so far, so good. this last week has been rough for me. i have two major vices, and i have been trying to get them both in check. i always thought i would someday have to get rid of one of them, but be able to keep the other, so i have swung back and forth between trying put one under wraps, then lapsing, focusing on the other, then lapsing. but never both at once. it was an inconceivable notion. to me, it was tantamount to removing all joy from my life. but that isn't true. that was the kind of self-serving nonsense that perpetuated my habits.

so far, so good though. after a week, i have stuck to my ideas. i am not exactly trying to remove either of them from my life, just stop them from controlling my daily routine, leaving energy for nothing else. and so far, it has worked this week. no lapses, no cheating. it has hurt, but i am seeing a difference in my attitude. the easy one was the one i thought was most detrimental, but that hasn't been the case. the hard one is the one that has made the most difference, and the one that has been most difficult to keep tabs on. it has been physically and mentally painful. in fact, this blog is over, because i have to go clean or something to occupy my mind. the good thing is, i have the rest of my weekend planned so my goals should be easy to keep. on to week two...

frivved up by Ben at 11:19 AM