the chicken has more or less landed. only, i can fly and the chicken can't. i am riding such an incredible high today. work was horrible, but it is all a distant memory. i haven't really gotten any sleep in days and days, and i am still sitting here dancing in my chair. it has been a long time, so long since i have felt anything remotely like this. in fact, i don't think i have felt anything like this. every day has gotten better. i feel like i can face anything right now.

the best part about it, is this exactly how i always wanted love to be. i have always felt that real love should be effortless and instantaneous. it seemed way too idealistic to be true, which is why i have questioned this view so many times. i have pegged myself as asexual at best, and a serial loser at worst. but i always knew. i have always stood by this belief, no matter how lonely i was. i went on dates, even dates with great girls, but they were never the girl. something this important should not be forced. i knew she was out there. my mind told me i would know when i found her, or better yet, when she found me. this post is the validation of every lonely post i have had over the past few years. the wait has been worth it so far.

my cynical bones are getting a much needed rest. hell, my ego is getting a much needed rest. i feel no need to rifle through my thoughts looking for deception. i feel absolutely great, and better yet, i deserve to feel this way. there is no guilt or questioning, just bliss

frivved up by Ben at 11:15 PM