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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
so i'm wondering, when did i stop liking going out in public? i think a combination of having no money, and my immense displeasure at the company i used to keep, i've just gotten grumpy and unexciting. which brings me to meg's b-day party. while not terribly surprising, meg wants dinner and dancing. i get it. i think. well, i understand... no wait... i guess i don't. i just don't know. am i afraid of other people? of socializing? i don't think that's it, since i can fake talking to people pretty well. damnit... i just don't know. i guess i just like being comfortable. comfortable with my surroundings, comfortable with the people i know. granted i can't say that i would enjoy the company of the people who i expect are going to this party terribly (there are a few exceptions i think) i gotta go with the devil i know as opposed to the one i don't. a place to relax, to get away from crowds, a place to just talk with one or two people without having to shout over music, an environment where you can at least kinda be yourself. i guess i just can't do that in public.
also considering the group that's going to this, i can't quite grasp how well they do in a dance environment. the girls, maybe, the guys, meh... not likely. i don't know. i guess i'm griping cause i'm an ass. or at least i'm working on it. one day soon, there will be no b-day parties with people looking to have fun. sooner or later, everyone will settle down, and then b-days become little intimate get-togethers. not parties, but get-togethers. none of you can escape it. hell, dan's already freakin engaged. how long before other dominos start falling? good luck gang.
also considering the group that's going to this, i can't quite grasp how well they do in a dance environment. the girls, maybe, the guys, meh... not likely. i don't know. i guess i'm griping cause i'm an ass. or at least i'm working on it. one day soon, there will be no b-day parties with people looking to have fun. sooner or later, everyone will settle down, and then b-days become little intimate get-togethers. not parties, but get-togethers. none of you can escape it. hell, dan's already freakin engaged. how long before other dominos start falling? good luck gang.
Saturday, October 02, 2004
there was a time, when for some reason, there was manuel, protecting his kingdom of blog was threatened by a blog of my own, and he decided he should get all bitchy about it. this was brought up just a week ago, and as a collective thought, we figured it'd be kind of fun to turn the tables around. i'm calling you out buddy! that's right. you smell. doesn't matter if it's true. just letting you know i'm not gonna take it anymore. manuel, you suck. you heard it here first.
it is 3 am, tho, so i could just be making this up, but who the hell cares anyway?
it is 3 am, tho, so i could just be making this up, but who the hell cares anyway?
