Friday, January 19, 2007
oh my lordy what a day! what a fucking fantastic day. i don't even remember what happened during the first 6 hours of work, all i remember is my meeting at 3:30. i did it. i quit. sometimes, i don't fully realize how i feel until i am sitting there writing things out. ironically don't even think the pertinent email i wrote was sent at all. you know when you hit the send button, and nothing happens, and it doesn't show up in your sent folder, but you know if you hit the send button again it will inevitably be sent twice? well yeah, that was last nights attempt at electronic communication. what is the etiquette in this situation? do you send a doobish message saying, "did you get my first email? hyuk hyuk." no, i won't be doing that. apologies! apologies all around!
but anyways, while writing that, i had this bell peal in my head. i realized nothing would change until i quit my job at champion. it was too easy to be complacent where i was, and my schedule left me too exhausted to motivate myself towards change. i wasn't going to do anything until that temptation of slack was removed. so i just did it. i realized i have so much more in savings than the last two times i have quit my job, that i could take 5 months off if i really wanted too. today, i met with my boss, and told him i was quitting. i told him i would give him a full months notice if he wants it, but that i have to go. and now, i am so fucking happy. like, standing on the sidewalk alone with a huge grin on my face laughing out loud happy. how is this for symmetry: i am planning on my last day being my birthday, february 22nd. ironically, my first day at champion was also on my birthday, two years ago. they are raising our rent on march 1st, so i will have a full week of no work to move into a new place, if i want it. or i could just start my new job. my parents told me again tonight at dinner that i have a job if i want it, when i want it, and that they have so much work going on that everyone will be happy to see me despite my lack of experience. there is also a continuing education class that starts in march up at seattle central two days a week. to get in, i don't even have to enroll at the college. i just have to give them my address online, and it reserves my space. all my little ducklings are in a row.
i am just so relieved and happy. i feel bouyant. i am seriously thinking of going out to celebrate tonight. hybrid is spinning at the element. on the flipside, i haven't partaken in my favorite greens in a few days, so i will probably just end up celebrating high and happy in my room. it doesn't matter. either way, it is friday, and everything is going my way. tonight is all about celebrating my good fortune :)
but anyways, while writing that, i had this bell peal in my head. i realized nothing would change until i quit my job at champion. it was too easy to be complacent where i was, and my schedule left me too exhausted to motivate myself towards change. i wasn't going to do anything until that temptation of slack was removed. so i just did it. i realized i have so much more in savings than the last two times i have quit my job, that i could take 5 months off if i really wanted too. today, i met with my boss, and told him i was quitting. i told him i would give him a full months notice if he wants it, but that i have to go. and now, i am so fucking happy. like, standing on the sidewalk alone with a huge grin on my face laughing out loud happy. how is this for symmetry: i am planning on my last day being my birthday, february 22nd. ironically, my first day at champion was also on my birthday, two years ago. they are raising our rent on march 1st, so i will have a full week of no work to move into a new place, if i want it. or i could just start my new job. my parents told me again tonight at dinner that i have a job if i want it, when i want it, and that they have so much work going on that everyone will be happy to see me despite my lack of experience. there is also a continuing education class that starts in march up at seattle central two days a week. to get in, i don't even have to enroll at the college. i just have to give them my address online, and it reserves my space. all my little ducklings are in a row.
i am just so relieved and happy. i feel bouyant. i am seriously thinking of going out to celebrate tonight. hybrid is spinning at the element. on the flipside, i haven't partaken in my favorite greens in a few days, so i will probably just end up celebrating high and happy in my room. it doesn't matter. either way, it is friday, and everything is going my way. tonight is all about celebrating my good fortune :)
