Saturday, September 22, 2007
san diego blogging
a different venue, a different outlook, maybe by different means to different ends. who knows what an altered perspective will bring me. it is kind of strange, sitting here a thousand miles away, like i am at my own home, enjoying my own weekend. it was a simple thing to get here, it really felt like just an extension of my commute after i left directly from work. and then here i am. it rained this morning, and i woke up in a different bed in a different apartment, but i still feel very much the same and in place, like i never left. and monday, i will be back at work, another thousand miles away, and it will truely be like i never left, like i was at home the entire weekend. but tonight, and last night, and tomorrow night i will be a part of an entirely different culture. i will be inserted into a completely separate social group, i will laugh at the inside jokes, i will drink at the bars, and feel like i belong. it is even a completely different family. tomorrow i am going to a birthday party for a neice who has only been my neice for a matter of months.
it will make my real life feel that much more fresh and interesting, being away. it is just surprising to me that i can completely leave it behind without interrupting it in the slightest. but right now i am away. everything could be changing, and i am not there. i could return to a different seattle i don't recognize. if i can really leave so quickly and painlessly, change my entire state of mind, even if imperminantly, couldn't the atmosphere i am used to change just as quickly?
being me is a simple thing. it doesn't require effort or thought. it doesn't matter where i am or what i am doing, it is still the same person dragging this body around. i don't respect that truth enough. i try my hardest to turn life into an experience rife with peril, and obstacle course full of struggle that will provide the hardships needed for growth. but when you strip that all away, it is still just me going about my business. even here, a thousand miles away, things are the same. i guesshad to leave the world i know behind entirely to realize how comfortable i really am
a different venue, a different outlook, maybe by different means to different ends. who knows what an altered perspective will bring me. it is kind of strange, sitting here a thousand miles away, like i am at my own home, enjoying my own weekend. it was a simple thing to get here, it really felt like just an extension of my commute after i left directly from work. and then here i am. it rained this morning, and i woke up in a different bed in a different apartment, but i still feel very much the same and in place, like i never left. and monday, i will be back at work, another thousand miles away, and it will truely be like i never left, like i was at home the entire weekend. but tonight, and last night, and tomorrow night i will be a part of an entirely different culture. i will be inserted into a completely separate social group, i will laugh at the inside jokes, i will drink at the bars, and feel like i belong. it is even a completely different family. tomorrow i am going to a birthday party for a neice who has only been my neice for a matter of months.
it will make my real life feel that much more fresh and interesting, being away. it is just surprising to me that i can completely leave it behind without interrupting it in the slightest. but right now i am away. everything could be changing, and i am not there. i could return to a different seattle i don't recognize. if i can really leave so quickly and painlessly, change my entire state of mind, even if imperminantly, couldn't the atmosphere i am used to change just as quickly?
being me is a simple thing. it doesn't require effort or thought. it doesn't matter where i am or what i am doing, it is still the same person dragging this body around. i don't respect that truth enough. i try my hardest to turn life into an experience rife with peril, and obstacle course full of struggle that will provide the hardships needed for growth. but when you strip that all away, it is still just me going about my business. even here, a thousand miles away, things are the same. i guesshad to leave the world i know behind entirely to realize how comfortable i really am
