Saturday, April 04, 2009
so this is how it was? this is how i live and act? it would seem so... a world of internalized conversations. the life i live in my head is so much more exciting. the things i've done! it is a lot easier to look cool when you control both sides of the issue.
moving on. i desperately want to take issue with something right now. i want to latch on to something, and use it to launch myself into a diatribe on self, so i can feel productive and suitable self aware. but really, what is worth my time. i drink to much and turn into an ass? meh. i've been a belligerent bastard? meh.
nothing doing. i am just filled with angst, and looking for a way to vent. interesting that i am not allowing myself. it is fake angst. self serving angst. it doesn't deserve the attention i am giving it by calling it out as dumb.
moving on. i desperately want to take issue with something right now. i want to latch on to something, and use it to launch myself into a diatribe on self, so i can feel productive and suitable self aware. but really, what is worth my time. i drink to much and turn into an ass? meh. i've been a belligerent bastard? meh.
nothing doing. i am just filled with angst, and looking for a way to vent. interesting that i am not allowing myself. it is fake angst. self serving angst. it doesn't deserve the attention i am giving it by calling it out as dumb.
