Thursday, May 14, 2009
ah! blah! think of me as frank grimes after eating dinner at the simpson household. ben, or grimey as he liked to be called has just spontaneously dissembled. i feel that as of late, i have been piggybacking off of ryans posts, but that is fine. ideas are usually the offspring of other ideas, and where else better to receive inspiration. but anyways, we are now launching ourselves into ryan's brainsphere. more, he just created a singularity that has caught me in its gravitational field.
this bag of fluids. boiled down to basic chemistry. emotions are experienced when certain chemicals interact in specific ways. if my emotions sync with someone you can imply that you are firing the same chemicals in the same manner. your chemistry is aligned. if you share personality traits, how would this be expressed? an alignment of your default concentrations, the stasis of mixture? the stasis of various mixtures in various parts of your brain in harmony? this is where i am getting confused, because i don't want to be just a sac, a randomly shifting mass of fluids. i think i am missing something, and that is why i feel so thrown to the wind. the scope just seems way off. it is true, but there is more. this is a system of chemicals. there are structures of molecules that form solid masses. there are methods of chemical creation and distribution that suggest the mere chemicals aren't the entirety of the operation. but when you break everything down, that is all anything is, chemicals paired with other chemicals. so why the mind. why the nervous system. why the very distinct and universal emotions. what am i missing.
picking through ryan's junk, i keep coming back to one thing from the beginning. environment! what environment are these chemicals working in. i am going to use this bag of fluids in my favor and simplify things for myself greatly. we are talking about the chemicals that make up the self, not the bag itself. the entire system holding the chemicals is now a separate topic, because merging the chemicals of self with the chemicals that makes up the bag is making me merge them with the chemicals that make up that lamp, and that is just descending into nihilism, and fuck nihilism. it is the ultimate defeat. and the fact that i can say fuck nihilism means that i am not defeated. so we get to at least separate the body from the mind, and look at them as two entities, for the moment. just so i can at least get a handle on things and find a way to have a self again.
so lets break this down again into a way i can get a handle on it. i sometimes see my body as a giant computer. a system of parts assembled to perform tasks on a level well well beyond any of the single parts. so far beyond, that the system almost forms its own alternate awareness that ends up controlling the system itself. the self? the mind? i would see this as the data itself? that seems like the only logical way to put it. which brings us back to the brain splashing. what happens when you lose a hard drive? you get a new one and rebuild your data system. except, i always rebuild my computers in the image of the old system. and actually, the new system usually has crazy patched together fixes to incorporate those parts of the old system left over. like right now i have my data split fragmented between two main places because something died, and the new configuration couldn't be held in the exact same way due to the evolution of the system. i could have rebuilt it the same way, or scrapped the old parts of the system and replicated those in the basic forms of the new system, but both of those would have take more time and energy than just linking things up the way they are now. and in the long run, when i end up finding an upgrade that can maintain both parts of the system in tandem, the whole of the new system will be better than either the old system or the rebuilt new system because it will incorporate them both. so, what if something did get splashed? how would those parts left behind react to the situation? they are expecting to interact with the missing system, and we know that SOMETHING will be implemented in its place, because the body will always seek to heal itself. lets look at some sort of hemorrhage that wipes out some vital sector of the brain. wipes the data clean. either that hemorrhage heals, or it kills you, so lets say it does heal, but you are left without a portion of what makes up your personality. everything else will still initial be operating based on the way the system was. it will have certain expectations when it calls that data sector, and that, to me, points that these data calls will slowly rebuild some sort of shadow system in its placed based on the need of the data to continue flowing unabated. because if the flow of data stops, then there are serious problems, beyond a simple splash of blood. but this shadow system doesn't necessarily have to be the same. without its own preexisting form, will it rebuild itself in a more optimal configuration? what if it start rebuilding itself in a way is more efficient, and increases the overall potential of the system.
it is a tightrope walk, because we are basically working without a backup, but even that is not long for this world. eventually, they will be able to recreate a digital image of the brain, and new ways to communicate with the data held therein. but right now, we have to fend for ourselves.
so... the brain splashing isn't as huge an issue as it was two hours ago. i've earned a brief respite... pant pant pant
this bag of fluids. boiled down to basic chemistry. emotions are experienced when certain chemicals interact in specific ways. if my emotions sync with someone you can imply that you are firing the same chemicals in the same manner. your chemistry is aligned. if you share personality traits, how would this be expressed? an alignment of your default concentrations, the stasis of mixture? the stasis of various mixtures in various parts of your brain in harmony? this is where i am getting confused, because i don't want to be just a sac, a randomly shifting mass of fluids. i think i am missing something, and that is why i feel so thrown to the wind. the scope just seems way off. it is true, but there is more. this is a system of chemicals. there are structures of molecules that form solid masses. there are methods of chemical creation and distribution that suggest the mere chemicals aren't the entirety of the operation. but when you break everything down, that is all anything is, chemicals paired with other chemicals. so why the mind. why the nervous system. why the very distinct and universal emotions. what am i missing.
picking through ryan's junk, i keep coming back to one thing from the beginning. environment! what environment are these chemicals working in. i am going to use this bag of fluids in my favor and simplify things for myself greatly. we are talking about the chemicals that make up the self, not the bag itself. the entire system holding the chemicals is now a separate topic, because merging the chemicals of self with the chemicals that makes up the bag is making me merge them with the chemicals that make up that lamp, and that is just descending into nihilism, and fuck nihilism. it is the ultimate defeat. and the fact that i can say fuck nihilism means that i am not defeated. so we get to at least separate the body from the mind, and look at them as two entities, for the moment. just so i can at least get a handle on things and find a way to have a self again.
so lets break this down again into a way i can get a handle on it. i sometimes see my body as a giant computer. a system of parts assembled to perform tasks on a level well well beyond any of the single parts. so far beyond, that the system almost forms its own alternate awareness that ends up controlling the system itself. the self? the mind? i would see this as the data itself? that seems like the only logical way to put it. which brings us back to the brain splashing. what happens when you lose a hard drive? you get a new one and rebuild your data system. except, i always rebuild my computers in the image of the old system. and actually, the new system usually has crazy patched together fixes to incorporate those parts of the old system left over. like right now i have my data split fragmented between two main places because something died, and the new configuration couldn't be held in the exact same way due to the evolution of the system. i could have rebuilt it the same way, or scrapped the old parts of the system and replicated those in the basic forms of the new system, but both of those would have take more time and energy than just linking things up the way they are now. and in the long run, when i end up finding an upgrade that can maintain both parts of the system in tandem, the whole of the new system will be better than either the old system or the rebuilt new system because it will incorporate them both. so, what if something did get splashed? how would those parts left behind react to the situation? they are expecting to interact with the missing system, and we know that SOMETHING will be implemented in its place, because the body will always seek to heal itself. lets look at some sort of hemorrhage that wipes out some vital sector of the brain. wipes the data clean. either that hemorrhage heals, or it kills you, so lets say it does heal, but you are left without a portion of what makes up your personality. everything else will still initial be operating based on the way the system was. it will have certain expectations when it calls that data sector, and that, to me, points that these data calls will slowly rebuild some sort of shadow system in its placed based on the need of the data to continue flowing unabated. because if the flow of data stops, then there are serious problems, beyond a simple splash of blood. but this shadow system doesn't necessarily have to be the same. without its own preexisting form, will it rebuild itself in a more optimal configuration? what if it start rebuilding itself in a way is more efficient, and increases the overall potential of the system.
it is a tightrope walk, because we are basically working without a backup, but even that is not long for this world. eventually, they will be able to recreate a digital image of the brain, and new ways to communicate with the data held therein. but right now, we have to fend for ourselves.
so... the brain splashing isn't as huge an issue as it was two hours ago. i've earned a brief respite... pant pant pant
