Sunday, March 06, 2005
10 days or so into my new job, i'm finally starting to settle down. i've allowed myself certain liberties in my daily routine, occasional reemergences of bad habits, and slacking off in my excercise and meditation schedules. it annoys me that i did this, but it happened. the bad is far outweighed by the good, working hard at my new job.
on the topic of my new job, i love being borderline self-employed. i don't want to work for anyone else ever again. one of my main goals in life has been to own and operate my own business some day. to be in charge of my own successes and failures. I have thought about ://friv/records, Greenwood Greens weed store, and the global ://friv corporate empire enough to know that the first step is small. i thought it was going to be one shop, but it turns out the answer was even smaller. in college, i thought i might be able to do it by the time i was 50, finally take over some business in whatever field i chose. after college i always thought i would be able to save enough money to do it sometime in my mid 30's, but i always thought it would be some little store like championship vinyl in high fidelity. it is funny that it wasn't until after college that my dreams started to slowly blossom into something feasible, which was exciting. it got me through years of starflower, and kept me working to exhaustion delivering pizzas.
now, i am a business owner of sorts. it is hard to call it a real business, but it is. in a few weeks time, i'll have a business liscense from king county and the city of seattle. i provide one service (delivering documents) to one company, but i am still a business. to me, it is a brilliant business. all of the expenses my business has are expenses i was already taking care of as a person. all i am really doing is calling myself a business because it makes it easier on the company and myself come tax time. we both save money, and i get to live out one of my dreams.
i already have a business liscense. someday when i want to do something real, i'll have that step taken care of already. until then, i can drive. or not. it is really all up to me now. it is kind of sick, but one of the things i'm looking forward too the most is figuring out how to expand my spreadsheets to reflect myself as a personal entity and a corporate entity at the same time. it is going to be great, because you know i'm going to be leaving plenty of room for expansion. doing anything i can to avoid hindering myself. trying to predict the future.
right now i am in an expected state of flux. starting a new job is a huge thing. it requires fundamental changes to your physical and mental routines. so, i figure it is ok that i am a little out of sorts. it is not like i had it together in the first place.
this point is as far as i had seriously planned ahead. the things i see in my future are the fun things, the things i have always dreamed about doing with my life. suddenly, things are shaping up in a way that makes those dreams a realistic possibility. things have fallen into place exactly how i envisioned them, with a few extra side bonuses, proving to myself that i was headed in the right direction all along.
what did i do? watched, planned, and observed. it wasn't effort, it wasn't struggle. it was timing. following the string of events i saw ahead of time, from the downfall of roundtable to me quitting to me taking 2 months off to me getting hired to where we are now, which is successful and happy at my new job, like i always knew i would be. but things had to go in that order. i knew it, and matt knew it. he mentioned me twice, i called twice, and then one day, my 24th birthday, i started my new job. it required 2 minutes on the phone, 2 hours of training, and that was it. now i'm doing something i know how to do, and i do well, without anyone else to get in my way. i can just focus on doing my job the right way, without having to worry about everything my coworkers and my bosses are doing wrong around me. i don't have any coworkers. i'm the boss. i've simplified the equation down, stripped it of all its useless and unnecessary variables. now, i can continue on with my life, knowing that i have a neat and tidy answer to guide me towards success.
it seems to follow the path of my mind perfectly. it couldn't have happened anyother way, because i wouldn't have let it. anything else would have been a step backwards. this is just a reaffrimation of myself. all i can do is follow the path i see before me.
on the topic of my new job, i love being borderline self-employed. i don't want to work for anyone else ever again. one of my main goals in life has been to own and operate my own business some day. to be in charge of my own successes and failures. I have thought about ://friv/records, Greenwood Greens weed store, and the global ://friv corporate empire enough to know that the first step is small. i thought it was going to be one shop, but it turns out the answer was even smaller. in college, i thought i might be able to do it by the time i was 50, finally take over some business in whatever field i chose. after college i always thought i would be able to save enough money to do it sometime in my mid 30's, but i always thought it would be some little store like championship vinyl in high fidelity. it is funny that it wasn't until after college that my dreams started to slowly blossom into something feasible, which was exciting. it got me through years of starflower, and kept me working to exhaustion delivering pizzas.
now, i am a business owner of sorts. it is hard to call it a real business, but it is. in a few weeks time, i'll have a business liscense from king county and the city of seattle. i provide one service (delivering documents) to one company, but i am still a business. to me, it is a brilliant business. all of the expenses my business has are expenses i was already taking care of as a person. all i am really doing is calling myself a business because it makes it easier on the company and myself come tax time. we both save money, and i get to live out one of my dreams.
i already have a business liscense. someday when i want to do something real, i'll have that step taken care of already. until then, i can drive. or not. it is really all up to me now. it is kind of sick, but one of the things i'm looking forward too the most is figuring out how to expand my spreadsheets to reflect myself as a personal entity and a corporate entity at the same time. it is going to be great, because you know i'm going to be leaving plenty of room for expansion. doing anything i can to avoid hindering myself. trying to predict the future.
right now i am in an expected state of flux. starting a new job is a huge thing. it requires fundamental changes to your physical and mental routines. so, i figure it is ok that i am a little out of sorts. it is not like i had it together in the first place.
this point is as far as i had seriously planned ahead. the things i see in my future are the fun things, the things i have always dreamed about doing with my life. suddenly, things are shaping up in a way that makes those dreams a realistic possibility. things have fallen into place exactly how i envisioned them, with a few extra side bonuses, proving to myself that i was headed in the right direction all along.
what did i do? watched, planned, and observed. it wasn't effort, it wasn't struggle. it was timing. following the string of events i saw ahead of time, from the downfall of roundtable to me quitting to me taking 2 months off to me getting hired to where we are now, which is successful and happy at my new job, like i always knew i would be. but things had to go in that order. i knew it, and matt knew it. he mentioned me twice, i called twice, and then one day, my 24th birthday, i started my new job. it required 2 minutes on the phone, 2 hours of training, and that was it. now i'm doing something i know how to do, and i do well, without anyone else to get in my way. i can just focus on doing my job the right way, without having to worry about everything my coworkers and my bosses are doing wrong around me. i don't have any coworkers. i'm the boss. i've simplified the equation down, stripped it of all its useless and unnecessary variables. now, i can continue on with my life, knowing that i have a neat and tidy answer to guide me towards success.
it seems to follow the path of my mind perfectly. it couldn't have happened anyother way, because i wouldn't have let it. anything else would have been a step backwards. this is just a reaffrimation of myself. all i can do is follow the path i see before me.
