Monday, April 26, 2004
what have i learned today?
i live in the wrong place. everything about my current home is wrong. its just wrong to live here. i need a new place. i have 5 months to find the right place, i don't think i'll have any problems :) i don't even have to start looking for another few months, at most just dipping my toe in to test the waters of the rental market.
what can you learn about me from this?
i was stoned when our crazy landlady sprung the whole lease resigning deal on me, so i did it for another full year instead of trying to pull some sort of month to month thing. at the time i didn't mind the place so much, so it seemed like a good idea. she wouldn't have gone for it anyways, she wouldn't have understood how a month to month lease could work. i've also learned that it is not a good idea to just break your lease, and this one isn't actually hindering me at all. i can definitely live here until its up. i said i would. at least now i know that it is important to find the right place to live.
life is study!
i live in the wrong place. everything about my current home is wrong. its just wrong to live here. i need a new place. i have 5 months to find the right place, i don't think i'll have any problems :) i don't even have to start looking for another few months, at most just dipping my toe in to test the waters of the rental market.
what can you learn about me from this?
i was stoned when our crazy landlady sprung the whole lease resigning deal on me, so i did it for another full year instead of trying to pull some sort of month to month thing. at the time i didn't mind the place so much, so it seemed like a good idea. she wouldn't have gone for it anyways, she wouldn't have understood how a month to month lease could work. i've also learned that it is not a good idea to just break your lease, and this one isn't actually hindering me at all. i can definitely live here until its up. i said i would. at least now i know that it is important to find the right place to live.
life is study!
Saturday, April 24, 2004
what have i learned today?
i'm glad i don't have to be on blood thinners. i read ryans blog and it doesn't sound like blood thinners are a very good time.
here's hoping ryans blood can keep its self thin enough on its own soon
i'm glad i don't have to be on blood thinners. i read ryans blog and it doesn't sound like blood thinners are a very good time.
here's hoping ryans blood can keep its self thin enough on its own soon
what have i learned today?
10 hours is still a long time. my weekends are busier than my weeks. my mornings start at 11, my nights start at midnight. it makes sense that i have shifted my schedule to this.
what should you learn about me?
this a dream come true :D
10 hours is still a long time. my weekends are busier than my weeks. my mornings start at 11, my nights start at midnight. it makes sense that i have shifted my schedule to this.
what should you learn about me?
this a dream come true :D
Thursday, April 22, 2004
what have i learned today?
be careful who vouch for and bail out of jail. if you front money to a bondsman to bail someone out of jail and said person runs from the court charges, you are responsible for them and you either have to pay what they owed yourself or arrange to have them arrested. even if you do turn them in (you can also physically drive them to the bail bonds building) you are charged a $100 dollar court fee. i saw my manager go through this process at work this afternoon. he has to tell the police where to find this guy, and he has 2 weeks to get him arrested. it was uncomfortable to watch him begin to understand what he was doing after he told the bondsman he agreed to do it. i don't blame him, his friend is out of control. he lives paycheck to paycheck, how in the hell could he get $1500, which was the amount he would have to pay that his friend owed. his friend is lying to the bondsman and his parole officer, and is just skipping out on his court dates. my manager paid for the bond to get him out of jail, so its on him if the guy just splits. so he's hanging out with the guy tonight, and he can't tell him that he's going to do this because the guy will run. he is going to have the cops get him in the morning, because he doesn't want it to be a big scene in front of all of their friends when it happens. but they had prior plans, so they are going to be chilling at their favorite bar for the last time before this guy inevitably goes to jail for quite a while, and he can't tell him. if i was in his position, i would have the cops after him as soon as possible also. it is not an experience i ever want to go through.
so what should you learn about me today?
just that. this is an experience i never want to have to go through, so think twice before you ask me to bail your dumb ass out of jail. there are very few people i would actually bail out of jail, for any reason. think "will he actually do this for me?" ... because i won't. i just want to warn you. i am all for helping my friends when they are in need if i can, but if someone puts me in an impossible situation because of their own stupidity, the decision will be easy to make after watching my friend have to deal with this today.
luckily no one has asked. kudos to you, and i sincerely appreciate the fact that you haven't
be careful who vouch for and bail out of jail. if you front money to a bondsman to bail someone out of jail and said person runs from the court charges, you are responsible for them and you either have to pay what they owed yourself or arrange to have them arrested. even if you do turn them in (you can also physically drive them to the bail bonds building) you are charged a $100 dollar court fee. i saw my manager go through this process at work this afternoon. he has to tell the police where to find this guy, and he has 2 weeks to get him arrested. it was uncomfortable to watch him begin to understand what he was doing after he told the bondsman he agreed to do it. i don't blame him, his friend is out of control. he lives paycheck to paycheck, how in the hell could he get $1500, which was the amount he would have to pay that his friend owed. his friend is lying to the bondsman and his parole officer, and is just skipping out on his court dates. my manager paid for the bond to get him out of jail, so its on him if the guy just splits. so he's hanging out with the guy tonight, and he can't tell him that he's going to do this because the guy will run. he is going to have the cops get him in the morning, because he doesn't want it to be a big scene in front of all of their friends when it happens. but they had prior plans, so they are going to be chilling at their favorite bar for the last time before this guy inevitably goes to jail for quite a while, and he can't tell him. if i was in his position, i would have the cops after him as soon as possible also. it is not an experience i ever want to go through.
so what should you learn about me today?
just that. this is an experience i never want to have to go through, so think twice before you ask me to bail your dumb ass out of jail. there are very few people i would actually bail out of jail, for any reason. think "will he actually do this for me?" ... because i won't. i just want to warn you. i am all for helping my friends when they are in need if i can, but if someone puts me in an impossible situation because of their own stupidity, the decision will be easy to make after watching my friend have to deal with this today.
luckily no one has asked. kudos to you, and i sincerely appreciate the fact that you haven't
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
this website is no longer serving its function. it needs to change to suit my needs. bear with me. it is safe to say that it has been a long time since i have actually trusted in sluts the way i once did. it is still the greatest title in blog history, but it simply is no longer true.
on to bigger and better things i say!
what have i learned today?
things other people say or do cannot define you. they can help you understand yourself, but ultimately they mean nothing.
on to bigger and better things i say!
what have i learned today?
things other people say or do cannot define you. they can help you understand yourself, but ultimately they mean nothing.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
hmmmmmmm...... is indifference the lack of interest towards one, or equal interest towards all things?
the blank canvas on which life is painted.
the blank canvas on which life is painted.
Saturday, April 10, 2004
wheeeee, another person quit at work. just showed up for their shift and quit and left instead. so i get to work more now, WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
i don't even know what i think. i'm just numb
i don't even know what i think. i'm just numb
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
so yeah, here's the deal. i feel dumb lately. i don't really like being around people because i think it is pointless. even people i like. i put on the act, but i'm getting jaded towards the act. i always talk and try to sound interesting, but i don't really care about being interesting anymore. i don't feel dumb around myself, but i don't like who i am around other people. i mean seriously, what do i have to talk about with anyone. with all my jabbering about the lack of thought that seems to be going around, i swing right back into the same pattern of blank indifference. so yeah, sorry to everyone else who doesn't think, it is possible that you are just in a funk like i am. if you aren't in a funk and are really just dumb, then screw you still, but the rest of you, you're cool. for now...
I have recognized the funk, though, and ways to get out of it. i'm weighing them because they are contradictory to other efforts i have taken towards getting out of other funks. its all a funking pain in the ass, if you ask me.
i just don't care. sometimes i think i just want people to leave me alone, but thats not it. i have just been letting things stew lately because i can't get over my ego about myself and thus have been avoiding blogging. i put too much stock in my so-called genius. i've been mediocre for longer than i like to admit. mediocre, and polite to the point that it makes me insincere. without my blog, i don't have any honesty anywhere outside of my mind, and that just isn't good. anyways, is time to find some more that balance thing. at least i've been sleeping, so things must not be going too bad. just a little boredom, it really could be a lot worse. so if you are wondering "whats going on with that guy" the answer is actually nothing. like, literally, nothing. you are looking at it. i'm sitting here talking because there is nothing else. some may call it boring, some may call it freedom, i call it my divine right to lazyness.
so spoketh the wank, amen. there are always things to figure out.
I have recognized the funk, though, and ways to get out of it. i'm weighing them because they are contradictory to other efforts i have taken towards getting out of other funks. its all a funking pain in the ass, if you ask me.
i just don't care. sometimes i think i just want people to leave me alone, but thats not it. i have just been letting things stew lately because i can't get over my ego about myself and thus have been avoiding blogging. i put too much stock in my so-called genius. i've been mediocre for longer than i like to admit. mediocre, and polite to the point that it makes me insincere. without my blog, i don't have any honesty anywhere outside of my mind, and that just isn't good. anyways, is time to find some more that balance thing. at least i've been sleeping, so things must not be going too bad. just a little boredom, it really could be a lot worse. so if you are wondering "whats going on with that guy" the answer is actually nothing. like, literally, nothing. you are looking at it. i'm sitting here talking because there is nothing else. some may call it boring, some may call it freedom, i call it my divine right to lazyness.
so spoketh the wank, amen. there are always things to figure out.
