Friday, September 17, 2004
i can't give in and believe that everything is as stupid as i think it is. i would have to kill myself, because i don't think i'll make it to 25. i don't think anyone will make it another year and a half in the wasteland of stupidity we get to slog through. there is a point where i have to start laughing instead of wondering why because there is no why in these people's lives. why is giving most people too much credit. my world is turning into a zoo. it is like watching that video of that monkey drinking his own pee. you have to wonder why, but obviously why never crossed this monkeys mind. i'm sure it was perfectly logical to him. all that peeing made him thirsty. two birds with one stone. he could be totally self sufficient. maybe the monkey is the genius and i am the stupid one.
i can't deal with it anymore. i can't take the stupidity. i try to put up iron bars so it can't reach me, but inevitably some gob of feces comes flying through and smacks me in the face. i've been a party to a lot of stupid things. i've seen some stupid shit happen, and thats not even counting what i've seen on tv. somehow, something else always comes along that reminds me that i can't even fathom how far the well of idiocy goes. there is so much potential for stupid that it has to be balanced by something. maybe the stupidity will be a good thing. maybe logic will finally be trampled enough that we will start having logic foci spring up around the world to rebalance things. this could get bloody, i better start stocking up on throwing stars and bombs and other weapons of mass destruction i can fit in my pants. they will never see it coming, and if they do i'll die happy because someone is digging around in my pants.
laughing it off and saying it doesn't bug me gets me through most days. curling up in the fetal position in some corner with my doors locked and all the lights off gets me through the rest. i'll type anything in this little box to try and keep myself sane for another few days. OH WAIT! i've worked for 12 days in a row, i don't get to stay sane. its amazing i can keep any forward momentum at this point
i can't deal with it anymore. i can't take the stupidity. i try to put up iron bars so it can't reach me, but inevitably some gob of feces comes flying through and smacks me in the face. i've been a party to a lot of stupid things. i've seen some stupid shit happen, and thats not even counting what i've seen on tv. somehow, something else always comes along that reminds me that i can't even fathom how far the well of idiocy goes. there is so much potential for stupid that it has to be balanced by something. maybe the stupidity will be a good thing. maybe logic will finally be trampled enough that we will start having logic foci spring up around the world to rebalance things. this could get bloody, i better start stocking up on throwing stars and bombs and other weapons of mass destruction i can fit in my pants. they will never see it coming, and if they do i'll die happy because someone is digging around in my pants.
laughing it off and saying it doesn't bug me gets me through most days. curling up in the fetal position in some corner with my doors locked and all the lights off gets me through the rest. i'll type anything in this little box to try and keep myself sane for another few days. OH WAIT! i've worked for 12 days in a row, i don't get to stay sane. its amazing i can keep any forward momentum at this point
