Thursday, November 28, 2002
Initial WAnk says:
meh, why find out the truth when you can start wild rumors based on nothing
crapmaster R says:
that is one of the greatest points you have ever made
this is all that is important. when you think about it, it just makes sense. i mean, why go through all the bother of finding everything out. the truth is boring. i like a little jazzed up version of the truth. its always more fun that way.
meh, why find out the truth when you can start wild rumors based on nothing
crapmaster R says:
that is one of the greatest points you have ever made
this is all that is important. when you think about it, it just makes sense. i mean, why go through all the bother of finding everything out. the truth is boring. i like a little jazzed up version of the truth. its always more fun that way.
Monday, November 25, 2002
i've realized that my introverted personality is shining through. i was just moonlighting as a social person, to some degree. i am a very private person. i don't care too much about hanging out with other people. i thought that this was a character flaw, so i tried to change, pretend to have tons of friends and stuff. i mean, having people around is good, but i'm not going to go out of my way to hang out with people any more. if i get invited to go do something, i'll do it. you always have the most fun when other people are around. but shit, i'm not going to go out of my way to hang out with people, just for the sake of social interaction. i'm here alone every monday, and i've realized that mondays are the days i look forward to the most, because there are no expectations of me. maybe i'm just saying this because my past 2 weekends have been completely destroyed by bartending school.
speaking of bartending school, i skipped sunday because i didn't study at all last week. all i need to do now is take the test, and this stupid little state licensing course. they have this thing every sunday, and i can take the test whenever i want. he came right out and said, if you aren't ready for the test, you don't have to take it tomorrow. so i didn't. it was the only thing to do, really.
something i don't really like is hanging out with other peoples friends. i mean, this is the only way to make new friends, but i just don't really like it. i feel awkward and out of place, and frankly i don't care about this person. most of the time, i don't like the person, which is why i don't hang out with them. i dunno, it sounds bad, but i just don't care enough to get to know people any more. i mean, new friends are ok and all, but shit, its not worth the time.
speaking of bartending school, i skipped sunday because i didn't study at all last week. all i need to do now is take the test, and this stupid little state licensing course. they have this thing every sunday, and i can take the test whenever i want. he came right out and said, if you aren't ready for the test, you don't have to take it tomorrow. so i didn't. it was the only thing to do, really.
something i don't really like is hanging out with other peoples friends. i mean, this is the only way to make new friends, but i just don't really like it. i feel awkward and out of place, and frankly i don't care about this person. most of the time, i don't like the person, which is why i don't hang out with them. i dunno, it sounds bad, but i just don't care enough to get to know people any more. i mean, new friends are ok and all, but shit, its not worth the time.
Friday, November 22, 2002
ok FUCK. my ftp host has been down for days. they say its due to maintenance, and it should be done in 24 hours. its been saying that for like 3 days
initial d....
jing told me about this, and i was like "meh", but i started downloading them anyways. after watching the first 6 episodes, i'm an addict now. i was a gran turismo addict back in the playstation days. i was stupid when i played it though. i didn't realize you could tune every car at first. so i used my crappy little newb car to earn $40,000 to buy a real car. it took forever, but i got pretty good at the game. gran turismo 2 was fun. i don't think i ever bought the god car, i thought it was cheap :) never played gran turismo 3. i'm not quite sure why. i should pick it up.
anyways, initial d is gran turismo in anime form. i've been on a real cartoon kick here. good cartoons, not the stupid stuff tripat tends to watch. he is addicted to anything just because its a cartoon i think sometimes :D but he is on to something. cartoons are amazing. anyways, initial d is my new cartoon of choice. air knows what i'm talking about....
jing told me about this, and i was like "meh", but i started downloading them anyways. after watching the first 6 episodes, i'm an addict now. i was a gran turismo addict back in the playstation days. i was stupid when i played it though. i didn't realize you could tune every car at first. so i used my crappy little newb car to earn $40,000 to buy a real car. it took forever, but i got pretty good at the game. gran turismo 2 was fun. i don't think i ever bought the god car, i thought it was cheap :) never played gran turismo 3. i'm not quite sure why. i should pick it up.
anyways, initial d is gran turismo in anime form. i've been on a real cartoon kick here. good cartoons, not the stupid stuff tripat tends to watch. he is addicted to anything just because its a cartoon i think sometimes :D but he is on to something. cartoons are amazing. anyways, initial d is my new cartoon of choice. air knows what i'm talking about....
Thursday, November 21, 2002
Wednesday, November 20, 2002
WAH WAH WAH, WANK WANKSAUSTED
ok, the past week or so has been shat as a shat. i've been having a bad past few weeks. i don't really have a reason. i'm just on the down side of my severe mood swings. also, i had no weekend, and i can't sleep. thus, i'm tired.
i'm also confused, i have no idea what to do. like, shit. i hate my job, but could i actually go through the whole learning process of a new job, fuck, a new career? i mean, i'm pretty lazy, am i going to have the mental stamina to go through the first few months of being a first time bartender? oh yeah, on a side note, i've been going to bartending school. its 2 weekends, 7 hours a day on saturday and sunday. apparently i take the test this sunday, but i don't know. they haven't been too forthcoming with details like that, which is ok. stuff i don't want to worry too much about now. its a pretty laid back thing, its nice. i really think i would make a great bartender, if i could remember all the drinks, and get a job. they have job placement, but its more like, here are some places that are hiring, you should talk to them type of thing. honestly, i don't think finding a job as a bartender will be that hard. but back to the lazy factor.... i really don't like my job now, but what will win out? the easy thing to do would be to stick at my current job, and let it keep sucking. i've put up with it for this long. but why would i do that. bartending, more fun, less hours, more money, aligned with my natural sleeping schedule, etc etc etc. it is perfect for me. why would i not become a bartender, especially after i pass the class? i dunno, because i'm stupid? why did i neglect to call those 3 girls from the halloween party? i'm lazy...... but this is different. this is actually something i started and followed through with. fuck me, i even called the bartending school and enrolled. i CALLED them. if you know me, you know that is huge. me picking up a phone....
so yeah, i'm gonna be a bartender soon. that is pretty damn sweet. no free drinks, they come out of my tips, and that is money out of my pocket. why should i pay for people to drink while i'm at work? well, it depends on a lot of things. if someone brings a bunch of people to my bar, especially chicks, and i know i'm gonna make tons of tips off them, i'd probably buy them a drink out of my tip jar. our instructor was talking to us about stuff like this on sunday, he made a lot of sense. he was a really cool guy, i learned a lot from him, like, the reality side of being a bartender. i left his class feeling really good about the whole thing.
so yeah, about this not sleeping thing. it is ass. i've gotten about 4 hours of sleep in the last 2 nights. i'm exausted. last night, i slept about an hour, maybe 2. but in this hour, i had this fucking crazy dream. i still remember most of it vividly. it was inspired by 24, i know it. it was a sweet dream though. a bunch of people, let me try to remember who they were..... i know me, mike, eric, radtke and jay from high school were in it. i know manuel was in it, but only because he has a motorcycle (we were riding motorcycles for a large portion of it). so yeah, we were tooling around downtown seattle. not the real version, but my cool fake dream version. it kind of had this rundown futuristic urban vibe too it. the viaduct wasn't there, so there was a big waterfront. things connected differently, and there was a big mall and a movie theater up in the beacon hill area. so anyways, we were all tooling around in this mob. 4 of us got seperated from the others, and mike picked a fight with these 3 huge scary guys with guns. so we fucking ran. we had to drag mike with us. but we ran. a bunch of us were in a pickup truck, but mike and jay hopped on motorcycles. manuel was like fuck this, and rode off in a different direction on his. one of the dudes followed him and some other car he was with in a truck. the rest of us booked out, followed by 2 of the guys in another truck or something. at one point i was like fuck this, and i jumped on a motorcycle out of the back of the truck to try and show mike and jay how to ride. but instead, they were gomers and just wanked around. so i just booked off by myself. someone on a motorcycle was chasing me, but i schooled him. we all met up at this mall, and tried to hide in this movie theater. but one of the guys saw, and came flying at mike from above us on the aisle. but mike just grabbed him, smashed him up against the wall and then threw him on the ground. so he was just fucked up, like he got owned. mike was a badass in the entire dream, until he got killed later, but thats a different story. me and eric were like fuck this, we are going to get shot because they are picking fights. then radtke pretended to jump mike and got tossed. it was hilarious, because it is something that would happen. anyways, me and eric hopped on our bikes, and ran out. mike went in front of us, and ended up killing the other guy and leaving him on a freeway. we rolled up to the dead body, and decided to throw him off the bridge at some guy. so we toss this body, and almost hit this dude on the railroad tracks. he gets really pissed so we book out. we get down to the waterfront, and the dude runs up to me and tells me this whole story about this bomb, and the dude we threw at him, and how we wouldn't be able to deactivate the bomb because of me. so i am like what the fuck, but he is serious, so me and this girl i had just met ran for cover. she looked a lot like nina from 24. so, i get down, and there is this huge shaking, things falling, etc. i'm just like, ok, what the hell was that, and i look up, and there is this mushroom cloud coming from the renton area. so i'm like oh shit, because i see this wave of destruction coming towards me, so i get down, and the girl gets down, and then there was this intense period where i was getting blasted by bricks and shit from the explosion. i get up, i get her up, i'm like we have to get out of here. i'm not sure why we had to leave, but we did. anyways, this dude wanders up, and its her dad, so we jack this boat to leave. apparently they are like, spys or something. somehow, we end up on the top of a sky scraper, in our boat, and like, the boat falls off because the dad is driving and is a knob and doesn't realize we are on a skyscraper. no problem for them, they are spys, they are used to falling off skyscrapers and shit. but not me, i'm afraid of heights, so i'm just like FUCK!!! i grab on to something, and they kind of coast down the side of the building past me on these wierd plastic solid awning things that look like those dogtoys that you throw in the water and such, but i'm like hanging off the edge. they are like creeping from thing to thing, and i'm just hanging on, trying to get back on without falling to my death. then i wake up sweating and panting, and about ready to scream because of the crazyness.
i feel guilty today, because i was responsible for the destruction of the greater seattle area :p sorry about that guys. i have dreams like this every once in a while, were something catastrophic happens, and i'm trying to do something but can't, and end up getting fucked in the end. and i remember them vividly, even years after i had them.....
fuck it all, i was going to write about something else but i don't want to any more. sorry again about getting everyone blown up
ok, the past week or so has been shat as a shat. i've been having a bad past few weeks. i don't really have a reason. i'm just on the down side of my severe mood swings. also, i had no weekend, and i can't sleep. thus, i'm tired.
i'm also confused, i have no idea what to do. like, shit. i hate my job, but could i actually go through the whole learning process of a new job, fuck, a new career? i mean, i'm pretty lazy, am i going to have the mental stamina to go through the first few months of being a first time bartender? oh yeah, on a side note, i've been going to bartending school. its 2 weekends, 7 hours a day on saturday and sunday. apparently i take the test this sunday, but i don't know. they haven't been too forthcoming with details like that, which is ok. stuff i don't want to worry too much about now. its a pretty laid back thing, its nice. i really think i would make a great bartender, if i could remember all the drinks, and get a job. they have job placement, but its more like, here are some places that are hiring, you should talk to them type of thing. honestly, i don't think finding a job as a bartender will be that hard. but back to the lazy factor.... i really don't like my job now, but what will win out? the easy thing to do would be to stick at my current job, and let it keep sucking. i've put up with it for this long. but why would i do that. bartending, more fun, less hours, more money, aligned with my natural sleeping schedule, etc etc etc. it is perfect for me. why would i not become a bartender, especially after i pass the class? i dunno, because i'm stupid? why did i neglect to call those 3 girls from the halloween party? i'm lazy...... but this is different. this is actually something i started and followed through with. fuck me, i even called the bartending school and enrolled. i CALLED them. if you know me, you know that is huge. me picking up a phone....
so yeah, i'm gonna be a bartender soon. that is pretty damn sweet. no free drinks, they come out of my tips, and that is money out of my pocket. why should i pay for people to drink while i'm at work? well, it depends on a lot of things. if someone brings a bunch of people to my bar, especially chicks, and i know i'm gonna make tons of tips off them, i'd probably buy them a drink out of my tip jar. our instructor was talking to us about stuff like this on sunday, he made a lot of sense. he was a really cool guy, i learned a lot from him, like, the reality side of being a bartender. i left his class feeling really good about the whole thing.
so yeah, about this not sleeping thing. it is ass. i've gotten about 4 hours of sleep in the last 2 nights. i'm exausted. last night, i slept about an hour, maybe 2. but in this hour, i had this fucking crazy dream. i still remember most of it vividly. it was inspired by 24, i know it. it was a sweet dream though. a bunch of people, let me try to remember who they were..... i know me, mike, eric, radtke and jay from high school were in it. i know manuel was in it, but only because he has a motorcycle (we were riding motorcycles for a large portion of it). so yeah, we were tooling around downtown seattle. not the real version, but my cool fake dream version. it kind of had this rundown futuristic urban vibe too it. the viaduct wasn't there, so there was a big waterfront. things connected differently, and there was a big mall and a movie theater up in the beacon hill area. so anyways, we were all tooling around in this mob. 4 of us got seperated from the others, and mike picked a fight with these 3 huge scary guys with guns. so we fucking ran. we had to drag mike with us. but we ran. a bunch of us were in a pickup truck, but mike and jay hopped on motorcycles. manuel was like fuck this, and rode off in a different direction on his. one of the dudes followed him and some other car he was with in a truck. the rest of us booked out, followed by 2 of the guys in another truck or something. at one point i was like fuck this, and i jumped on a motorcycle out of the back of the truck to try and show mike and jay how to ride. but instead, they were gomers and just wanked around. so i just booked off by myself. someone on a motorcycle was chasing me, but i schooled him. we all met up at this mall, and tried to hide in this movie theater. but one of the guys saw, and came flying at mike from above us on the aisle. but mike just grabbed him, smashed him up against the wall and then threw him on the ground. so he was just fucked up, like he got owned. mike was a badass in the entire dream, until he got killed later, but thats a different story. me and eric were like fuck this, we are going to get shot because they are picking fights. then radtke pretended to jump mike and got tossed. it was hilarious, because it is something that would happen. anyways, me and eric hopped on our bikes, and ran out. mike went in front of us, and ended up killing the other guy and leaving him on a freeway. we rolled up to the dead body, and decided to throw him off the bridge at some guy. so we toss this body, and almost hit this dude on the railroad tracks. he gets really pissed so we book out. we get down to the waterfront, and the dude runs up to me and tells me this whole story about this bomb, and the dude we threw at him, and how we wouldn't be able to deactivate the bomb because of me. so i am like what the fuck, but he is serious, so me and this girl i had just met ran for cover. she looked a lot like nina from 24. so, i get down, and there is this huge shaking, things falling, etc. i'm just like, ok, what the hell was that, and i look up, and there is this mushroom cloud coming from the renton area. so i'm like oh shit, because i see this wave of destruction coming towards me, so i get down, and the girl gets down, and then there was this intense period where i was getting blasted by bricks and shit from the explosion. i get up, i get her up, i'm like we have to get out of here. i'm not sure why we had to leave, but we did. anyways, this dude wanders up, and its her dad, so we jack this boat to leave. apparently they are like, spys or something. somehow, we end up on the top of a sky scraper, in our boat, and like, the boat falls off because the dad is driving and is a knob and doesn't realize we are on a skyscraper. no problem for them, they are spys, they are used to falling off skyscrapers and shit. but not me, i'm afraid of heights, so i'm just like FUCK!!! i grab on to something, and they kind of coast down the side of the building past me on these wierd plastic solid awning things that look like those dogtoys that you throw in the water and such, but i'm like hanging off the edge. they are like creeping from thing to thing, and i'm just hanging on, trying to get back on without falling to my death. then i wake up sweating and panting, and about ready to scream because of the crazyness.
i feel guilty today, because i was responsible for the destruction of the greater seattle area :p sorry about that guys. i have dreams like this every once in a while, were something catastrophic happens, and i'm trying to do something but can't, and end up getting fucked in the end. and i remember them vividly, even years after i had them.....
fuck it all, i was going to write about something else but i don't want to any more. sorry again about getting everyone blown up
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
for some reason, this makes me feel cool
anyways, to ryan
download the new Audioslave album. thats the rage/chris cornell album. absolutely incredible
download the new Foo Fighters album. even more incredible
download the new Christina Aguilera album. actually its really really good
download Fantastic Plastic Machine - Luxury
download Kylie Minogue - Fever
download Dave Seaman - Renaissance Awakenings
bloop
anyways, to ryan
download the new Audioslave album. thats the rage/chris cornell album. absolutely incredible
download the new Foo Fighters album. even more incredible
download the new Christina Aguilera album. actually its really really good
download Fantastic Plastic Machine - Luxury
download Kylie Minogue - Fever
download Dave Seaman - Renaissance Awakenings
bloop
Sunday, November 10, 2002
nothing to write about. hate my job. looking for any way out. all creativity or will to write stifled.
just fyi
just fyi
Sunday, November 03, 2002
woot woot, in sluts we trust
finger trail in the dust
matts wang smells like must
his pants fly off with a windy gust
all the squirrels run down with lust
but their raid on his crotch was a bust
because they could not get through the rust
i want to see extreme ops because it is stupid. i think it would be a good idea for me to be the end all beat all expert on stupid things. i think i'd be a great candidate for the position of king stupid. i'd take over the world. most people like at leats one stupid thing. so, by liking me, they can like a whole bunch of stupid things in one fell swoop. all i need is a little name recognition, and the world is practically mine. it is all so simple.
oh my god....... 007 Revlon commercial..... that is just wacky. i don't understand. james bond powder free foundation? what the hell! if powder free foundation exists, i bet the real james bond wouldn't wear it. it would just block the pimpin.
mtv dismissed... there is a whole lot of grinding going on on the dance floor. one of the guys just did something pretty sweet. the girl wasn't dancing with him, so he grabbed some other chick and started dry humping her. i was like, bwahahahaha. but yeah, the guy gave him his time out card, then the other guy took the girl away. so the one guy stayed out on the dancefloor and is now dancing with like 4 chicks. if i were him, i'd try to get dismissed. he'd get 4 chicks for the price of 1. that sound like a pretty damn sweet deal to me. i'd do it. be like, yoink, other sluts are mine so you take the one annoying one there because of the yeah yeah and the hey hey and the PAIN IN THE GLAVIN!!!!
ive decided something, i need more clothes with writing on the crotch. i mean, a little light reading material for those who might be interested.
so, i think i've decided that i think it would be funny if i was on a dating show where multiple girls had to fight for me. because you know they would, no matter what i did. i mean shit, they want to be on tv :D so yeah, there would be lots of running around naked and such. naked seems like a good plan. i mean, this idea is almost as good as the sex robots. nothing is quite as good as that, i mean with the way the technology would develop. that stuff is usally pretty quick. soon it would be no contest. we'll see when we get there.
speaking of sex robots, hugh heffner has a pretty sweet deal set up there. i mean when you look at it, he has like 9 live in girlfriend sluts that just sleep with him. i can't see where you can go wrong with that. these girls know that they are just his fucktoys. the whole concept just cracks me up. i mean think about it!!!!! he's just like, i own you, and you know it. i watched this thing on MTV cribs a ways back. it was like, a half hour episode just of the playboy mansion. that guy should be everyone's hero, male or female. he has the sweetest place there. and he had to get a bigger bed, because sometimes the old one just wasn't big enough. one of the nice girls was kind enough to tell us that sometimes it still just isn't big enough. hugh was hanging out with all 9 of his sluts on his bed, and he made a great comment. it was something like "picasso went through his white phase, i'm just going through my platinum blonde phase." i was just laaaaaughing. oh yeah, and he has a son. that has to be the greatest place in the world for a guy to grow up. i mean shit......... it is pretty similar to porn buying you, instead of the other way around. you live the porn, instead of having to fantasize about it. i can't find anything wrong with this arrangement.
but anyways, what do i know
finger trail in the dust
matts wang smells like must
his pants fly off with a windy gust
all the squirrels run down with lust
but their raid on his crotch was a bust
because they could not get through the rust
i want to see extreme ops because it is stupid. i think it would be a good idea for me to be the end all beat all expert on stupid things. i think i'd be a great candidate for the position of king stupid. i'd take over the world. most people like at leats one stupid thing. so, by liking me, they can like a whole bunch of stupid things in one fell swoop. all i need is a little name recognition, and the world is practically mine. it is all so simple.
oh my god....... 007 Revlon commercial..... that is just wacky. i don't understand. james bond powder free foundation? what the hell! if powder free foundation exists, i bet the real james bond wouldn't wear it. it would just block the pimpin.
mtv dismissed... there is a whole lot of grinding going on on the dance floor. one of the guys just did something pretty sweet. the girl wasn't dancing with him, so he grabbed some other chick and started dry humping her. i was like, bwahahahaha. but yeah, the guy gave him his time out card, then the other guy took the girl away. so the one guy stayed out on the dancefloor and is now dancing with like 4 chicks. if i were him, i'd try to get dismissed. he'd get 4 chicks for the price of 1. that sound like a pretty damn sweet deal to me. i'd do it. be like, yoink, other sluts are mine so you take the one annoying one there because of the yeah yeah and the hey hey and the PAIN IN THE GLAVIN!!!!
ive decided something, i need more clothes with writing on the crotch. i mean, a little light reading material for those who might be interested.
so, i think i've decided that i think it would be funny if i was on a dating show where multiple girls had to fight for me. because you know they would, no matter what i did. i mean shit, they want to be on tv :D so yeah, there would be lots of running around naked and such. naked seems like a good plan. i mean, this idea is almost as good as the sex robots. nothing is quite as good as that, i mean with the way the technology would develop. that stuff is usally pretty quick. soon it would be no contest. we'll see when we get there.
speaking of sex robots, hugh heffner has a pretty sweet deal set up there. i mean when you look at it, he has like 9 live in girlfriend sluts that just sleep with him. i can't see where you can go wrong with that. these girls know that they are just his fucktoys. the whole concept just cracks me up. i mean think about it!!!!! he's just like, i own you, and you know it. i watched this thing on MTV cribs a ways back. it was like, a half hour episode just of the playboy mansion. that guy should be everyone's hero, male or female. he has the sweetest place there. and he had to get a bigger bed, because sometimes the old one just wasn't big enough. one of the nice girls was kind enough to tell us that sometimes it still just isn't big enough. hugh was hanging out with all 9 of his sluts on his bed, and he made a great comment. it was something like "picasso went through his white phase, i'm just going through my platinum blonde phase." i was just laaaaaughing. oh yeah, and he has a son. that has to be the greatest place in the world for a guy to grow up. i mean shit......... it is pretty similar to porn buying you, instead of the other way around. you live the porn, instead of having to fantasize about it. i can't find anything wrong with this arrangement.
but anyways, what do i know
