Wednesday, March 18, 2009
hello
how are you?
have you had a nice day?
did anything exciting happen?
did you have any ideas worth noting?
what did you do to change your lot in life?
oh, well that is fine then, i was just wondering.
you are completely right, i didn't do anything either.
the words march across the page words march across the page.
i am losing it, just a little. i have this meeting for work this afternoon that is going to kill my chances of sleep tonight. right now i am hoping for a 2 hour nap or so. i am half considering going in early. that, however, is not without it's downsides as well. after working 23 hours in the first two days of this week, i find myself in the awkward position of having to limit my hours. i still have the same amount to accomplish though. it is weird. this whole week has been weird. i am out of sorts. i should have climbed last night, even if i meant going alone. i feel like all of the progress i made last week is going to be lost now, because it will be a week and a half between sessions again. again! at least! maybe more! oh god! CAUGHT!!! actually i'm not caught, just stuck in a stream of exclamations, but whatever.
but anyways..
i need to change my attitude. i am slipping into full on smart ass mode. it effects the people around me. it doesn't seem like it, but my personality looms large. i guess that is what happens when you are something of a grounding force. when things do change, the change everything around. tomorrow i will sing more. that usually keeps things lighter, and slightly more hilarious. hilariously out of tune. luckily bad singing tends to be endearing if it is done with good intentions and the proper acceptance of itself. good for me. i like singing. i would just never do it, never. but, i have realized that not everyone can carry a tune, so i'm not completely out of line if i need to belt something out. so sometimes, there it is, a bastardized barry manilow song i don't even really know. if i paid attention to lyrics, i could probably branch out a little more, but i don't. i can air guitar/piano/synth like a mad man. you need a solo bastardized? look no farther. just no drums, i am terrible at that too.
you know what? fuck that attitude change thing. i am a smart ass, no need to try and cover it up. why bother? i guess that can apply to a lot of things. i could get mad. i could change. i could look for an outside solution. but why bother? is the effort actually going to help anything, or will it just be one more step in a long series of lateral movements?
gah, i keep dozing just sitting her. i wish warfish was faster today. ahh well.
how are you?
have you had a nice day?
did anything exciting happen?
did you have any ideas worth noting?
what did you do to change your lot in life?
oh, well that is fine then, i was just wondering.
you are completely right, i didn't do anything either.
the words march across the page words march across the page.
i am losing it, just a little. i have this meeting for work this afternoon that is going to kill my chances of sleep tonight. right now i am hoping for a 2 hour nap or so. i am half considering going in early. that, however, is not without it's downsides as well. after working 23 hours in the first two days of this week, i find myself in the awkward position of having to limit my hours. i still have the same amount to accomplish though. it is weird. this whole week has been weird. i am out of sorts. i should have climbed last night, even if i meant going alone. i feel like all of the progress i made last week is going to be lost now, because it will be a week and a half between sessions again. again! at least! maybe more! oh god! CAUGHT!!! actually i'm not caught, just stuck in a stream of exclamations, but whatever.
but anyways..
i need to change my attitude. i am slipping into full on smart ass mode. it effects the people around me. it doesn't seem like it, but my personality looms large. i guess that is what happens when you are something of a grounding force. when things do change, the change everything around. tomorrow i will sing more. that usually keeps things lighter, and slightly more hilarious. hilariously out of tune. luckily bad singing tends to be endearing if it is done with good intentions and the proper acceptance of itself. good for me. i like singing. i would just never do it, never. but, i have realized that not everyone can carry a tune, so i'm not completely out of line if i need to belt something out. so sometimes, there it is, a bastardized barry manilow song i don't even really know. if i paid attention to lyrics, i could probably branch out a little more, but i don't. i can air guitar/piano/synth like a mad man. you need a solo bastardized? look no farther. just no drums, i am terrible at that too.
you know what? fuck that attitude change thing. i am a smart ass, no need to try and cover it up. why bother? i guess that can apply to a lot of things. i could get mad. i could change. i could look for an outside solution. but why bother? is the effort actually going to help anything, or will it just be one more step in a long series of lateral movements?
gah, i keep dozing just sitting her. i wish warfish was faster today. ahh well.
