Saturday, September 09, 2006
here i am to save the day!
so what in the world is the deal with the wank these days. straight and to the point seems to have flown out the window. if i have said at any time that i am to the point, i was deceiving you. but deception is what i do best. i can skew any truth to match my truth, or wrap any lie in enough rosy imagery to make you want to believe it. with my nonexistant attention span, i can say something and mean what i am saying, then forget all about it thereby turning it into something cold and deceptive in scant minutes. sometimes my shoulder angel falls asleep, but the devil inside me has more important things to do, so for the most part we are left with random senseless idiocy.
it all amuses me. i don't really have all that much control of what i say in the first place. talking out loud always has a random element too it that i can't keep a firm grasp on. i don't take myself seriously, but when someone else does, instead of trying to make sense, i usually try to invent some straight-faced string of lies so outrageous, they don't know what to think. sometimes i come up with things that baffle even me, but usually that is when i am actually trying to make sense. it is all such a crapshoot in the first place, i just try to keep myself floating in between, and do everything i can to make myself seem just good enough at heart to be ignored. a lot of people think i have a benevolent spirit, but that is just the easiest way to deal with people. make yourself subtly obvious when you help people, and invisible when you are getting the upper hand. good people will think you are good as well, and bad people will think they are taking advantage of you.
so yeah, to the point or something. i don't think there is a point. don't trust me because i'm not even paying attention, maybe? i don't know. it seems to sum things up pretty well. maybe things will change when we are all cyborgs, but i doubt it. even if you had wires to plug into my head to see what i was thinking, i'd just start thinking what you wanted me to think, waiting for you to let your guard down so i could pull some stupid prank on you. certain things, i say i am trying to change to make myself look better to other people when i have no intention of doing so. i may even mean it when i say it at first. i guess my first problem is announcing stupid things to people. if something doesn't even matter to them, why tell them if i am not even going to tell them the whole truth? why? because i am a mischevious little monkey who likes to toy with things. i'd be the one in the cockpit switching random switches when the pilot isn't looking just to see if anything bad happened. ok, there is a good point to make. never travel in an airplane that i am flying.
fuck it, fuck points. i have no points. i am rambling, just to hear myself talk. i dangled a point in front of your nose just so i could watch you jump and try to catch it. this amuses me as well. good hunting, captains
so what in the world is the deal with the wank these days. straight and to the point seems to have flown out the window. if i have said at any time that i am to the point, i was deceiving you. but deception is what i do best. i can skew any truth to match my truth, or wrap any lie in enough rosy imagery to make you want to believe it. with my nonexistant attention span, i can say something and mean what i am saying, then forget all about it thereby turning it into something cold and deceptive in scant minutes. sometimes my shoulder angel falls asleep, but the devil inside me has more important things to do, so for the most part we are left with random senseless idiocy.
it all amuses me. i don't really have all that much control of what i say in the first place. talking out loud always has a random element too it that i can't keep a firm grasp on. i don't take myself seriously, but when someone else does, instead of trying to make sense, i usually try to invent some straight-faced string of lies so outrageous, they don't know what to think. sometimes i come up with things that baffle even me, but usually that is when i am actually trying to make sense. it is all such a crapshoot in the first place, i just try to keep myself floating in between, and do everything i can to make myself seem just good enough at heart to be ignored. a lot of people think i have a benevolent spirit, but that is just the easiest way to deal with people. make yourself subtly obvious when you help people, and invisible when you are getting the upper hand. good people will think you are good as well, and bad people will think they are taking advantage of you.
so yeah, to the point or something. i don't think there is a point. don't trust me because i'm not even paying attention, maybe? i don't know. it seems to sum things up pretty well. maybe things will change when we are all cyborgs, but i doubt it. even if you had wires to plug into my head to see what i was thinking, i'd just start thinking what you wanted me to think, waiting for you to let your guard down so i could pull some stupid prank on you. certain things, i say i am trying to change to make myself look better to other people when i have no intention of doing so. i may even mean it when i say it at first. i guess my first problem is announcing stupid things to people. if something doesn't even matter to them, why tell them if i am not even going to tell them the whole truth? why? because i am a mischevious little monkey who likes to toy with things. i'd be the one in the cockpit switching random switches when the pilot isn't looking just to see if anything bad happened. ok, there is a good point to make. never travel in an airplane that i am flying.
fuck it, fuck points. i have no points. i am rambling, just to hear myself talk. i dangled a point in front of your nose just so i could watch you jump and try to catch it. this amuses me as well. good hunting, captains
