Thursday, August 18, 2005
letters to tripat, printed vol. #1 :
the thought of being mundane, and moreso the thought of me thinking mundane thoughts gets to me as well, but like you said, what do you do about it? we are trained from age 4 to be robots. if you don't want to be a robot, you don't even get an opinion, you are suddenly outside everything. that is what i think is truely mundane, the thought of living like my mom and dad. if i'm going to mundane, i might as well be mundane for myself so i am mundane and happy instead of mundane and perpetually frustrated.
damn the generation gap. that is one nice thing about feeling mundane. as time passes, our thoughts become more and more prevalent as our generation gets closer to being the dominant power. we know there are better ways to do things, or at least different ways that are potentially less destructive, but we don't have the social currency to put our theories into action. someday we will be in charge though. our generation, our people will slowly start accumulating power, until we are the business owners. we will have the power to make our ideas relevant. we don't now, but we are on the cusp, which makes it all the more frustrating. to me, that is the other side. some day, when i have a store of my own somewhere that i can run as i see fit. everything i do now is research for then. all the bullshit i see will help me someday. but our generation isn't there yet. we are ascending, but we have 50 quadrillion babyboomers to deal with in the meantime. i'll let them keep fucking things up. their mess won't hinder me because i plan on starting from scratch anyways.
there will be a time in the future when people like us need to step forward and take our place in society, and be in a position to change society around us through our actions. i don't believe there is room for me in society now, but there will be, i am certain of that. my qualms with the world around me stem from the current powers, not the powers that will be. if i am going to be relegated to the edges of society anyways, i will take my role seriously. i am circling like a shark right now, gathering a school of ideas behind me. it is frustrating, because i feel like there is so much i should be doing now that would be helpful to someone, or everyone, but i don't have the respect that is necessary. you can't help if your efforts are refused. so fuck it, i'll be mundane. it isn't wasting my time, i've got my most formidable years ahead of me. it is the generations ahead of us that are wasting their time, and their time is running out. time is my ally right now, because the longer i have to wait, the better my situation will be when my opportunity comes.
that is me in a nutshell. cynical with hope. not hope for now, but hope for when now is dead and i am still alive. or maybe i should say hope for when now is finally asleep, and i am finally awake. it just takes time to get from now to the future.
the thought of being mundane, and moreso the thought of me thinking mundane thoughts gets to me as well, but like you said, what do you do about it? we are trained from age 4 to be robots. if you don't want to be a robot, you don't even get an opinion, you are suddenly outside everything. that is what i think is truely mundane, the thought of living like my mom and dad. if i'm going to mundane, i might as well be mundane for myself so i am mundane and happy instead of mundane and perpetually frustrated.
damn the generation gap. that is one nice thing about feeling mundane. as time passes, our thoughts become more and more prevalent as our generation gets closer to being the dominant power. we know there are better ways to do things, or at least different ways that are potentially less destructive, but we don't have the social currency to put our theories into action. someday we will be in charge though. our generation, our people will slowly start accumulating power, until we are the business owners. we will have the power to make our ideas relevant. we don't now, but we are on the cusp, which makes it all the more frustrating. to me, that is the other side. some day, when i have a store of my own somewhere that i can run as i see fit. everything i do now is research for then. all the bullshit i see will help me someday. but our generation isn't there yet. we are ascending, but we have 50 quadrillion babyboomers to deal with in the meantime. i'll let them keep fucking things up. their mess won't hinder me because i plan on starting from scratch anyways.
there will be a time in the future when people like us need to step forward and take our place in society, and be in a position to change society around us through our actions. i don't believe there is room for me in society now, but there will be, i am certain of that. my qualms with the world around me stem from the current powers, not the powers that will be. if i am going to be relegated to the edges of society anyways, i will take my role seriously. i am circling like a shark right now, gathering a school of ideas behind me. it is frustrating, because i feel like there is so much i should be doing now that would be helpful to someone, or everyone, but i don't have the respect that is necessary. you can't help if your efforts are refused. so fuck it, i'll be mundane. it isn't wasting my time, i've got my most formidable years ahead of me. it is the generations ahead of us that are wasting their time, and their time is running out. time is my ally right now, because the longer i have to wait, the better my situation will be when my opportunity comes.
that is me in a nutshell. cynical with hope. not hope for now, but hope for when now is dead and i am still alive. or maybe i should say hope for when now is finally asleep, and i am finally awake. it just takes time to get from now to the future.
