Sunday, November 26, 2006
i'm happy. i am just happy. it wasn't very long, but it was long enough to make me feel it. and now i am just happy.
it was strange, these past few days. i was just lonely. i guess it isn't strange, but it strange for me. at first, i didn't really recognize what was happening. i was antsy, i was restless, i was out of sorts. quickly i realized it was because she was gone, and more because she was far away and there was no way to see her. i almost didn't want to admit it at first, but i was lonely. i don't get lonely. if lonely had been a problem, i would have driven myself crazy long ago. i guess lonely was just the norm. maybe now that i have a reason, it actually got through to me what i was feeling.
when she showed up today, my whole body responded. my mind was at ease, my smile was permanent, and my heart started beating faster because i was so excited to see her. my restlessness faded away, and i was happy just because she was here. the greatest part is, i am easygoing enough to recognize these things. some people take these things for granted, because they are focused on other things. but simple things like this mean something to me, feelings i can't avoid, and would never want too. and so, today was great.
it wasn't long, but it was long enough. today was great, and it is hard for me to describe how happy i was. i didn't fully realize how much i missed her until she was here, and then it didn't matter anymore. thank you for coming back :)
it was strange, these past few days. i was just lonely. i guess it isn't strange, but it strange for me. at first, i didn't really recognize what was happening. i was antsy, i was restless, i was out of sorts. quickly i realized it was because she was gone, and more because she was far away and there was no way to see her. i almost didn't want to admit it at first, but i was lonely. i don't get lonely. if lonely had been a problem, i would have driven myself crazy long ago. i guess lonely was just the norm. maybe now that i have a reason, it actually got through to me what i was feeling.
when she showed up today, my whole body responded. my mind was at ease, my smile was permanent, and my heart started beating faster because i was so excited to see her. my restlessness faded away, and i was happy just because she was here. the greatest part is, i am easygoing enough to recognize these things. some people take these things for granted, because they are focused on other things. but simple things like this mean something to me, feelings i can't avoid, and would never want too. and so, today was great.
it wasn't long, but it was long enough. today was great, and it is hard for me to describe how happy i was. i didn't fully realize how much i missed her until she was here, and then it didn't matter anymore. thank you for coming back :)
