you know ryan, i have been thinking. i have been thinking about your dismay at the content of your posts, and the similarities they have with the posts of the past. i too have been digging through my old posts. at times i feel the same way. i see the same topics come up, and the time and page space i devoted to them that seemingly dwarfs what i put out now.

but it is ok. we aren't simply rehashing the past, without progress. every time we revisit one of these ideas or thought structures, we get a chance to clarify. every time, we become more concise and hit closer to the real point. sure, these post right now may have no bearing at the moment, but every time we slog through mud, we get closer to the crux of the idea at the core of the problem that drives us to contemplate the subject matter to begin with. even if it may seem similar, every time we write about these things, we have more ammunition, more axioms and theories we have accepted as truths, at least to the best of our knowledge. so, it is never a waste. every time we revisit a topic we get more of a glimpse of the answers we need to silence the the initial confusion that drove us to question and search blindly in the first place

even if it is simply railing against our current condition. isn't finding a way to come to grips with your surroundings vital to your mental health?

frivved up by Ben at 4:25 PM