Saturday, December 16, 2006
lookie lookie, a preview of 4 books from now! it doesn't seem fair sometimes, considering how slowly my first book is going :) i have too much to write, and too little time. that is a little section i have been playing with in my mind for a while. like the other tidbits on the front page, it is more like a guideline at this point. when i actually get to that part, it will be better. i just wanted to get into ash's and krista's heads for a while and drive around in his car. i wanted to see the smartalloy roads soaring above downtown, and i wanted to hack into the roads themselves, the roads ash and i built.
mostly, i wanted to write about Krista's discomfort slowly slide away. it has always been one of my favorite moments of this book, when Krista is all freaked out at the beginning of this chase, and then laughs as she realizes they are in little danger. i wanted to be there. i miss this book. i have spent the most time on this book, and it is the most fully realized in my head, despite the fact that Baylen's Chain has a full outline and this one doesn't. I have already lived the events of this book, which goes under the working title Angel Draft at this point, in my head, start to finish. i know everything that is going to happen. it is going to be an easy book to write, but it isn't time yet.
first i need to build where ash comes from, and where he is going. his arc is going to be solid all of the way through. he is going to be real by the time i am done with him, i don't want to leave anything behind. reading through that little tidbit, my writing is still not at a point to do the story justice. that was the main impetus behind writing in the order i am. One book to find my voice and create the world Ash's story ends in. Three books to find constant forward propulsion and conclusion, as well as create the framework for ash himself, then this series to let my mind play.
the fact that i could write at all like that was wonderful. my mind is coming back under my control. i am regaining a level of personal composure i almost let slip away. my stories have been out of my grasp. sometimes the prose just doesn't come. so i have had to come back here to try and pull my thoughts together, and to have an outlet. it has reinspired me. i hope i can find a balance. because i can't disappear from here or it will inevitably happen again. i have realized how important this is to me and my mental well being in the last month, and how important my mental well being is to my writing, or to anything i need to use my my mind for.
but i need to be able to write. i need that creation. it makes me feel alive.
mostly, i wanted to write about Krista's discomfort slowly slide away. it has always been one of my favorite moments of this book, when Krista is all freaked out at the beginning of this chase, and then laughs as she realizes they are in little danger. i wanted to be there. i miss this book. i have spent the most time on this book, and it is the most fully realized in my head, despite the fact that Baylen's Chain has a full outline and this one doesn't. I have already lived the events of this book, which goes under the working title Angel Draft at this point, in my head, start to finish. i know everything that is going to happen. it is going to be an easy book to write, but it isn't time yet.
first i need to build where ash comes from, and where he is going. his arc is going to be solid all of the way through. he is going to be real by the time i am done with him, i don't want to leave anything behind. reading through that little tidbit, my writing is still not at a point to do the story justice. that was the main impetus behind writing in the order i am. One book to find my voice and create the world Ash's story ends in. Three books to find constant forward propulsion and conclusion, as well as create the framework for ash himself, then this series to let my mind play.
the fact that i could write at all like that was wonderful. my mind is coming back under my control. i am regaining a level of personal composure i almost let slip away. my stories have been out of my grasp. sometimes the prose just doesn't come. so i have had to come back here to try and pull my thoughts together, and to have an outlet. it has reinspired me. i hope i can find a balance. because i can't disappear from here or it will inevitably happen again. i have realized how important this is to me and my mental well being in the last month, and how important my mental well being is to my writing, or to anything i need to use my my mind for.
but i need to be able to write. i need that creation. it makes me feel alive.
