Wednesday, December 20, 2006
sometimes i wish i could live in my dreams. i had probably the best dream i have ever had last night. it was realistic, i didn't wake up, and i remembered every part of it when i woke up in the morning. the main thing is, i didn't wake up in the middle, like i usually do. the dream went on and kept getting better. it put me in a great mood for today.
now i am torn. i want to tell the person in my dream everything that happened. but it felt real, and i have always been keen on the idea of having my dreams manifest themselves in real life. it wasn't really a long, involved, outlandish dream. it was just simple and good, and completely in the realm of possibility. so, no matter how much i want to share, a large part of me wants to sit on it, and see if it actually happens in real life.
i am not entirely sure either will happen. actually, i probably won't tell anyone, and it probably won't happen. it seems a little anticlimactic, but that is ok too. i don't know exactly what was different, or why i can remember it all in such vivid detail. i found myself remembering little parts of it as my day went along. it set a great tone. with the way my day went yesterday, i really couldn't have asked for much more out of last night. somehow despite it all, i went to bed happy, woke up content, and managed to carry a disconnected attitude through the day. work wasn't terrible. not much of note really happened until the end, and at that point the whirlwind just couldn't touch me.
today is what i needed. well, last night and today combined is what i needed. a day and night that didn't require my attention. tonight could be going better. i got home expecting to register for this class i am hoping to take next quarter at nscc. i was accepted, and they sent me this whole email with my student i and everything. i talked to work about it, to make sure i could get out early on wednesdays. now, i can't register. it says my student id is invalid. of course, i work during the day, so i can't exactly go talk to the administration doobs get these things fixed. my class is filling up. there are only 3 spots left. i don't know if i have a few days to wait for things to work out. i waited too long to figure out what i wanted to do, and get the ball rolling.
meh. i'll figure something out. or wait. i don't know what to do now besides wait. yeah, that pretty much sums up my life right now, i don't know what to do besides wait and see how everything shakes out.
now i am torn. i want to tell the person in my dream everything that happened. but it felt real, and i have always been keen on the idea of having my dreams manifest themselves in real life. it wasn't really a long, involved, outlandish dream. it was just simple and good, and completely in the realm of possibility. so, no matter how much i want to share, a large part of me wants to sit on it, and see if it actually happens in real life.
i am not entirely sure either will happen. actually, i probably won't tell anyone, and it probably won't happen. it seems a little anticlimactic, but that is ok too. i don't know exactly what was different, or why i can remember it all in such vivid detail. i found myself remembering little parts of it as my day went along. it set a great tone. with the way my day went yesterday, i really couldn't have asked for much more out of last night. somehow despite it all, i went to bed happy, woke up content, and managed to carry a disconnected attitude through the day. work wasn't terrible. not much of note really happened until the end, and at that point the whirlwind just couldn't touch me.
today is what i needed. well, last night and today combined is what i needed. a day and night that didn't require my attention. tonight could be going better. i got home expecting to register for this class i am hoping to take next quarter at nscc. i was accepted, and they sent me this whole email with my student i and everything. i talked to work about it, to make sure i could get out early on wednesdays. now, i can't register. it says my student id is invalid. of course, i work during the day, so i can't exactly go talk to the administration doobs get these things fixed. my class is filling up. there are only 3 spots left. i don't know if i have a few days to wait for things to work out. i waited too long to figure out what i wanted to do, and get the ball rolling.
meh. i'll figure something out. or wait. i don't know what to do now besides wait. yeah, that pretty much sums up my life right now, i don't know what to do besides wait and see how everything shakes out.
