Saturday, June 27, 2009
i am sitting here content. usually the impetus to write comes from some sort of inner turmoil, some question that needs exploring. but no, i sit here content, pondering the depths of my comfortable happiness. the only grief is my feeling of neglect for this little space, but when has that ever really been a reason to write.
so, we find ourselves here under unusual circumstances. i'll ask myself this question again, do you love life, unconditionally? i want to. i hope too. it seems like such a simple task. life shouldn't have to provide me anything to be satisfying. just as my simple existence shouldn't be qualified with any expectations, i shouldn't demand anything in return due to the fact that i have sustained my metabolic processes up to this point. if i am going to love life, i have to do just that. making unrealistic demands won't change its outlook, seeing as it is more of an abstract concept and all.
it is just such a strong statement. ideally, yes, i would, and this sheer fact would make me a happier person. maybe it is just such a new addition to my philosophy and hasn't had the chance to be put through the rigors of practical everyday life. i am just skeptical, mostly because i want it to be true. those sorts of things, i have a habit of justifying to myself, truth regardless. so, we will continue under this assumption until proven otherwise, but warily.
ahh well. life, today i love you. tomorrow i will love you. if i say that i don't, it will be more of an ironic exclamation, and i am sure i will feel sheepish afterward when i realize my need for melodrama drove me to say things that run counter to my needs. ok, enough with the platitudes and fluff. love your life, and keep the words flowing.
so, we find ourselves here under unusual circumstances. i'll ask myself this question again, do you love life, unconditionally? i want to. i hope too. it seems like such a simple task. life shouldn't have to provide me anything to be satisfying. just as my simple existence shouldn't be qualified with any expectations, i shouldn't demand anything in return due to the fact that i have sustained my metabolic processes up to this point. if i am going to love life, i have to do just that. making unrealistic demands won't change its outlook, seeing as it is more of an abstract concept and all.
it is just such a strong statement. ideally, yes, i would, and this sheer fact would make me a happier person. maybe it is just such a new addition to my philosophy and hasn't had the chance to be put through the rigors of practical everyday life. i am just skeptical, mostly because i want it to be true. those sorts of things, i have a habit of justifying to myself, truth regardless. so, we will continue under this assumption until proven otherwise, but warily.
ahh well. life, today i love you. tomorrow i will love you. if i say that i don't, it will be more of an ironic exclamation, and i am sure i will feel sheepish afterward when i realize my need for melodrama drove me to say things that run counter to my needs. ok, enough with the platitudes and fluff. love your life, and keep the words flowing.
