Tuesday, June 23, 2009
do you love life unconditionally? i want to say i do. i may not have up until this moment, but right now i want to say i do. maybe this is the moment where i start. i will look back and say "that was the moment i said enough with the caveats and the kvetching, enough with unnecessary complaint, life is good so dwell on that instead."
that is really what the goal is, right? what all of my searching has been about, the whole purpose of this journey of mental awareness. i want to be happy. i want to be as happy as possible, and enjoy my life as much as possible. i see no purpose in enforcing some sort of false set of boundaries on myself that says 'it is wrong to be be happy all of the time, so you need to dwell on these inconsequential sadnesses.' i am not denying the importance of balance, because expecting pure, constant happiness would be delusional, but we can choose which emotions we want to embrace and keep relevant at the forefront of our lives, and which emotions we want to acknowledge, then own, then reincorporate into the background.
so yes, i do love life unconditionally. thank you ryan, and lightheaded for making me aware of this fact. i am practically glowing right now with the implications of that statement. he is right, that is such a multilayered statement. i could probably start with that phrase again and again, and be left with something different and yet meaningful every time. maybe i will start doing that for a while. just the thought of doing that gives me comfort.
that is really what the goal is, right? what all of my searching has been about, the whole purpose of this journey of mental awareness. i want to be happy. i want to be as happy as possible, and enjoy my life as much as possible. i see no purpose in enforcing some sort of false set of boundaries on myself that says 'it is wrong to be be happy all of the time, so you need to dwell on these inconsequential sadnesses.' i am not denying the importance of balance, because expecting pure, constant happiness would be delusional, but we can choose which emotions we want to embrace and keep relevant at the forefront of our lives, and which emotions we want to acknowledge, then own, then reincorporate into the background.
so yes, i do love life unconditionally. thank you ryan, and lightheaded for making me aware of this fact. i am practically glowing right now with the implications of that statement. he is right, that is such a multilayered statement. i could probably start with that phrase again and again, and be left with something different and yet meaningful every time. maybe i will start doing that for a while. just the thought of doing that gives me comfort.
