing as i've racked up a nice little credit card statement and i'd like to start taking sizeable chunks out of it in the next 2 months or so, but the future is looking up. i might even end up making more than i was at the end of starflower. how wacky is that. we'll see after i get my next paycheck. it is really too early to start thinking about how this job is going to fit into my ideal financial situation, but i can speculate. prospects are hopeful, stock of wank enterprises is on the way back up after dipping to dangerous levels.
of course now that i've said all this, i'm going to get fired or something at the job is going to take some HUGE turn for the worst, and i'll be moaning about shit again. i think i've got a pretty good hold on this one though. it is pizza delivery, i mean jeebus. there really are very few expectations of me. no one expects me to pretend to care or anything. i'm going into this job knowing that it kind of sucks, but i'm doing it for the money. and it doesn't even really suck too bad. i get a lot of time to myself, which is pretty much fucking perfect for me. i never have to work before 10 or 11 am or so, which is much easier to swallow than 7 am. no offense to my ex-starflower employees, who are cool in an entirely different way, my new employees are all relatively like minded. they are all stoners just like me. they are working there to make some money so they can live and buy a sack every once in a while. at starflower, i was always the loveable boob who everyone kept around. i mean, everyone genuinely liked me, or at least tolerated me i think, but it was a different atmosphere. of course, i've only been at this new job for a week and a half or so, but it already feels like i belong, you know? i don't do anything wrong, and no one bugs me. if i do something wrong, and if someone manages to notice, they don't really care anyways.
one thing i need to watch out for is my car. thats why i'm really glad to be getting money again. i'm going to try to live as frugally as possible, and see how fast i can save money. if i can save up a few grand over the next 6 months or a year, i am going to be extremely pleased. its not going to happen, 12 months just isn't enough time for me to save up that kind of cash with the kind of income i'm talking about. but still, i need to do this. i need to have some cash set aside for when my car bites it. if i don't have a car, i'm out of a job. my car is my livelyhood, and its already kinda screwed up. as a pizza delivery guy, i can be fairly certain that my car is just going to die sooner or later, and i'm going to have to get rid of it and get a new car fast. i'm just hoping i'm ready for it, because this could be disasterous. i'm probably going to have to go to my parents for help, which is something i've been avoiding for a while now. i already owe them some money anyways from a few years ago, i'm not looking forward to owing them more. i hate worrying about cars. stupid maintenance, i'm too lazy to maintain my body, there is no way in hell i'm going to do shit to my car. pfft, it sucks anyways.
i'm going to do everything i can to keep myself from getting bitter about this job. there is no reason for me to get bitter about it, but i'm gotten bitter about every other job i've had. it just happens. i can't let it though. new wank, please rescue meeeeeeee
