you want the truth? i was really looking forward to moving to pittsburg by the end there. acutally, i wasn't looking forward to moving to pittsburg, i was looking forward to going somewhere else on my own. its nice that i don't have to get up and move and stuff, but i think it really would have been healthy. now i'm still here. i don't really feel stuck here, just a little disappointed. actually a lot disappointed, because i was really excited.

ahh well. its not like i'm hurting for anything, besides a little peace and quiet, some alone time. but i make time for it, even if it costs me a little sleep. if there is one thing college and work have taught me, its that i don't really need sleep all the time. fuck, i worked a 10 hour shift new years day after no sleep coming down off acid. i can do anything :)

still, sometimes i feel like i need something to do. i don't really want to do anything, but i should. aikido starts in april... will i even do that? meh, maybe. actually, yes. yes i am going to do that. i've been looking forward to this for a long time. it will definitely help. it might get the ball-o-change rolling. for me at least. who knows where i will be in 6 months. i'm definitely looking forward to finding out though. its all been uphill.

leap year days are weird

frivved up by Ben at 12:12 PM