Monday, January 05, 2004
this is cracked out. no one else on my blog list has even blogged this year. are we scared of 2004? yes, yes we are. that, and we are all pretty happy. or maybe we aren't. i don't know. i don't know much of anything anymore.
i think i'm going to go into hiding for a few months. blogging will probably pick up because i will be alone and stoned sitting around my house. but yeah, i'm at a point where i just don't really want to talk to other people for a little bit. i guess i've figured out where i stand on a lot of things, now i have to find a way to make it all blend with everyone else so i can stop exhausting myself worrying about other people and their strange ways.
i think i'm going to start writing a book, but i'm having trouble deciding which idea i want to write about more. i think i'm going to do the one i was originally going to do as an online novel. this is the idea that birthed friv. i was going to do an online novel with ryan and matt, but i couldn't figure out a way to get blogger or anything else to post in the opposite order, so you would have had to read chapter by chapter from the bottom, and that sounded dumb.
but yeah yeah, i'm pretty excited. being an introvert again sounds great. i got to college, and i decided to be an extrovert. it was great, i learned a lot. i can now function around other people very well, which was the main point to begin with. but i learned that i still don't really like being around a lot of people. it wasn't just because i was a goon and didn't know how to converse with people, it was because i don't like being around people.
this leaves me and my mind together. me and my best friend, when you really think about it. i'm going to start taking aikido lessons. i don't know why i haven't before. there is no reason for me not too, besides the money, and pretty soon i'll be doing good enough on the money aspect to handle it, especially if i get my insurance down to where i'm thinking i'm going too. its seriously going to free up another hundred a month. i hate insurance companys by the way, little side note there. mine seriously is fucking me. i'm paying $230 this month or something rediculous. so hated. i can get it to about half that somewhere else. my term ends this month, soooo....
i'm not going to be a complete recluse, but i just don't want to go do things. things sound stupid. i'm just going to do stuff at home. stuff rocks. it basically comes down to that one base idea i learned at ryans house oh so many years ago: stuff good, things bad.
i think i'm going to go into hiding for a few months. blogging will probably pick up because i will be alone and stoned sitting around my house. but yeah, i'm at a point where i just don't really want to talk to other people for a little bit. i guess i've figured out where i stand on a lot of things, now i have to find a way to make it all blend with everyone else so i can stop exhausting myself worrying about other people and their strange ways.
i think i'm going to start writing a book, but i'm having trouble deciding which idea i want to write about more. i think i'm going to do the one i was originally going to do as an online novel. this is the idea that birthed friv. i was going to do an online novel with ryan and matt, but i couldn't figure out a way to get blogger or anything else to post in the opposite order, so you would have had to read chapter by chapter from the bottom, and that sounded dumb.
but yeah yeah, i'm pretty excited. being an introvert again sounds great. i got to college, and i decided to be an extrovert. it was great, i learned a lot. i can now function around other people very well, which was the main point to begin with. but i learned that i still don't really like being around a lot of people. it wasn't just because i was a goon and didn't know how to converse with people, it was because i don't like being around people.
this leaves me and my mind together. me and my best friend, when you really think about it. i'm going to start taking aikido lessons. i don't know why i haven't before. there is no reason for me not too, besides the money, and pretty soon i'll be doing good enough on the money aspect to handle it, especially if i get my insurance down to where i'm thinking i'm going too. its seriously going to free up another hundred a month. i hate insurance companys by the way, little side note there. mine seriously is fucking me. i'm paying $230 this month or something rediculous. so hated. i can get it to about half that somewhere else. my term ends this month, soooo....
i'm not going to be a complete recluse, but i just don't want to go do things. things sound stupid. i'm just going to do stuff at home. stuff rocks. it basically comes down to that one base idea i learned at ryans house oh so many years ago: stuff good, things bad.
